Chapter 09 Choices

In the big hotel suite, Asnee hung up the phone when raindrops hit the large glass windows. He looked at the raindrops falling from the window, and his heart ached because Santichai had lied to him. For the first time in ten years, Santichai hadn't fooled him once, so he didn't understand why this time, Santichai would take extra measures to leave him.

Asnee stood, looking down at the crowded street below. He knew in his heart that in this seaside city, there lived Santichai. He intends to find Santichai and take him home. He still loves Santichai to this day, just like the day Santichai walked into that classroom for the first time. He remembered every little detail of Santichai.

Asnee remembers the first time they kissed. Back on that day, the atmosphere was somewhat similar to tonight's. The sky was lightly raining that evening, but that night felt so different from tonight. Tonight, he felt alone, as if the world had given him no room to breathe. That night, when Asnee ran to the little theater to meet Santichai, his heart was full of excitement. It was the day after Santichai's seventeenth birthday.

(Memory)

A drizzle of rain began to fall in the night sky, and Asnee ran down the street, where every shop on the street was playing loud '90s pop music. He couldn't make out what the lyrics of the song were because his heart was full of excitement. He wanted to hurry up to see Santichai and hear what Santichai wanted to say to him. During his lunch break that day, he finally decided to confess his feelings to Santichai. As he approached the cinema, he found Santichai standing by the door sheltered from the rain.

Asnee's clothes got wet from the rain and walked up to Santichai. He said, "I'm ready for your answer?"

Santichai's lips trembled slightly and said, "Your clothes are wet."

Asnee gritted his teeth, "I don't want you to change the subject. Yes, or no?" Asnee waited a few minutes, while Santichai stammered. He looked at Santichai angrily. "Forget it." He started walking away.

Santichai quickly caught up with Asnee. He grabbed Asnee's jacket. He stammered, "Ah... Asnee…I…"

Asnee raised his voice, "You what? You've spent so many minutes and you haven't gotten past the word I?" He yanked his jacket away from Santichai's hand. "Go home."

Santichai asked, "Are you going home? We haven't watch…"

Asnee reaches the limit of his anger. He couldn't hold back his anger and shouted, "Go home! I will go hang out with other friends."

Santichai said, "Asnee, don't drink too much. We still have midterm exams."

Asnee shouted, "Why do you care, eh? Why should I listen to you? We're just normal friends. You can't control what I need to do, and I shouldn't listen to you because you..." He grabbed Santichai's front collar. "Not my boyfriend." He pushed Santichai away and started walking away.

Santichai quickly grabbed Asnee's jacket again, "Asnee…Please listen to my explanation."

Asnee turned around and said, "Tell me in ten seconds why you rejected me...one...two...three..."

Santichai said in a timid voice, "I...I like girl. I want a girlfriend, but I also like you as a friend."

Asnee sneered wildly, "Okay. Good for you. Go get yourself a fucking girlfriend." He jerked his arm away. "Let go now!"

Santichai asked, "Asnee, are we still friends?"

Asnee looked frantically at Santichai and said, "No, I never considered you a friend." He grabbed Santichai's hand and ripped it off his jacket. "I don't want to see you again." He pushed Santichai away, turned around and left.

Santichai chases Asnee and grabs Asnee's jacket again. He said, "Asnee, please don't leave me. You are the only one who cares about me. If I lose you, I have no one else."

Asnee said frantically, "Go find yourself a girlfriend to relieve your loneliness." He quickly yanked his jacket from Santichai's hand and ran away from Santichai.

Then later that night, as Asnee was lying in bed with a slight fever from the rain, his phone rang. He looked at it, it was from Santichai, he didn't answer. His phone rang again and again, but he refused to answer. Then he decided to look out the window to see if he should ride his motorcycle to school or drive. When he looked out the window, he saw Santichai standing in the rain.

Asnee rushed downstairs, grabbed his umbrella, and rushed towards Santichai barefoot. Seeing that Santichai was soaked in the rain, he immediately became angry and shouted angrily, "What the hell are you doing standing in this rain?"

Santichai cried, "Asnee, I thought about it when you left me. I might want a girlfriend, but I want more of your care and friendship. I'm not gay, but I just like you too much. You are the sun in my dark sky. You are the warmth I never got from anyone. If I had to choose between you and some unknown girl...I'd rather choose you." He looked at Asnee. "Asnee, I'm sorry. Please don't hate me. Please don't leave me. You're the only one who doesn't look down on someone like me. Please don't leave me. Please don't leave me."

