Chapter 29 Blame

In the bar, loud music rang in Asnee's ears. He picked up a glass of wine and drank it in one breath. He had been sitting and drinking for two hours, and the more he drank, the more unstable his heart became. Just as he was about to pick up the second glass, Decha stopped his hand.

Decha sighed, "Ai Nee, that's enough, you're drunk."

Asnee smirked, "Frank, did you know that bastard Chai is dating a rich man? How rich does he want his man to be?"

Decha said, "He didn't tell me."

Asnee said, "Did you know he's dating a rich guy? You've seen the bastard Hinata before, is he more handsome than me?"

Decha said, "No, he is just some normal looking guy. I'm not sure if he is even rich."

Asnee said, "Oh, he's rich. May told me he took Santichai to his villa by the sea, where security is tight. If he's new boyfriend is not rich, then he is." He started laughing.

Decha looked at Asnee and asked, "What are you thinking?"

Santichai said angrily, "He's a whore who sells himself for money." He threw the glass on the floor. "For money, he slept with someone else."

Decha said, "Last time Santichai's boyfriend admitted to me that they were dating."

Asnee raised his heavy head and looked at Decha. "Chai left me. We went back to my hotel room together last night, but he left me this morning," he said.

Decha said, "Let him go."

"I slept with him last night and woke up this morning and he was gone," Asnee said. "He went back to his boyfriend."

Decha, "Ai Nee, since you can't give him, what others can give him, just let him go. It's not good for you and him. You know very well that even if Chai decides to come back to you, you can never really give him true happiness. Chai knows this, and you know it, and that's why you broke up with him in the first place. If you two keep going down the same path, you two will be back in the same hole."

Asnee ranted out his anger, "I did everything for him. I did everything I could to create a path for us to be together. I loved him so much that I did things against my will, but why couldn't he see it. That was because he found someone with a bigger wallet."

Decha said, "Ai Nee, you, Chai, and I have been friends for many years. Chai is not that kind of person; you know it well."

Asnee said, "I don't see any other explanation for why he left me to find another man."

Decha scoffed because he couldn't believe what he was hearing. Asnee hasn't changed over the years. Asnee has the mind of a child, he believes he can do other people wrong, but they can't not wrong him. "To be honest, if I were Chai, I'd leave you too," he said.

Asnee suddenly became angry, "Why? You are my friend, why don't you stand by my side?"

Decha said, "I'm your friend and I'm Chai's friend. Do you think being in the middle between the two of you is fun?"

Asnee who was drunk roared, "You are not my friend, you are his friend. Do you think I don't know that you and he are secretly talking behind my back? I know..."

Decha said, "Ai Nee, it's because of your attitude that Ai Chai left you." He took a deep breath and tried to be the better man. "If you're going to blame anyone, blame yourself."

Asnee pushed Decha away. "You're not my friend," he shouted. "You are no longer my friend. Since you are his friend, you tell him that I will crush him. Whoever he likes, I will crush the person in front of him. He is mine and will always be mine." He gets up and starts walking away.

Decha grabbed Asnee's hand, "You bastard, you're too drunk to drive back. Sit down." He pushed Asnee back on the sofa.

Asnee pushed Decha away, "We're not friends anymore, so scram."

Decha said angrily, "Are you going to cut ties with me now?"

Asnee yelled, "Yeah...if you want to go then go. Everybody gets the fuck out."

Decha sneered, "In this small private room, there are only you and me. Since we are cutting ties, I have a few words to say to you." He picked up the controller and turned off the music.

Asnee threw an empty beer bottle at Decha, but because he was drunk, the empty beer bottle hit the wall. He yelled, "Go away!"

Decha said angrily, "Asnee, you cheap dog! Don't blame Chai for leaving you, you are the one who left him. If you say you love him so much that you can't live without him, why do you always leave Chai behind?"

Asnee shouted angrily, "I never left him. He left me. He left me because he wanted a rich man. That bastard...Santichai Kittibun..." He slowly got back to his feet.

Decha shouted angrily, "Asnee, you jerk! You always leave him behind when he needs you the most." He pushes Asnee back into his seat. "You said you loved him, then where were you when he lay on that hospital bed with a broken back, huh? Where were you?" He gritted his teeth. "Oh, by the way, you went out with other friends, did you forget? You said you support him, then why is Chai the one who dropped out of school to work three jobs? Why wasn't that person you? Why?" Decha's lips trembled with anger. "You said you loved him, so why did you date another woman? Huh? You said you were loyal to him, so why did you take your girl back and have sex on the bed you shared with him?"

Asnee shook his head with tears in his eyes, "Stop..."

Decha grabbed Asnee's upper arms, "You said you wanted to marry him by the sea, why do you want to go home and get engaged?" He gritted his teeth. "You're such an asshole; you even sent him a picture of your stupid ring to show off."

Asnee cried, "Stop talking."

Decha raised his fist and punched Asnee hard in the left corner of Asnee's mouth. Decha's punch knocks Asnee down on the sofa. He stared at Asnee angrily, "You said you fought for the two of you, but the only one I saw fighting for the two of you was Chai, not you. His broken back that didn't heal, just because you wanted steak.... He had to stand washing dishes to trade for a piece of steak. Do you know how painful it is to stand and work all night? I guess you didn't because that person was Chai, not you!" He raised his voice. "You came back and broke up with him, did you forget?" He shouted. "He was in the operating room fighting for his life that night. You are enjoying your soft and warm bed in your luxurious new apartment! The only bastard here is you..." He slowed his breath.

Asnee's lips trembled with tears. "Stop talking," he sobbed.

Decha looked at Asnee, "I asked him, why does he have to exchange tears for a moment to have a bastard like you by his side? You know what he said?" He stared at Asnee with angry tears. "He said, because in his dark world, you are his only light." He stood up, walked to the door, and opened it. He turned to look at Asnee. "Asnee Siriporn, do you find it interesting to play with someone's feelings, especially someone who sees you as his lifeline?"