Chapter 44

The rain was pouring, dousing me in it's cold embrace. It wasn't noticeable, but tears did come to me as well. I knew they were there from their warm feeling as they fell.

I hate it when it rains. Noting good ever comes from it.

It was dark out now and I was soaked and cold.

I should get going now. I need to get home.

I got up and grabbed my book bag feeling that it was soaked too.

Thunder roared and lightning flashed in the clouds.

I need to get home.

Sebastian's face appeared in my head as well as Christopher's. Soon everyone else's.

If I were to go home they would be concerned and ask me questions. They'd try to keep me in their arms at all times preventing from this happening again. And Drew would be an even bigger pain trying to keep me away from them so he can have me for himself.

I stayed still, standing in the rain.

Do I really want to go home?

I looked down the path I believed I came from, then down the opposite. I looked at the other path more than the one I came from starting to head down it without a second thought.

More thunder and lightning flashed as I walked down the path as if the universe was trying to tell me to just go back home. But I didn't want to. Not with them there to only make things worse.

Whatever Christopher wanted to talk to me about no longer interested me. And Sebastian could tell him that. As well as the fact that it's kind of his fault I ran off.

Who am I kidding? It was mainly my fault.

Another flash appeared this time with a form to it soon after having thunder roar with it making me jump a little.

I need to find shelter, soon.

I was shivering from the rain that was currently soaking through my clothes making them stick to my body.

When did it start raining so hard?

Mom must be worried. Last time I away it was to the tree. This time I was somewhere beyond that. Somewhere I didn't even know.

I saw a dark figure walking in front of me starting to walk past me so I averted my eyes and looked down not wanting to cause anything.

My heart started to pick up speed as I got nervous finally realizing that I was in a place I didn't know. A place that I said myself looked dangerous.

And it only got worse when the person stopped me.

"Samantha?"

This isn't good.

I looked up to see who it was. I mean, I know not to talk to strangers but it's still rude not to at least say 'Sorry, wrong person' to them without eye contact.

I looked at the person and it took me a second to realize who it was.

"Drake?"

He grabbed my soaked shoulder and pulled me a little closer to him as he looked frantically around the area.

"What are you doing here? It isn't safe for you to be in a place like this. Did you see anyone around you?"

Thunder roared and it surprised me making me jump closer to him.

He looked at me with a worried face. It soon changed to a small smile and he started rubbing my shoulder.

"C'mon. Let's go home."

Before he could start walking I grabbed a handful of his coat making him look at me as I only looked at the ground.

I couldn't speak, or really, I didn't want to.

I shook my head no and clung tightly to him not wanting to leave my side.

I couldn't seem to let go of him either.

More lightning and thunder came and I felt so cold as the rain got even harder.

Drake sighed and kept a constant circular motion on my arm as he rubbed it.

"I know a place we an stay in for the night."

I kept my head down as I let him lead me to the so called place.

I don't know why I was keeping my head down.

Was it it shame from running? For ending up with one of the guys anyway?

Or just to simply hide my tears?

And why do I feel a sense of dread every time I think about letting go of him?

Is it because I remember that night so clearly?

For knowing it's my fault?

My tears only got worse as I thought and I moved my head further down.

Why should I bother hiding my tears anyway? He wouldn't notice. It was raining. I was soaked and there was no way he cared for me. He was never at the house anyway.

No. Don't think like that. Remember the ally? He said those three words alone and with meaning.

I got even closer to him mainly because I was cold but also because I felt like it.

Maybe I had feelings for him too. Just a little.

I could tell he was more concerned and worried with my actions but I didn't care. I just kept close to him and held on tight.

I didn't want him to leave me. Not here. Not in the rain.

Not like Justin and Dad.

I wasn't paying attention until Drake let go of me to open up what looked like a hotel room door.

He led me in like a doll doing all of the actions I wouldn't do on my own. He took my bag off and set me down on the bed.

Thunder played in the background as the continuous hits of the rain drops played. I felt so cold as the water on me dropped and slid on me.

Drake slid off his jacket and placed it on a chair in the room before sighing at my empty self.

"You're going to catch a cold."

I didn't care.

"Samantha."

I looked up to him, probably one of my first moves in so long.

"What's wrong?"

Honestlty, I didn't know. I was confused and angry at that. But so many emotions were playing at once inside me making me just feel empty.

Thunder.

I looked over at the window feeling tears play at my eyes yet again.

Drake followed my gaze.

"Do you not like rain?"

I shook my head.

"It brings terrible memories."

My voice sounded awful and hoarse.

Drake sat down next to me and pulled me in close. He was so warm and the smell of cigarettes on him made me feel a little more relaxed.

I laid my head on his chest and let him embrace me closer to him.

He laughed a little.

"You're soaked."

He moved his hand to my hair and moved it out of my face.

"Is there anything else you want to tell me? You don't seem the type to just run off and not want to go home."

He was right.

Even though he's only known me for a small amount of time, he can tell that isn't me.

"It's a long story."

I didn't really know the story so really it's long because I'd have to start at the beginning when Justin and Dad died.

I didn't want to talk about it. I didn't want to tell him about that day. For right now I wanted to stay in his arms.

"I'm gonna be honest with you. I'm really enjoying this. I love that you're being in my arms willingly and all but, you're soaking wet and cold. I don't want you to get sick. Can you please just take a shower?"

I got up and looked at him not wanting to leave.

He was avoiding my eyes as his face held a little blush.

"If you stay on me like that who knows what I'll end up doing."

Oh. Right.

He probably was getting turned on or something.

I got up and headed to the bathroom before looking back at him seeing his face a little red. He was trying his best to hide it with his hand but it wasn't doing him much justice.

I walked back up to him and without thinking kissed n him on the cheek making him react quite fast.

He turned his head and soon our lips were only breaths apart. I felt his breath on me and wanted to close the distance between us. I could see it in his eyes as well as he stared hungrily at my lips.

Thunder boomed making us stop and Drake turned away again.

"Hurry up before you catch a cold."

I nodded my head and went into the bathroom quickly so I wouldn't be tempted to do that again.

What was I thinking? This stupid weather is messing with my head.

I turned on the water and stripped off my wet clothes.

I just need to take a quick shower and everything will be fine.