six month of hell

ava point of view. its been 6 moths since i took mr cheating ass back i also pushed the wedding back so i can watch him closly. he wasnt so happy about that one but he didnt dare to complain. every morning he comes in the room with breakfast in bed and either flowers or chocolates. he tells me he is sorry and he kisses me on the forhead until i kiss him on the lips.but the thing is its not a make out session it is a peck at best.

then he stands by the window and waits for a command from me like he is a butler. the when i am done eating he will take the tray and leave the room. then he comes back and ask for permission to kiss me again because i wont let him touch me without permission. this is his punishment until i trust him agin if i ever do. then he will leave for work. then at work he will text me a few times but i dont respond. then he comes home with a new outfit,jewelry, make up. then ask to kiss me again.

this is the life he has been living for six months. he also hasnt had sex in six months as well from me or hoes. i am just waiting for him to crack and cheat again. i miss him but i cant show it because i dont trust him. i need a way to trust him so i will ask his father to hire his very own personal stalker.so i can learn what he does when he is not with me or his family.if by chance he is actually sorry for what he done i will take him back. no matter how it looks i dont want to go in the arms of his brother. i still love axel and i hope he still wants me. i miss having sex with axel but i cant give in no matter how hungry i am for him.