Soft Touch 2

Silence reigned in the speeding black car breaking through the streets. The two people inside seemed to be mute by the awkwardness that each other felt. However, their minds are still at home wondering about many things that cannot be voiced.

 If Wang Xian Wei looked calm with his gaze thrown at the road in front of him, then Xiao You Ren was the opposite. With his head lowered and his eyes fixed on his pants-covered thighs, there was great unrest in his chest. Every negative thought invaded his head incessantly. Some of the things that had happened to him during this time came back to him. He could neither deny nor run away as usual. Really, Xiao You Ren had become very weak. All he could do was sob a little while closing his eyes occasionally, enjoying every attack of anxiety in his heart.

 The man next to him couldn't help but glance at Xiao You Ren, as small sobs fell upon his listeners. Wang Xian Wei's eyebrows knit together with a questioning look. A question flashed through his mind, but his mouth was glued shut.

 "I…" Xiao You Ren's lips parted and he spoke softly. "I'm so disgusting, right?"

 Both Wang Xian Wei's eyes widened in surprise. He never thought about it. Although it was undeniable that his actions just now looked like someone who felt disgusted.

 "Sir, I'm so disgusting, right?" Xiao You Ren's hand moved to wipe his eyes. He had not issued all the questions in his heart. "Since Liam Ge left, he must be disgusted. I… I love him. It was a mistake."

 No matter how much his hand moved to wipe away the tears, it still couldn't stop the liquid crystal from flowing. His lips even trembled, holding back his own sobs. Xiao You Ren raised his head and looked sadly at the Wang Xian Wei who were focused on the road ahead. "That guy, Liu Xuan, he even called me trash."

 Wang Xian Wei couldn't help but glance at his side. Their eyes met for a brief moment. In that short time, Wang Xian Wei's heart was filled with unease. Xiao You Ren's eyes seemed to sink back into a strange feeling. His jaw was perfectly hardened. Suddenly Wang Xian Wei stopped the car and chose to go outside, leaving Xiao You Ren alone in the car.

 Shortly after Wang Xian Wei's departure, Xiao You Ren burst into tears. Spilled all kinds of suffocating feelings in his chest. Pour out the pain. He needed something more painful than this. Luckily the car stopped at a place far enough away from the crowd, so Xiao You Ren was free to moan to bring his mood back to normal. He cried for a long time, until his heart felt a little relieved, his roar faded and left a small sob.

 Not long after, Wang Xian Wei came in and handed over a bottle of mineral water.

 "For you," he said as soon as he sat down in his place. Xiao You Ren, who was hesitant to take it, made Wang Xian Wei unbelievably annoyed. He roughly placed the bottle on the side of Xiao You Ren's chair.

 "Quick!" Wang Xian Wei said it in a commanding tone. Xiao You Ren's side couldn't refuse. With shaking hands he grabbed the mineral water bottle. Slowly gulp it down to make him feel a little calmer. After that, both of his hands moved to wipe the remaining teardrops on his temples. His gaze was looking straight ahead, while the car was speeding back down the road.

 The crowd that night felt empty and empty as if not a single object crossed Xiao You Ren's eyes. The man's mind was also wandering on things he could never really forget, even though it had taken up much of his life. I don't know how many years have passed, but all the bad memories seem to linger around him. Xiao You Ren was shackled. He was bound by all the pain within him. All the improprieties that impede his freedom in friendship. Even though he met many people and made relationships, it was as if there was a fortress between them. He was the only one who built the barrier.

 The silence creates long-lasting silence. It's been a few tens of minutes and they still feel at home with their mouths shut tight. Xiao You Ren was motionless like a statue, still staring blankly at the stretch of road in front of the car. Wang Xian Wei who was in a state of irritation mixed with confusion. His head was filled with various words that wanted to immediately come out of his mouth. Every now and then his eyes glanced at Xiao You Ren through the mirror.

 When the car had entered the parking area of ​​the hotel where they were staying. Roughly Wang Xian Wei stopped the car. Xiao You Ren gasped and regained his senses. They looked around and realized that they had arrived at their destination. He was about to open the car door and get out. However, unfortunately the door was locked by the owner. Xiao You Ren glanced at Wang Xian Wei and found the boy staring blankly at him.

 "S-Sir," Xiao You Ren called out. He lowered his head again, not daring to look into the eyes of the man beside him.

 "Raise your head, Mister Xiao You Ren!" Again Wang Xian Wei issued a sentence with a clear commanding tone.

 Xiao You Ren hesitantly raised his head, although his gaze was still fixed downwards. Wang Xian Wei's aura was completely unusual to him. To the point that bad thoughts, about Wang Xian Wei hating him, crept into his brain again.

 "You Ren, listen!" Wang Xian Wei leaned back on the chair and folded his arms across his chest. "You're disgusting, you're bad at things, useless, and always a nuisance to other people."

 Wang Xian Wei's lips pursed again. The corner of his eye found Xiao You Ren who was again plagued with negativity. The small movements of the man indicate that he is feeling uncomfortable and restless, as well as excessive fear. Wang Xian Wei smiled lopsidedly at this behavior.

 "That's what you think, isn't it? And you want to change, but it's hard." This time Wang Xian Wei actually stared intently at Xiao You Ren, who also turned his attention to him.

 Their eyes met and locked onto each other.

 "If you want to change, the only thing you have to do is accept it." Wang Xian Wei's gaze grew sharper and seemed to say that he was not giving advice, but an absolute order. "Accept it if you're disgusting, admit it if you're scared. And try to turn things around. Make all the negativity your shield and weapon."

 Finished with his long sentence, Wang Xian Wei unlocked his car door and moved first to get out. He entered the hotel building, leaving Xiao You Ren still wrestling with his thoughts. Regarding Wang Xian Wei's words and all the truth. Xiao You Ren felt like reorganizing his life and doing as the man said. However, he didn't know how to start. Xiao You Ren was too naive for such things.

 In his hotel room. Wang Xian Wei threw his coat onto the sofa and pulled out a pack of cigarettes. He walked to the balcony and enjoyed the night view glistening in the darkness. A lit cigarette was tucked between his lips. Inhaling and exhaling smoke which is then swallowed up by the cold air. Blown away by the wind just to be at one with nature.

 His memories returned to the night that had passed. The day his best friend, Zheng Liam, invited him to spend time at one of the bars. That night Zheng Liam was too drunk and poured out his heart without realizing it. And one long sentence that until now was so passionate haunted Wang Xian Wei's mind. Keep on ringing and refusing to leave.

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 "Xian Wei, You Ren is very fragile. I want to hug him very tightly and tie him up with chains so he doesn't break, but I'm afraid I'll crush him with my weakness."