FINALE

The happiest time of my life was when I was a child. But even back then, all I had was a collection of memories. I never had a solid ground to stand on, I always had issues with social interaction and to my demise, my family kept on shifting from place to place. Only until I was at my high school and thought I had found the love of my life had I settled. That was a changing point in my life I couldn't give up.

Thoughts like these rushed to me alongside the wind, as I walk downwards to a famous local fishing spot. The mild weather in March was ideal for my current relaxed state of mind. As I descended, I spot the beautiful Sakura trees that were as pink as ever. I always enjoyed my time here in Kyoto, especially in the past month.

A lot had been going through my life and unlike the religious priests telling me that it's all a test from God, I'd like to think of it as an opportunity to change and improve myself set up by decisions. Many people believe in fate and destiny, But I prefer to think of them as the ability to accept that these are the results of one's choices.

I arrive at the boardwalk on the bottom of the stairs and I could see into the distance, all the way to the end of the boardwalk, I see her in a beautiful kimono. The place was clear since everyone was busy with their own families for this fireworks display. I slowly march there, with butterflies in my stomach and I can picture every moment, just as it seemed in the dream I started having as a child. Same yet different. The Sakura trees, pink blossoms all the way, and slowly they fall off one by one. I strode down the boardwalk and on the end was a girl, Yuki Tomomi, wearing a pink kimono, sitting all by herself waving her feet forward and backward in the water. This time I could see her face, smiling and waving at me.

"Pick up the pace, Ryan!!" The childish happy face as if she got the toy that she's been asking for, all along, as a kid.

All the decisions in my life, everything, led me to someone to bandage my torn apart heart, someone to refill the emptiness created by the same decisions that led me here. I could hear myself chanting "The search is over."

Me, who thought I had found the love of my life and later became a popular actor. Me, who lost all memory after I jumped from a three-story hotel. Me, who grasped the chance of being whole again and breaking the process of everyday life. Me, who went to find me and regain every memory by experiencing it, right from childhood. And finally, me, who carried all the baggage called "burden" until the very end finding myself someone who can help me carry it.

I knew this was the moment, even after every single conquest life threw at me and after telling everything to Yuki, and still, she insists to help me carry my baggage. I can't believe I almost quit on myself and attempted to commit suicide for a mere reason. I was stated insane and saved from being served, since suicide is the only crime which, if not attempted successfully, we get punished.

I clear my mind from all the thoughts I had and will ever have regarding life as I sat next to Yuki, to enjoy the moment I've been waiting for all my life. I think this is the end, I feel like I've got the happy ending I've always wanted. The final chapter of my book everyone used to state. I am no longer the one in the question, what matters passed and now I enjoy the moment not knowing what could ever happen to me or anyone.