Chapter 5

"Let me play with you kids. We have a castle tent in the backyard garden. I'll also prepare some of your things."

I quietly adjusted the work equipment before facing the laptop. It was only about half an hour before I felt hungry. I searched for what to eat but I couldn't find anything ready to eat.

Soon Shien enters. It quietly opened the stove and seemed to be cooking. I watched his face closely. I really don’t see that other expression other than idiot and mute.

"If you take care of the kids I'm still here I'll still support them." It was as if I was talking into the air. I follow its every move.

"If you remember their future I am still here. I will not deny the children. Just be free as your husband everything will be fine too."

"Will be fine?" It's hard to guess how she feels today meanwhile every time we talk I immediately guess what she will say and do.

"Yes, will be fine." Just sniff and then continue cooking. I followed it touching both shoulders. I looked her in the eye. "I'll only say this once. Listen and I won't say it again. I'm not tired of you anymore. I'm tired of seeing you every day. I'm tired of being with you. You understand that I know because I have a brain. You, you have a mind. If you think of the welfare of the children I will never fail I just want freedom from you."

"You're done?" I released her from the grip. I will run out of energy with this woman. His toughness. She would insist on what she wanted to do. I feel like I'm going crazy for being so tough.

"All right if you want that okay we'll be tough until one of us gives up."

"Okay, are you hungry already?" without emotion it prepared food on the table before the children returned. She's really blowing my horn. I don't want to hurt her because she's a woman. I don’t want to be too hard when it comes to our divorce. What am I going to do with her?

"PEPS." approaching my seat then turned to the food on the table, "Hey, it looks delicious, ah."

"If you're hungry eat."

"No one owns it?" But he was already sitting and spooning rice, "Where's Shien?"

"In the back with the kids." I accompanied it to eat until after we went straight to it back.

I have not yet asked what he came here for but before I could approach the two I immediately heard the conversation.

"Can you just tell the truth? We know he might change his mind."

"No need, Erdem." they both stared at the two children, "If he really doesn't want to I can't do anything."

"Will you sign the divorce paper? Don't you agree. You are the wife, and you have the right to fight for your husband."

"You can't have just one resistance. In a relationship you both have to hold on tight so you don't fall into mistakes. In our situation he seems to have resigned."

"You're still his wife. Fight for your family and another, poor kids."

"I'm just his wife on paper but his heart owns someone else."

"I think you're planning to leave my friend forever, ah?"

"I don't know, I feel sorry for the kids if I apply it I feel. This is what I want to happen. I don't want to end up thinking only of myself."

"What's good for the kids is what you should do. What if he loves someone else? You can still do everything to get him back to normal. Remember, you've been together longer than that Shariffa." I saw my wife nod before turning to where I was.

I averted my eyes as if I had heard nothing. I went near.

"What did you come here for?" I stared at Erdem.

"You've been visited since there's an upcoming event being held near here."

"Will you last?" I look at the watch, "I have to leave. I'll meet Shariffa." Erdem immediately looked at my wife as she bowed then pretended no one heard.

"Actually I would have liked to stay longer so that I can be with the youngest and I'm having a baby so if you're in a hurry I'll go ahead and leave."

"You're here first." Smiling my wife pleads here. "You haven't talked to your son in a long time." Erdem hesitated that he might get angry but of course I didn't care about them.

"You're here first since they're not with you." I said, "Maybe after one hour then I'll leave." Its stare at its own watch.

"It's up to you," I looked at my children. "Pauline, Paolo dad is leaving." The two went ahead just to get closer.

After giving a goodbye kiss to the two children, I immediately said goodbye to my friend. I looked at my wife's face but she didn't look at me before. Deep down I thought I had passed Shariffa's house well I saw the other corner then went back to where I was.

"Love, I have good news."

"What?"

"My parents agreed to marry you and they agreed for us to be together."

"You mean?"

"We will be together before we get married. It means I will live in your house."

"But my wife is still there."

"So what? There's no case against me. I'm not in a hurry."

"Wait, why did the wind change?" I wonder question.

"I need to be a kind person since my parents agreed to our wedding plan. I need to be a mother to your child so that even without Shien. I am here to take care of her."

"Are you sure? Are you okay?"

"Yes, I'm sure your wife will also leave the house when she sees that we are in love. She himself will leave if she knows that she is an obstacle, maybe that will be the reason for her to sign the paper."

"I'll talk to her about it…"

"Don't think that whether she agrees or not, she can't do anything." I sigh,

"Okay, I'll take you."

"Yes! Actually, my clothes are packed."

"Okay, I'll pick you up tonight."

"Ah, not now?" Pout it.

