High Schools and Part Time Jobs

I'M OKAY.

So I've been doing well , no more tumors, I'm back in high school and I really only have one problem.

I CAN'T MAKE CONNECTIONS.

I have no friends , the ones I had are all gone , my time is spent locked in the house talking to people online.

I can't seem to find anyone , it's just me and my mom, but I even grew apart from my mom. She always says

"What did I ever do to make you so angry at the world"

I wish I could just tell her to leave me alone, I've tried to tell her that I've just been hurt at a very young age , and being aware of that doesn't change the pain.

Since then , I've never been okay. I can't trust , I cant love. Its all just waste of time really, we all die and we all live , some choose to make the most and some dont choose at all, and just drift . I consider myself the latter.

These days , I go to school and back , I don't talk to anyone. All the children think something happened during my period of homeschooling. They weren't wrong , I had developed a whole new mentality and I've never made an effort to socialize , it's all just a waste anyway, people leave and I get hurt, why waste time.

I'm currently pursuing a job, it's at the local diner

I need money so I can start saving for my future.

I think I'm gonna apply today , I want to do it , it's the first thing I've been enthusiastic about in a while.

So I'm on my way there , but when I look I see a girl at the door , she's tried to talk to me multiple times, but I don't even know her name.

I went on to ask for the manager , but to my surprise I

The girl behind me said ," you called". I didn't even notice she was in the uniform,  because it was the same girl who tried to talk to me.

And so I proceeded....