Unfindable

It's been over two weeks and am going crazy out of my mind. I can't find her anywhere. It's like she just vanished from the surface of the earth. One day she is here and the other she is gone. Just boom!Gone! Just disappeared like she was never here. Where in the world could she be?

I have gone to every place I thought I could find her. I have been to her aunt's place in Nakuru, she hasn't been seen there in a long while. At her cousin's place in Nairobi, there too she hadn't been there. I also went to Mombasa at her step mom's place, they hadn't seen her there. Everyone seems to have seen her recently in the news and the dailies over the court case, which I was solely responsible for, and after the trial, they had not seen her, and they were all focused on the next trending thing. Am such a low life for putting her through nationwide public humiliation yet she was the victim. Thunder and lightning should just strike my pathetic being dead.

My Sabrina, where are you? Help me find you. I have tried her cell more than a thousand times already with the same response over and over, " the number you are trying to reach, is out of service." But I am a man and I refuse to give up on the only woman I love. I refuse to be defeated. I have to fight for her, fight for us. I have to fix my mess. No matter what happens, I have to fix this. Even if I die in the process, although am already dead on the inside without her, I have to make it right.

I have tried reaching Marcus and let's just say he is mad with me, very infuriatingly furious with me. He refused to pick my calls and when I knock on his door, he never opens or if the door gets opened, it's her scary girlfriend Mimi who does. And man, there's no woman who scares me to death like Mimi. I swear she hates my very existence. Visiting Marcus's office hasn't been forthcoming either. His secretary always says he is in a meeting and that I can't go in when deep down my gut I know Marcus is just in there playing that FIFA game on his phone that he's addicted to. The other day, when I had had enough of his secretary, I tried storming into his office, well let's just say it didn't end well. I had to leave with a broken nose, a dislocated jaw, and a million-dollar embarrassment courtesy of the guards of the building. But the pain and the embarrassment didn't matter. All I wanted was my girl. Even just a slight clue, link, indication of where I can find her

Well, let's just say that the person who said, you miss the water when the well runs dry, you miss the light when it's burning low, you know your love when you let her go deserves an Oscar, Emmy, and Grammy awards combined. Because life right now was really teaching me a lesson. Everything reminded me of her. Literally everything. It was like living a nightmare over and over and it never stops. My heart, mind, body, and soul yearned for her that it hurt so much. It was like having surgery for a deadly disease without a cure, but now without anesthesia. The frustrating part of it was that Marcus knew where she was and couldn't even tell me, even for the sake of our 20 years plus friendship. What friendship? I burned that friendship with my own very hands. Curse me!

One more week later, and I am as sure as hell, that love sucks, God is punishing me for mistreating and betraying her daughter and I hate myself for everything. I have become a drunkard since I can't catch any sleep without thinking about her. Alcohol is the only sleeping pill. If I am not careful, am going to fry my liver and die before I find her. But I have to move on. I will not stop chasing after her and I will one day find her. I will use all the resources at my disposal to find her. For now, I will focus on my family's business and I will hire a private investigator to find her. As I ponder on these thoughts, I hear a knock on my door.

" Sir your flight to Nairobi takes off in an hour. Your bags are already packed and in the car. The driver is just waiting for you." Our family Butler says.

"I will be out in a few minutes."