Childhood

My oldest and youngest memory of myself was the burn I got on my right arm right above my elbow in the inside of the arm.It wasn't the founders memory but I don't remember feeling the pain I was at least two and six months so I was waking up from my nap to see everyone worried I didn't realize at first until I saw it.What I saw was a shark tooth like shape but different maybe because it came from an iron like the top point of it.I wasn't thinking much of it since I was young but I did though it was really cool like a scar to show off so I didn't wear long sleeve well in the first place I never actually wore long sleeve but I vowed to myself if I ever did it would be me believing what others think.I do wear long sleeves now but it's not to cover up the scar it's for the cuts on my hand that's what I cover up for I would roll up my sleeves and no one would notice beside my elder sibling.So I didn't care much until someone else was staring at my cuts but we didn't know each other so I think it was more awkward for them to ask but we've been in the same class since school started so that makes it even more awkward since we see each other in every period and class.But I brushed it over and continued with my daily routine even if they stare at me every chance they get and make me feel as if there will soon be a hole in the back of my head it's fine totally.It ain't fucking fine like come on just say something or just leave me the fuck alone you son of a bitch god this is so annoying I can't even do anything since it get even more weird and he can easily denied it which would make things worse.It's gone on for a few days now and imma just keep pretending but that doesn't mean I have to stop rolling up my sleeves I put those cuts on my hands because I made the decision to and if they tell the teacher or any other adult I'll have my reason if it's my way of appealing to stress and emotions yeah it's not the best but so what it's my ideal way everyone can have there own plus I haven't put any new ones on for at least a week and three to two days so I'd say that's an improvement of taking a break.Of course that doesn't mean I'm going to stop but I will take breaks if needed to so it won't be a lot like the last time where I nearly blessed to death oh lord was that a time.