Oh, but loving all his madness was all I could care about.

Her thoughts:

Looking back in time, I miss the way we were before: happy and without no worries. We were focused just on us and our future, buying a house, get married, have 3-4 children and all the people we love to be by our side. As I start to think again and again about this, my heart starts to ache, a tear starts to fall, and another, and another one till I realize that I'm crying my heart out. The pain is to great as I miss him. I want to call him, I want us to be like before but suddenly I become aware of how bad it got between us. We were so toxic to each other, that break out was the best solution and the only one left. I feel heartbroken. He was my other half, he was my heart and soul. We completed each other like nobody else did and I still don't know how we got that bad, I can't even remember and that hurts even more. I just want him to know that I MISS HIM with my whole heart.

Another day passed, everything still the same. Laying in my bed trying to sobber my tears, wishing to go back and to change things, but I know and tell myself that is for the best how everything resulted. Flashes of our break up comes in my head and I feel more drained than 2 seconds ago.

Flashes:

Ima: „What are you talking about? Of course, I love you. How can you say that?" she says with tears rolling dawn from her eyes, trembling from each corner of her body with anger, disappointment and fear that it is really over this time.

Sei: „I can't see it; I cannot feel it. How can you say you love me after everything? How am I supposed to believe you?

His voice is slowly trembling, not knowing what to do anymore. He loved her more than anything in the world, willing to do anything for her. Disappointments come one after the other, disorienting him and inducing him in confusion. But like always, they managed to resolve every conflict and reconciliate after every fight. But this time...he is slowly feeling so down, he cannot take any more damage and decide to take a decision for the sake of both of them.

Sei: „Ima, lets break up, I cannot take this anymore. I need a break from you and I think you need as well. We are destroying..."

Ima: „What are you taking about? No, no and no. I'm not going to accept this, I don't want to give up on you, on us, on everything that we had till now. Please!"

Sei: „Ima? You know, this is drive me crazy. Please understand that I can't" says with a voice that leaves of interpretations.

Ima: „I don't want to"

Sei: „IMA."

Ima: „No. Sei, do you really wish to break up with me?"

Sei: „Yes."

Ima: „Then say it like you mean it, otherwise I will not give it up, nor on you, nor on us...."

Sei: „I will make myself very clear:I don't want you to come any closer to me ever again.I DO NOT WANT YOU ANYMORE AND I...."

Ima: „I understand, please leave. I will never look for you ever again."

Sei: „Ima...."

Ima: „Leave the hell out of here"

Sei: „I will and I am sorry." says while closing the door behind him. "

Flashback ends