Guilt

It was maddening how my past came back to haunt me though I had thought I had closed that chapter of my life.

I was content where I was, in the relationship, I was building but it seemed that my past did not want me to move on at all. 

Ever since the whole Bella issue was sorted out, I was happy, well, as happy as I could be.

Though I had tried forgetting about Tobi, I caught myself comparing Tobi and Reuben. 

I compared the way they made me feel, the way my heart felt when I saw them, and the way I yearned to see them.

It made me feel guilty at times, comparing Reuben to Tobi when I didn't feel the passion I felt when kissing him like I did when I kissed Tobi or expecting my pulse to race every time I set my eyes on me. 

I guess the universe looked deep into my mind and manifested what I had suppressed since I broke off my relationship with Tobi.