Emotions

It's finally Friday, this week has been draining since studying was the only thing that kept me going. I am just enlivened that I am done with practical subjects, even though I am left with mathematics paper 2. But I don't have to worry about anything, I got this.

I walked through the gate and found myself inside the house. I walked to my room since there was still no one at home. Likewise, I changed my uniform and put on a tight and a T-shirt and walked to the dining and started catching up on my not least yet not most favorite series, Lucifer. After two episodes, I sauntered to the kitchen and started making food for not only me but for my siblings since they were on their way home. When I finished, I dished for myself and put the rest on the microwave for them.

When I finished eating, I went to my room and started to look for an outfit since I had a date to go to. As I was still deciding, my sister walked in from school.

"You going out?" she asked as she pplaced her school bag on the bed.

"If you want to put it like that, then yes" I nervously said. She stood near the bed and ambled to my clothes and took out my long brown jumpsuit with short sleeves.

"This will be perfect since you have never woren it" She throw it on my head and started taking off her uniform…

I went out of the room and went inside the bathroom and took a bath and made sure that I shaved. When I finished, I walked back to my room and started applying lotion on every inch of my body. When I finished, I wore my jumpsuit and wore my air force and styled my hair as always.

I texted my dad to ask him about how far he was since he promised to drop me. After I sent him a text, I heard a sound of an engine outside and I concluded that it was him. I took my phone and my jacket since it was already startd drizzling outside.

I walked outside the house and found dad already waiting for me. He drove off to The Zone in Rose bank. I texted Tlo to let him know that I had already left the house. The drive was not long since my dad and I love the speed and that's the reason I love going with my dad.

"Baba, have you spoken to mom about what we last time spoke about?" I nervously asked, since he never promised me anything but to at least speak to her.

"I haven't spoken to her,, but I will in no due time."

I could not push him. I let it go since I was still writing my finals. We focused on the road with a comfortable silence… When we arrived at The zone, he found a parking lot and parked the car. He opened the door for me. This is the reason I never expected less from men, I mean if m dad treats me like a princess at home then what's hard for them.

I walked out to the car and hugged my father and left. On my way to the mall, I called Tlo so that I can know where I was going to find him. He answered on the first ring, and I guessed his phone was in his hand.

"Cupcake, how are you?"

"I'm well, I was wondering where I was going to find you?"

"I am waiting for you at the cinema entrance "

I hung up the call the moment I noticed him standing alone. He was wearing tight white blue skinny jeans that shaped his muscles. It shaped every muscle out, he had a white T-shirt with a black side bag. He looked handsome, he made me drool from far. When I got closer, I noticed that he was carrying a small red gift bag…

I hugged him, he held me tight, and I felt him, every part of him was electrical, connecting with my emotions." I missed you" he whispered as I was still in his arms. He pulled me even closer to him. After a while, he let go of me and looked deeply into my eyes with no words escaping his lips but only a smile. I blushed as I felt a strong connection with him.

It has been only two months since we started dating,, but it seems like our feelings for each other continue to grow at a quick pace. I have been in love but what I have and what I feel for him, it's different, and it scares me even more. I even question myself whether he can see how much I have fallen for him. Every time I think about our relationship, I get emotional and start crying because what I feel for him is more than just love. I get scared that maybe one day he will leave me and leave me miserable and beyond heartbroken. I will never bear the pain of losing him, it will make my life a living hell. It might be hard for someone to understand what I feel for him,, but I hope that he feels the same, and he will never leave me alone.

Healing from heartbreak is not what I am thinking about at this moment. All I am trying to keep in mind is that this will never end, and it will be a forever thing. I try to puss the negative thoughts away and the reality and focus on the positive thoughts. It is hard to be stimulated by a person like me,but I try certainly to be positive.

He held my hand and I got closer to him, and he was about to take a step, I hugged him. I buried my face in his shoulder and my emotions started flowing. Tears dropped,but I wiped them quickly before he could notice them.

"What is wrong?" He asked as he looked deep within me, and all I managed to do was to drop my hiccups and let my tears flow.