chapter one:Resolve(part one)

In a busy street, a nineteen year old girl is walking hastily.People who may look at her may think she knows her destination but no! She is just walking aimlessly!

There are people shouting all over to market their goods , cars hooting here and there, small groups of guys hanging around idly feasting their eyes on the women passing by.To be honest this environment is making her sick! But she has to.She has to be like other girls of her age.Elegant, confident,social, and be cool too!

Anti -social would be an exergeration. In fact,she likes socialising but she doesn't know how to start a conversation with a stranger.She is not the all talking girl of her age but she keeps some people close.Only those that are interested like her family .

She can feel some nervousness building inside her. Her hands become sweaty and shaky forcing her to clutch her sling bag tightly.She doesn't know why she is nervous but she urges herself to press on .'You can do this' her confidence is a little boosted and she continues walking.

She can feel some eyes on her but she doesn't have the courage to focus to one in particular.

To be honest no one is actually interested in her. Why would they look on an old fashioned dressed girl walking in the most awkward way! The only eyes on her are the lustful ones zeroing on her pompous chest shamelessly! Her conscious is all aware of this attention but she ignores it. Replacing it with a cold aura that is topped up with a stone face.

"Hey!"a male voice jolts her. To cover up her fear she immidietly replies,"Hey" with a wide grin. Finally! Someone has noticed her! At least someone has afforded her a hey! She was very exited at the moment that she didn't realise she had stopped moving waiting for next words from whoever had just showed interest in her.

She could tell from the voice that it was indeed a young man.She was yet to face the man as her focus was ahead not bothering to look sideways.But when she faced him expecting a wide grin from her prince courageous,she saw a confused look staring back at her like an intruder .Annitah was confused as well.Wasn't he the man who just shouted a hey to her?Why did he look like he was trying to figure what she said?She just answered him.On the other side the man took her hey as a greeting.Did she know him?She had said that hey like they already knew each other.

Annitah was also gauging his reaction to fathom what it was. ' Maybe he doesn't know how to continue with the conversation.'Annitah thought to herself.To clear the awkward air between them, she decided to keep the conversation going. She couldn't let this man who had courageously showed interest in her just stand there without knowing what to say and be embarrassed.Before she could say anything the man talked."Do I know you?"It seemed like she was wrong.

This man wasn't silent because he did not know how to keep up a conversation.It was because he was not talking to her but to another guy behind her!Nittah noticed his eyes looking past her and that's when she realised she had bagged in and answered a hey not ment for her.Feeling embarrassed,she quickly apologized and left leaving the two people before they could pull any more attention and make her want burry herself alive from the embarrassment.They just shook their heads looking at her retreating figure and continued chatting like nothing had happened.

Nittah felt very embarrassed and for the rest of her way home, she focused her eyes ahead like she did the other days without making eye contact with anyone. Her ressolve had been crushed and she felt like never going back to that street again.

That day, Nittah had decided to shun her shyness away by walking through the streets aimlessly to get used to alot of people.She had made a ressolve to be confident , talk a lot with people and make new friends.But it ended as fast as she had made it.

With that small account with the stranger, she had no willpower to do that again.it had taken all the confidence she could master to walk that street like that and be ready to socialize with anyone who would be interested in her.

Unknowingly, she had pushed herself back to the spot where she was before.

She had two close friends. One had gone back to college and they barely kept in touch.The other one was a church friend who they Could only meet on church days because Nittah was always indoors. Her highschool friends had changed so much after they parted ways each to different colleges and she felt no need of keeping fake friends.Therefore,she decided to stay alone just like she used to.With only members of her family as her best companions.