"I'm going somewhere then I'll pick you up."

"Why did you come here to the house when you're leaving too?"

"I want to see you."

"Really?" She hugged me tightly. "My boyfriend's sweet. I hope after we get married we'll have a baby soon."

"We'll be given it right away if you want."

"But I promise I'll be a good mommy compared to your wife. I'll pick up everything you want and I won't be tough. We'll get along, we'll be together for a long time until old age."

My lips automatically widened at Shariffa's sweetheart. I'm only five years older than her but if you act, speak like a child. You wouldn’t think she would plan for our future. Shien and I are really different. My wife doesn't have a problem with her, she's just stubborn, she wants everything, she does to be obeyed.

I said goodbye and went straight to Zayn's house. I caught up with Roselle, and Isay in the living room was watching. My son approached me at once.

"Godfather, Daddy Zayn isn't here."

"Where is it?" I look at Roselle who is busy watching. I don't think I'm being noticed.

"Zee and I went out. Mommy, Godfather Peps."

"I saw." Well, she's angry.

"Mommy, can I go to my room first?"

"Sure baby, kiss mommy first." Kiss once hug it did to Isay before taking the child to his own room.

"What brought you here?" The face frowned as she folded his arms.

"I need to talk to Zayn but nothing."

"Yes, nothing."

"I'll just wait," I sat on the sofa.

"How are you?" I heard a smirk, "Are you right?"

"It's just fun too."

"Really? Are you happy?" in the tone of its questioning it seems that someone knows it.

"Yes."

"If at all people are happy when they hurt others it doesn't matter." We stared at each other slowly, "Shien and I are not close but I want to side with her because of your irresponsibility." I stood up then went straight to open the door.

"You don't stay away from unsatisfied men." Its last voice before I leave the place. It seems tiring to argue. It seems like everyone thinks badly of me. What did I do wrong? I just followed what my heart was beating for.

"I'M NERVOUS." I am with Shariffa here outside our house. It restrained my hand holding the doorknob.

"Relax I'm sure my wife won't fight you." Encouragement.

"What if she hurts me?"

"I'm just here I won't leave you." After receiving strength from me it nodded and let me open the door.

"Honey!" The smile on my wife's face immediately disappeared when she saw Shariffa and I together. Slowly examined the suitcase, and we held hands.

"Why is she here?" Say it again.

"This is where she will live." I replied.

"Stay? Why what is there? Why did you bring your other woman here ?! Aren't you really ashamed ?!" I let go of Shariffa's hand.

"You shouldn't tell Shariffa other woman because she's not like that!"

"You're blind. How come while we're still married I haven't signed the divorce paper yet!"

"So, and sign it!" I shouted orders.

"Aren't you really ashamed? You didn't give me respect in our household." It approached while holding my arm but I also immediately walked away and approached Shariffa to take its hand.

"This is where my girlfriend will live, whether you like it or not. Likewise, after you sign the paper, we will get married and this is where she will live. We will build a happy family."

"You don't matter, Peps!" It threw the ring that was just naked on its finger. I followed her into the room well without our two children.

"Why don't you just accept that I don't feel for you anymore ?!" I'm worried.

"I know that. I accept that but it doesn't seem fair to let you settle your other woman. You're making me look like I have no right here in our house. Peps, where do you get the thickness of your face?!"

"Stop me, Shien! Act according to your level. Don't treat me like you're the victim here. Why don't you try to find another man so you don't get angry. I'm fine with you finding someone else because there's nothing I care! " she threw the tools at where I was standing. She was too angry for me to stop what she was doing.

Pauline and Paolo entered the room crying.

"If you insist on settling your other woman, we'll just leave." She hugged our children.

"No leaving!" I stopped pulling Pauline at the same time.

"The thickness of your face!" Consecutive blows to my chest.

"Stop that! If you want to get away don't take the kids!" I took Paolo at once.

"They're my children. I'm entitled to!"

"All right, take Paolo but Pauline is mine!" It stopped while sobbing.

"I didn't expect us to end up like this. Why are you like that, Peps. What's the matter with me huh? I love you so much, I love you so much. I-I can't afford to separate us ----"

"I'm sorry." I felt my tears fall one after another.

"What's my fault why are you torturing me like this…."

"I'm sorry, Shien. Sorry, Pauline, sorry Paolo."

"It's exhausting but I can't let go of this family because now I love you so much. I can't afford to ruin us with another man."

"Daddy, don't hurt mommy anymore." Pauline cried.

"Daddy." sobbing call of my youngest.

"Sorry kids." I think I cried louder than the three of them and knelt in front of them. "Please forgive me."