Chapter 4

Walking away from Damon was the hardest thing I had to do. When I was at a safe distance I had to flinch when I heard the sound of something being thrown against the wall

" fuck that's not good," Adam says pushing himself off the wall. I watched him slowly walk inside the room and close the door behind him.

I don't think I've ever walked away from Damon like that. I was always scared of the wrath I was going to face.

" what the fuck did you say to him" I shove James against the side table. Knocking off a picture frame.

He glared at me readjusting himself to lean back on it. " just that I was the only one you'd been with, he wanted to know if you fucked any guys whilst you were gone "

" I'm sorry about what I said. But we both know it didn't mean anything to any of us " I can only nod my head because it's true.

I told everyone I was going up to a room to sleep. I had enough of this. I've imagined the moment Damon came home hundreds of times.

I'd run into his arms and he'd hold me close to his heat. His hands holding me up it was the only dream I never wanted to wake up from.

Walking upstairs I noticed that most of the rooms were full. Peoples bags were chucked in there. As I walked across the hall one room was calling out to me.

The door was half open and it had a beautiful warm light shining out to the hallway. I stepped inside and was instantly met with a smell that made my insides melt.

I never had a thing for candles but this one in particular just smelt absolutely Devine. I noticed that all my bags were tucked neatly underneath the table.

The room also had a few pictures. When I could step closer I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Pictures of me and Damon. Three of them to be exact.

I can't believe he still has these. I was such an ugly child back then.

Once I had a quick look I made my way over to the bed. The bed had been made to perfection with soft silk bed sheets, the colour a light rose pink.

There was a box that was laid on the end of the bed. I removed the ribbon when I saw my name on a little card.

Opening it up I found a pair of pyjamas. It was a long-sleeved button shirt with a matching pair of shorts. Black silk as-well these are actually my favourite type of nightwear.

I felt weird. Please tell me my mum bought these for me.

It had to be her.

Shrugging my shoulders, I grabbed the clothes and stepped through one of the doors into the en-suite bathroom.

I'll save my time in that gorgeous bath until next time. I'm too tired so I stepped into the shower instead.

The shower was big and it had a beautiful marble backdrop.

I did all my business and walked out to the bed. Slipping inside I let my eyes close and let my dreams take over.

I actually slept with a smile on my face when I think about how Damon is finally back home. I know that he will probably be leaving again soon but right now I'm not going to think that.

A few hours later I was woken up by what I could only describe as someone stroking my hair.

I turned slightly and felt a hand being placed against cheek very tenderly.

" baby girl" I heard him say. His words were like silk but I could recognise that voice from anywhere.

I didn't say anything I just sunk into his hand even more placing a kiss on one of his fingers.

" sleep now " he mumbles passing his thumb over my lips. I felt him get up from the bed and the sound of the door closing.

I woke up the next morning with a smile on my face. I was desperate for some breakfast and if I knew any better I would know that Natalie was cooking breakfast.

I made my way downstairs peering into the kitchen. The smell of freshly cooked English breakfast filled the room.

What surprised me even more was the fact that Natalie wasn't cooking but instead her son was. He wore a plain black t-shirt paired with jeans.

If I knew any better he probably just showered after a session at the gym. This is what he used to do before. I'm kind of glad he kept up with his schedule.

I leant against the door just admiring his new physique. The army did wonders for his body and he even changed his hair. It's a lot shorter than it used to be.

" talk to him sweetie " dad says walking past the hallway as he peered to see what I was staring at. He didn't look surprised at all that I was ogling Damon.

He pushed me further into the kitchen causing me to lose my balance and now make a fool out of myself. Just great thanks dad.

With the murderous sound I made in the kitchen Damon flinched hard and his head snapped in my direction.

He relaxed as soon as he realised it was me but he made no effort to give me a sign of the mood he was currently in.

" hungry? " he asked me as he plated up the sausages he was cooking in the pan. He turned around to place the pan back on the stove.

I nodded my head. I didn't really know what to say. Right now, I'm very confused.

I was saved by some of the others filing into the kitchen. They easily got into a conversation with Damon just like he never left. They found it so easy to get back into that routine.

I decided to lean back and just watch. Seeing him laugh and joke with everyone only made me happier. I was pleased that he was back and I knew we'd have to talk properly soon enough.

My eyes were focused on his beaming smile. Something that I missed so much. He would smile at me like that.

His eyes snapped up to mine and he started to make his way over to me. With each step I struggled to breathe.

He grabbed my hand and instantly pulled me along with him as he made his way around the house.

"Stop, where are we going Damon" I said trying to keep up with his steps. He was moving very fast.

Way too fast for me to keep up.

He stopped abruptly when his name left my lips. He shocked me by pinning my waist against the wall. His face dangerously close to mine.

" why him, why James my best friend fuck sake baby" he groaned burying his face in my neck.

This is why he's mad.

" you left me Damon, I needed something " I say trying not to sound like horny teenage girl yet that's exactly what I felt like.

His eyes came back to me. " You were so pure Baby, you should have waited" he mumbled into my neck.

And what exactly was I waiting for. I'm now 23 and I'm still a virgin.

