So much

How am I to understand this, and how am I to pay?

  - You have just admitted that you are aware of the love that Mertillo has for you, and yet you let him die of love for you, torturing him, surrounding him with your perfume, letting him admire you, desire you, and yet put himself out of reach, not tolerating any touch, any caress, you are really a sick person.

  She's sick, yes, but not really about that, more about wanting him more every second, wanting him more even after such scathing words, she should really consider counseling. 

- I hate you, she cried passionately, and then what are you meddling with? The only person I should be accountable to is my sponsor, and no one else. If I decided to give him a chance, that's our business and not yours, if I decided to drive him crazy, that's his business to punish me, so stay out of it.