Breaking Ties

Chapter 7

Ms. Anne's POV:

"Why are you doing this Jay? I can't understand why with this woman."

Why I can't get off my mind those words Quinn said to me. I feel guilty. Seeing her reaction like that and the disgusted face she showed me is telling me that I am an indecent woman. I am not! I know I am not supposed to do that sort of thing with Jay but I'm still human. I couldn't help it. "Maybe you should go after her, she is not on her normal thinking. Something bad might happen to her if you let her alone." I ask Jay to follow Quinn not just I'm concern with her and I'm worried but I have my other reasons. I ask him to follow her so I could cry alone. That time I really hated myself. I get to remember what happened to me with my previous partner that a therapist is not enough for me to forget. He's a cheater, that man is a cheater, what happened earlier is like a memory flashing in front of me. A flash back but feels different. The only difference is in this situation I'm not that person standing and crying in front of that door anymore. For now, I get the role of that slut who is sleeping with my partner. She is not just a normal girl. That slut is Quinn's mother. My best friend. I went through a lot that time especially when I got the news that she got pregnant and the fruit of that betrayal was Quinn. My own friend, my best friend just shit on my head and now her daughter is acting like I have stolen Jay from her that he is never hers after all. Until now really can't forget it and everytime I see Quinn at school it reminds me of that betrayal even though Quinn has nothing to do with it and she knows nothing about this until now. I stood up and went to the mirror, "Snap from it Anne, keep your self together." As I keep staring at me in the mirror my phone just ring and there is a notification. Its text message from Jay saying he is already heading home. I kindly reply and ask him to fixed the things with Quinn as soon as possible before it gets worse.

I took a quick bath and head home. I thought I was going to spend the whole night in that motel with Jay but now you could imagine me laying on my bed alone with a pair of pillow. I stand up and check my personal computer for emails. A lot of unread messages are on my inbox but most of it are just advertisment. A few It seems important. As I open one, its a letter of acknowledgement for me that my application is accepted from that school. Now I could teach in there and all I need to do now is send them my acceptance and report at once . My mood becomes more pleasant but as I open the other letters I saw a letter sent by my current school where I teach. They say that my name being added to the list is just a mis understanding and told me to disregard the previous memo. They say that I could continue my career in there and as an apology they will give me a raise in my wage. I'm more than happy to read that and the time that I'm going to send my thanks to the school and happily accepting there offer and apology I remember the previous event from the motel. Now, I was left spacing out in front of my personal computer for a while thinking what should I do now. I took a deep breath and do what I think that will benefit me and all the person around me. For the next school days, I noticed that Jay and Quinn seems to be not doing well. I said to my self that for now I really need to distance my self from them to help them fix the situation. Me and Jay agreed to lay low for now and control our self. After a week of this nothing have changed, with me and Jay or with Jay and Quinn. All things kind seem of mess up for now. The day after I left the school I texted Jay,

"Tomorrow will be my last day as your teacher at your school. One of the applications that I send to other universities has been accepted. If we don't get to see each other tomorrow at school you could text me anytime if you wanted someone to talked."

This is hard for me. Yes I choose to leave even though there is a good offer for me to stay in that school. I choose to leave so that I could end what is between me and Jay. I choose to set aside my feelings, escape the situation and break this ties that bind us. I'm the one who started this so I'm the one to take action and end this once and for all. The next day I came very early at school to pack all my things. Some students help me out so the work is lessen and I end up sitting and not doing anything now. After packing all my things I put it all in the back of my car and I take a walk through out the campus for the last time. The last place I went is the library. There is no one in here even a single person. This place is full of students back then the first time I teach here. Things have gotten change. I'm on my way leaving the library but the door suddenly opened and create a loud noise.

"Ms. Anne?! Are you still here? The other students pointed me here. They say you are here." It was Jay and he was breathing fast. " I ran through the whole campus but I can't find you. I wanted to see you one last time Ms. Anne." That explains why he is breathing like that. " I'm about to leave just now, its so lucky you are here. I also want to say goodbye to you Jay." He suddenly embrace me and, "Thank you for all Ms. Anne." My tears is about to leave my eyes so I free myself on his embrace and wipe my eyes. I put my hands above his shoulder and, "You really is a nice person Jay, take care of Quinn and your self. Goodbye." I passed him from his side while my tears has finally escape my eyes. I really don't want to leave but I just feel I need to. I wipe my tears and run to my car. As I enter the car my tears finally burst out and for some reason I don't feel like wiping it out. I just want to cry and cry. I lied down my seat and saw my self again in the mirror. This is the same car where it all starts that backseats. It brings me back from that time even though I was drunk that time I could clearly remember it all. I get some tissue and wipe my face. I need to fix my self and get stronger for my self and this is the last time I set aside my feelings for the benefits of others.