FEEL BROKE

SEEING HER LIKE LIFELESS MAKES ME FEEL BROKEN.

I'm just starting at her he is sleeping since the Academy has it's own hospital so the clinic decide to admit Irin first.

Her Uncle is the one who came and visit her  and leave after a few minutes and tell me that he will do something.

There arw the evidence against the guys who attempted to rape her in the locker room since  there is a CCTV camera.

Irin is so pale, and it's already five in the evening when she wakes up i called the doctor and the doctor said that Irin is fine and can be discharged for tomorrow in the evening.

I WAS alone in the hospital since i ask Clint to go home first since i can sense in her eyes how tired he is...

"Hey, take care as always Irin." He said in the voice message that he send and that makes me smile.

As expected my parents don't even visit me here... Maybe uncle do visit me earlier but i need my parents right now.

I look at the wall clock and i realized that it's already seven in the evening but I can't see my parents presence . I must used to be like that this.

I almost tear up thinking that they don't care about me... The memories came back in my mind ...

We are in my the way in the airport for the flight in Spain for my international Science quiz bee ans suddenly Glyndale fall in the stairs and need to be admitted in hospital, both of my parents left me alone in the airport and I the only one who is  accomodating myself in the flight... I stay in spain for two weeks... And my parents don't even bother to follow me...

"Where is your parents young kid." The Flight attendant ask me.

"I'm just alone here... My parents left me here." I said and the shock expression is drawn in thier face.

"You got the medal!" Other flight attendant said, and i just nodded..

"Your parents must proud of you right now since you got that gold medal." The pilot join in the conversation.

And that makes my tear burst in my cheeks... Are they? I feel neglected this time... I feel alone? Aren't they can accommodate me ? Even the one of them I don't care if it's mother or father atleast i have one.

But no one ...

"Shhh... Don't cry ... Don't cry okay... Come here , eat this noddle soup." The pilot said while handed me the bowl of noddle soup...

I guess in that time that this pilot take his break .

I smile as the flight attendants makes some jokes about anything and by that i forgot that i was alone ...

***

I just noticed the tears in my face when someone is wiping on it,i open my eyes and i expect that those are my parents but it's clint.

"What are you doing here?" I ask him and i look away...

"I just want to look at you... I mean i just i want to know if you are alright right now."  Clint said and i take a deep breathe for me to stop crying.

"I'm fine... And the doctor said that i be discharged tomorrow... And the closing ceremony will be held tomorrow right?"

"Yeah... Well you can't stay in the bed for a long time... Get up i treat you in to something." Clint said with a smile,

I don't want to disappoint him too so i get up in the bed and we walk.

We walk till we reach the roof top of the hospital, i smile and let out the short breathe and feel the cold wind of the night.

"Meditating is better with this." Clint said and he handed me a Oishi Crackers.

"Yeah... Better." I said ...

It's been a long time since i eat this ... I think a three years ago...

"I miss this... Star gazing while eating this cracker, this one is my favorite." I said and he look at me with a shock.

"No offense, you have a bunch of money and you can't even buy a single Cracker."

"I can buy actually but i don't have a time ... The foods just stock in my room... I try buying this food but i don't have time for eating these so i just give it to the maids in the house." I said and i drink some water.

"Well i guess you we're the busiest person in the world indeed." He said with a chuckled...

" I use to do this alone ... Naah... Not alone at all i was with the books while doing this before." I said.

"Wait..." He said

I look at him and I'm shock because of the flash of the camera.

"Try to look away... For a better shot." He said so i follow him.

"Let me see... I'm to pale in this photo." I said while I'm looking at the photo on his phone.

"Well that's normal .. you almost lost too many blood earlier i never thought that you'll be wake up right now."  Clint said and i just realized that the stab in my neck is too deep and luckily I'm alive.

"Yeah... Thank you for what you have done earlier... And sorry for disturbing you too... It's not a first time that.. those things happened to me, it just that I can't defend my self anymore that's i here i am in the hospital." 

"So generally that things happened ... In the school right? Then what happened to them?" Clint ask...

" Punishment then ... Expulsion the worst is the school filed to the Students the legal case since they confiscated drugs... But the school is more stricter that before... "

" Yeah ... Your right... You we're such a brave girl, but a brave girl tears too..." He said and i smiled bitterly...

"You said it already... There are persons that choose to be brave to keep all thier pains behind the walls of themselves. For them not to tear as always but there are times that the bravest person tears and those tears are more painful than usual."

"Those are deep... And heart felt ... But it's better to cry that to set the walls ... For you not to feel tired ... Why? Because the more you cry... The more you let go the pains that you feel and by that the lesser the pain the happier the life is."

Those words touch me very much... The more i cry ... The more i happier.

"Be happy...  And I'm happy if you do that too..." He said and I'm confusedly look at him..

I can sense there is a strange connection between us and I don't know what it is ... This is my first time spending a time with a guy that i wasn't done yet before and this feeling it's like something warmth... A sparks an tingle I don't know...

"Why are you doing this Clint?"