" I didn't fuck him for goodness sake, He was my first kiss, Damon, I can do whatever the hell I want "I exclaimed angrily at him, raising my voice slightly. I hated how he was trying to control me right now even though my thighs were clenching for him.

My back was suddenly pinned to the wall, his fingers against the base of my throat.

The anger that was radiating off him was so strong. He tightened his hold on me.

" you and I both know that I was your first kiss baby girl, don't you ever forget that" he snarled angrily at me before storming down the hall, slamming the door behind him.

I stood in the hallway shocked to my core. How could he do that to me. I had been living thinking that Damon had not remembered.

Why did he even care that he was my first kiss? That was 2 years before he left to leave for the Army. It didn't matter to him then. It shouldn't matter to him now.

I walked into the lounge my mind in a mess. I braved a smile for my family and friends but I think they could see behind this mask.

" I want to go out, can we do that," I asked Christian as he sipped from his coffee. I don't think I could stay in this house for much longer this morning.

"Um yeah, let me just ask Damon " Christian says giving me an odd look.

He rose up from the seat but I was confused.

"Why do you need to ask Damon?" I asked him curiously.

He rocked back and forth before sighing. " sky, I know you're under the impression that this is my house but it actually isn't mine" he said with a guilty expression.

I stared at him blankly before it all started to make sense to me now.

You have got to be fucking kidding.

"It's Damon's isn't it" I state for him. He looks at me with sympathy.

" yes. He bought it as soon as he arrived " he told me. . I paused thinking further.

Well, when did he arrive? I thought he only just got back and that I was finding out along with everyone else.

I feel like this is karma for not talking to my family more.

" Does that mean he's back " I felt my eyes water as the next words left my lips. " for good" I whispered Christian was already nodding his head before I could even finish.

I spin on my heel and made my way to my room. Hell, that's not my room I don't think I can even live here.

Walking into the room I dug my way through my bags grabbing a simple summer dress and went to get ready. The sooner I get out of here the better.

" dad says we're going out, all of us " Lily said barging into my room. Adam wasn't far behind but he had his hand covering his eyes.

Such a nice boy.

"I'm decent" he instantly removed his hand and wrapped his arm around lily.

" why didn't you tell me this was Damon's place" I glared at my sister. I thought we never kept secrets.

"Because I knew you'd never come sky, you need to give him a chance " a chance. I gave him many chances, more than he deserves.

" maybe if he didn't try and strangle me in the hallway he'd have a chance" I say grabbing a few things and shoving them into a bag.

"He did what?" Christian bellowed from the hallway.

Fuck, I was under the impression that these walls were thicker.

"Strangled is slightly an exaggeration she's an adult not a little girl dad she can handle herself" we all heard Damon say as he stormed down the hallway.

His words struck a chord in me. My eyes were burning and I knew I'd be crying any minute.

I wore sunglasses just so people wouldn't see the tears falling down my cheeks every time a memory of me and Damon comes back.

Damon was driving the jeep to the town whilst Christian drove the car that I was in. We agreed to all go see a movie and then have a meal after.

We had a reservation at a nice French restaurant. I just hoped I could enjoy this night without crying anymore.

As we arrived at the restaurant I was pissed that they had placed me next to Damon. I stood next to the table waiting for someone to move.

Lily was gracious enough to swap places with me. I caught the annoyed look Damon gave me but I honestly didn't care.

" Damon you're not going to make me eat that are you" lily groaned staring at her plate. Damon had ordered for her he made her taste some French delicacies.

" just try it, beautiful I promise it tastes good" Damon convinced her. He fed her a mussel tilting it into her mouth.

I had to look away their cuteness was too much for me.

How can I be jealous of my baby sister?

"Damon, I didn't know you had family over" a woman said appearing at the table. She obviously works here from her uniform.

She placed her hand gently on his shoulder. " hey Jess, well I thought I'd invite them over. Close friends and family always gave me peace you know that" he said to her. He rose from his seat and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

I swear my food fell out my mouth and the most embarrassing part is that my mum and dad saw it. Dad had to cough to cover up his laugh.

" I'll leave you to it but call me later okay, a pleasure to meet you all" she says before leaving the table.

Everyone watched her as she left but soon turned back and got into the conversation again.

I could feel him staring at me. I felt hot under his gaze and I could barely eat my food without my handshaking.

I dropped my fork. I couldn't eat anymore, I realised that I was insanely jealous of that woman and even my sister.

What is wrong with me. As much as I hated Damon for what he did for leaving me. I truly loved that boy from the day he kissed me.

He is no longer my protector but rather somebody else's.

I went to grab my glass of water but instead placed it back on the table when I realised how blurry my vision was getting, the tears forming.

I discreetly wipe away a fallen tear, praying that I don't burst into tears anytime soon. When I rose my head, I knew he had seen the small motion. I cursed to myself I don't want his to see me weak. We're not teenagers anymore I can't be crying for pathetic reasons.

The sound of his chair sliding across the floor echoed in my ears. Thank god everyone kept talking I didn't want all this attention on me.

" come with me, " he said roughly placing his hand out for me to take. He stood behind me his presence intimidating.

"Please baby girl," he said low enough for me to hear.