Chapter 32: Freya's Point Of View

The room was quite spacious. The water was hot in the shower and I couldn't complain. There were fresh clothes. To which I assume was Silias who brought them.

I finish braiding my hair when there is a light knock on my door. I turn inside to see Silias come in.

"You are looking so much better." I arch an eyebrow at him. He just chuckles and slowly approaches me.

"Watch yourself Mage!" I shake my head pushing Shade back down. She was quiet but she obviously saw Silias as a threat. Silias holds his hands up and continues walking toward me. Almost like he is approaching a wounded animal.

"I'm here to see the the damage of the dark magic. I am so sorry for your loss princess." I swallow the lump that had formed in my throat. Silias gently takes my arm leading me to the bed. He helps me to lay down and his hands hover above my body. I watch Silias curiously as he closes his.eyes and begin ls mumbling. His face twists and his sadness was evident in his features. I sit up quickly and his eyes snap open.

He surprises me when he bends down so that I have to look down at him to see his eyes.

"Your..body will never be able to carry another child..Freya I am-" I nod and look down at my hands. My chest hurt and itnwas becoming hard to breath. Tears burned my vision.

"Freya?!" I look up at the sound of Raph's voice. His pain mirrored mine. But how was that possible. He snarls and turns toward Silias.

"What'd You Do?!" Silias throws his hands up and waves them infront of him frantically.

"The black magics damage was to great...she can't have children." Raph approaches me slowly and sits down next to me in the bed and just sits there. Silias disappears out of sight.

"What can I do?" I sniffle and look up at him curiously.

"What do you me-mean?" Raph sighs and takes me into his arms.

"Go ahead and cry Freya. No one is hear." My bottom lip trembled. That's when they fell. The tears. The heart ache. The grief.

Everything was falling apart and everything was being taken from me. Everything!

I had never cried so hard in my life. And Raph just held me tightly. Even when I beat on chest. He just sat and took it all..

I cried until my body couldn't physically make anymore tears. I couldn't understand why he was being so nice to me.

"I felt that. I'm caring for you because of a Blood Oath that was made between our mothers. While they were pregnant with us. It's normal for most dragon-bornes to have protectors. But it hasn't happened in generations. You aren't alone in your pain Freya. And with me you can't just block me out. That's not how the blood Oath works." My mother? Made a blood Oath with his mother?

I pull away and lean back against the head board staring at Raph. He smirks and looks up at me.

"Unfair isn't it? I can feel your every emotion..since I was a boy. I had no idea where they were coming from..Until you broke your arm when you were ten and I felt that. Lily finally understood what was happening." I wince. The only thing that I was thinking that it was unfair to Raph.

I inhale a deep breath and pull Shade forward da little.

"I Freya Diana Release you from The Blood Oath made by those before us." The room hummed for a moment and then stopped. Complete silence filled the room. But there was relief on Raph's face. A calming peace washed over him.

"Thank you." I shrug my shoulders. It wasn't fair for him to grieve over something that he wasn't even tied too.

"We've been gone for a week Freya. We will go home tomorrow. I wish I could give you more time to yourself but we need to get going." I nod. But I didn't look at him.

It made no difference I knew that A mated Wolf without his mate would go crazy or turn on his pack without meaning too.

Raph standing lingering for a moment before walking away.

Truth be told I missed Astor. More than I thought possible. And I felt guilty for even leaving...Devastated really. Astor would have to grieve as well...What if I just didn't yell him the part about losing the baby....I'd have to convince Raph not to say anything either.

I doubt that he would agree to it..Astor was his brother. But I wanted to save Astor of the heart break that it was causing me..If I could save him from that than I would. I didn't want him to hurt. ai just wanted him to be happy. He had Luca. And that would have to be enough...even for me.

'Mistress...I am so sorry. I tried to fight my way through. There was to much posion.' I inhale a breath and let it out slowly.

'This is not your fault. I did this to us and this is my punishment. I am just sorry that you lost her too.' Shade whimpers and I heard a soft sob in the back of my mind.

'This is not.your fault. The darkness that consumed your brother has had a long time to fester.' I didn't cry for Niko. In end My brother died long ago and what stood in his.place was a demon. I do not blame Shade for killing him.

'I wish there could have been another way..But your grief and your anger took hold of me..that combined with my own..' I hush her out loud and close my eyes.

'I'll never blame you. You saved us.' Shade sobbed alittle harder then. I listened to her cry. It tore my heart out listening to it.

We would get through this. Together.