Asnee scoffed, "Fool, I'm just angry." He smiled. "How could I be mad at you when you have such a sweet voice and such a sweet expression on your face." He reached out and pulled Santichai into his arms. "Santichai, are you willing to be my boyfriend?"

Santichai nodded, "Mmm."

Asnee said, "From today, you are my boyfriend, my person. You can't like anyone but me. Do you understand?"

Santichai, "Mmm."

Asnee said, "Good boy...good boy. Let's get inside."

"It's okay," Santichai said. "I just came to tell you this. I'm going home now."

Asnee said, "No one is home. My parents are on vacation in Taiwan."

They entered the house and went upstairs to Asnee's bedroom. Santichai stood at the door. He looked at Asnee's large bedroom. He said, "Asnee, your room is huge. It's bigger than my house."

Asnee walked out of the bathroom and handed Santichai a towel. He said, "Come here. What are you doing standing at the door?"

Santichai said, "I'm afraid of dirtying your floor."

Asnee approached Santichai and put the towel on Santichai's left hand while placing the bathrobe on Santichai's right hand. He closed in his distance and Santichai slowly returned to the door. Asnee grabbed Santichai's wrist and pinned it to the door. He started kissing Santichai.

Santichai said, "Asnee…stop…"

Asnee kissed Santichai, "Stop what?" His hands began to undo Santichai's belt.

Santichai wanted to open his mouth and tell Asnee to stop what he was doing, but deep down in his heart, he knew that Asnee would be angry when he opened his mouth, and that whatever Asnee did to him at the moment, he could bear it, but losing Asnee in his life was something he couldn't bear. As long as Asnee is happy, he could do anything just to keep Asnee by his side.

Santichai panted heavily, "What should I do?"

Asnee licked Santichai's neck and said, "You don't do anything." He undid Santichai's pants and Santichai's pants fell to the ground. His hand slid down Santichai's panties. "Santichai, you are not hard at all." He stroked down slowly.

Asnee lay Santichai on the bed. He opened the drawer of the bedside table by the bed. He took out the lube. He poured some into his hands and slowly massaged Santichai's backdoor, while slowly teasing Santichai's nipple. Asnee murmured in Santichai's ear, "Chai…I can't take it anymore. Please let me. Let me..."

Santichai panted heavily, "I'm afraid."

Asnee said, "Don't be afraid. I just want to do you so badly. I…" He quickly spread Santichai's legs and slowly inserted his member into Santichai. He starts to thrust and Santichai starts to moan.

(End Of Mermory)

Santichai's soft moan always satisfied him the most. The timid voice begged him to stop because it hurt. The sweet grunts and gasps in his ears made him want Santichai even more. That night back when they were in their teenage years, they lose their virginity to each other. They are each other's first love. They have been through a lot together, and indeed, on a rainy night like today, he misses Santichai even more.

The door opened and Mrs. Siriporn walked into the room with three suits. She put the three suits on the bed. She said, "Asnee, come and see which suit you want to wear."

Asnee walked into the bed and found a white, blue and black suit on the bed. He said, "Ma, it doesn't matter which one I wear."

Mrs. Siriporn said, "It does matter. The dinner is only two days away. Try them on, and if they don't fit, I can get them adjusted." She picked up the black suit. "How about this one?"

Asnee looked at the three suits and said, "The blue one."

Mrs. Siriporn sighed and put the black suit on the bed. She murmured in disappointment, "All right, the blue one it is."

Asnee's phone rang, it was Decha. Asnee answered, "What did you find?"

Decha said, "Nothing. I didn't find anything. Ai Nee, about this matter, I think Ai Chai has already made a statement, he doesn't want to have anything to do with you. Since he has left you, it's better to leave it like this. Give yourself and him a chance to start over."

Asnee said madly, "I won't. He's mine."

Mrs. Siriporn's angry voice suddenly sounded behind Asnee, "What did you say?"

Decha sighed, "Ai Nee, I have to go. I'll call you if I find anything."

Mrs. Siriporn snatches the phone from Asnee. She shouted, "Why are you calling him now? You have broken up with him!"

Decha said, "Auntie, it's me, Frank."

Mrs. Siriporn quickly apologized, "Frank ah…auntie sorry, I thought you were Santichai."

Decha said, "It's okay auntie, and slowly talks with Asnee."

Mrs. Siriporn said, "Thank you." She hung up and looked at Asnee. She walked over to the bed and grabbed the white and blue suits. "Wear the black suit." She went out the door frantically.

Asnee looked at the black suit lying on the bed and turned to look at the city below. He murmured, "Chai, I miss you so much, do you miss me?"