Head Underwater
I felt the quick thumps of my heart, slowly beating down to a calm. The water surrounding me clogged all of my senses, giving me the relief and Quiet I desperately needed. The water felt cool against my skin Like I had laid on a bed of silky clouds, washing away the sweat that I had accumulated in trying to hide the panic that clung on to me on the drive to the house.
I was grateful for my luck to discover that the Quinn's were not around, so there was no one with enough authority to keep me from rushing to my room. The jitters that went through me made me pull off my uniform in a hurry. It didn't feel quick enough, so I forgo taking off my underwear and swiftly entered the bathroom.
I was lucky to have a massive tub waiting for me. After filling it with water, I stepped in and steeped my head all the way in, with the heavyweight of water on my clothes dragging me in. I felt like I could hear nothing and everything at the same time. Instead of bringing me distress, It soothed me. The Sounds slightly flirted with my ears. And whenever I couldn't hold my breath, I raised my head for air and went back in again.
My thoughts were in order and disarray as They kept on pulling me into the past and present.
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After my dancing lessons were over, I hurried along into my chambers accompanied by a maid, who then assisted in my clean-up and changed me into my night outfit. Usually, I preferred to have Zinnia wait on me, but she was swamped with other duties and I did not wish to add more. So even if I felt very self-conscious and a little nervous about having someone I was not completely comfortable with to undress me, I shook off my discomfort and bore with it.
After I had switched on the Night lamb that the maid turned off, I unfastened the little brown box I kept hidden under my bed and pulled out a book that had its edges a little worn out.
"I am sorry, Z. But I need this," I judged, making up excuses in an effort to relieve me of the guilt that would surely follow after this.
Some pages were more worn out than others, showing how much time I kept pouring on it as I reread it. The pages within the book were protected by a Hard red cover that held a drawing of a Lavender on the front with the title "The CEO Loving Sweetheart".
-I used to be so confused about the meaning of the term "CEO". So I was very thankful to discover a glossary at the end of the book that explained the unfamiliar words used by the Author. If not for that, I would probably not understand some parts of the book-
I perched on my bed and flipped the pages to the places I had bookmarked and ran my eyes across the words, using my imagination to take me far away from this world.
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Eva looked with her face flushed as the jersey Cassius had worn stretched taut as he swiftly took the ball from an opponent's hands. His usually tamed and lush hair had long forgone the restrictions of his normal hairstyle and increased his attractiveness by a long run, turning into a wild and beautiful mess. His silky hair of medium length flew into an arc as he jumped up and throw the basketball into the hoop.
Cassius's actions made the boys of the opposing team sigh in defeat, and for excitement to sweep through her class as they roared loudly in cheers. The shouts of how amazingly good and sighs of how hot he was from the girls surrounding her were lost among the other Noise being made in the huge sports hall.
Eva hadn't been on her usual cheerful self, which had caused the many boys in her class to flock to her and attempt to make her happy, which ended up in failure. What happened the day before had caused her mood to take a great fall.
She had just argued with Aron before he left for his trip overseas. So She had attended sports day with a lot less enthusiasm than she would like. But that went out the window when She saw the smile Cassius flashed her way, which made the girls swoon.
"Was he smiling at me?" A girl giggled out with a red face beside Eva to her friend.
-You wish-
"He was clearly looking at me" Eva Mumbled in objection.
"Sorry, did you say something?" The girl who had giggled out asked, leaning closer for an answer.
"Nothing" She smiled.
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I skipped to another bookmarked page, not wanting to read more about Eva.
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His black hair slightly fluttered from the breeze that came from the window that stood on the wall beside him. He looked mesmerizing as he sat there with his head bowed down to the table in a quiet slumber.
"Eva" A voice mumbled in a sleepy voice sending a light shiver down through my body
-Beautiful-
"No. Stop thinking of that. You have Aron" Eva thought.
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-Yes stop. He is Not yours." I spoke out, desperately wishing I could enter the book and scream to her that he was Mine. MINE.
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I gasped as I pushed out my head out from underwater. The water slowly trickled down from my skin as I stepped out of the tub, wetting the floor. I removed the soaked clothes from my body and placed the pile by the side of my laundry basket, as I didn't want to wet the others.
I walked into my shower and took a proper bath. With soap and all.
At first, I wanted to slowly forget my past life and move on into a new life, but it wasn't as easy as I imagined it to be. I thought that as long as I keep pushing it down, It will eventually go away. But I am starting to realize that just because I manage to push it down at the moment, things do not magically become better.
Instead, it was becoming worse the more I sweep it under the rug. Surely sooner than later, a bump will show, and it won't be enough to keep it hidden anymore. At least not when the memories keep on getting triggered by the little things.