Wrong Answers 

Chapter 81: Wrong Answers

"Suffer together?" Mia can only raise her head in frustration

"Why can't you just let me stay? Why do you keep on pushing me away!" It is also a frustrating moment for Terrence at that moment.

All he wanted to do is to love her be beside her, why is that so difficult.

Terrence knees gave out together with the tears that he has been fighting.

He just sat in the corner and started to let everything out.

Almost 5 years worth of emotions that he had chose to kept inside

"Am I still not forgiven? How much more do I need to suffer just to be able to stay with you, Am I not enough?" Terrence said in a low voice.

Mia also kneeled in front of Terrence; she touched his cheeks to wipe his tears.

"None of this is your fault Terrence, I have forgiven you before but the situation that I am would only hurt you more in the long run."

Even Mia couldn't hold her tears.

"You are more than enough, more that what I deserve" then Mia leaned forward to gently kiss Terrence, assuring him that she also loves him the way that he does.

As soon as their lips brushed on each other, Terrence tears flowed more. It wasn't a kiss of love

It was a kiss of assurance and goodbye.

"I am the most selfish and greedy person in the world Terrence."

They are finally looking eye to eye, all out no reservation.

"I don't want you to know my condition at all"

Terrence looked at her "Why Mia?"

Mia then stood up and sat down in the bed.

Silence once again filled the room.

Terrence is already fuming inside, he cannot understand what Mia wants, her words and actions are contradicting and none of it is making any sense.

"It won't be worth it."

At this time Mia looked at Terrence directly in the eye "Telling you my condition won't do anything for the both of us, it will be a burden for you and a worry for me"

"Let's just be casual with each other"

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Terrence went back to their apartment feeling lost. He couldn't hit the right answers when it comes to Mia.

If it wasn't wrong, the timing is always missed.

Always missed.

The moment he entered his room, Terrence collapsed as soon as his door closed. He stared into the darkness of the room. He can't think of a way to salvage the situation nor think positively about what just happened.

"Is this what it feels when its really over?" He is sure to himself that he doesn't want things ending up this way but he can't find a solution to this situation like its game over.

It was supposed to be a good day, they finally took their chances, both of them took that step forward so why are they back to square one? How can they be casual to each other? Everything just doesn't make sense to him.

He wanted to go back to Mia and demand things but he can't bring himself to go back, Terrence wants to know what is the right answer that Mia was looking for. He wants to correct his mistakes but the situation unfold in front of him is keeping him from doing the things that he wanted to do.

'Is it really over?' it is the question that he himself can't confidently answer. For the past 4 years all he knows is waiting for that one chance to go back to what it used to be, but now he wasn't sure.

The reason that Mia gave wasn't convincing enough to push him away. It was more of a reason for them to be together and spend all the remaining time that they have with each other, so why?

Mia went outside of her apartment after her conversation with Terrence.

Talking with him face to face made her see something that she couldn't before. She knows that Terrence is indeed sincere with everything that he is telling her but it just took her one statement to crumble that conviction and make him waver.

She knows him perfectly to a point that she can understand him better that he could even think of and she hates it.

She hates the fact that she just can't set aside what she sees and feel in that conversation.

'He loves me for a fact but he's not ready to take me as what I am' Mia just sighed in defeat. This is all in her, if she just took better care of herself, this wouldn't be the situation.

'I'm really fucked up' and she just sadly laughed at the situation that she's in and continued walking in their neighborhood.

Mia also needs to clear her head, Terrence isn't the only one who is suffering right now but it will be better if they would both cut their bond and start moving on.

It will be the best for him and will be the worst for her but knowing that Terrence can start again and find that someone who will just loves him as he is without any of the complication that she have, she is more that happy to break his heart

'And break mine in the process'

It is already a long overdue farewell that should have happened 4 years ago but none of them let go completely of each other, which brought them this mess.

"A penny for your thoughts?"

Mia turned around to see Lance standing behind her.

"What are you doing here?" Mia is surprised to see him this late in this area.

"I live around here" then he walked at the same pace with Mia.

"Really?" then Mia just continued walking while Lance.

"Yea" then Lance pointed at the direction where his apartment is located "Where are we going by the way?" Mia burst into a mocking laugh, "I don't know where you're going" and just continued walking.

"I'll go where you'll go" then Mia halted and looked at Lance

"I'm going to hell, would you like to come?"