CHAPTER 24 (1)

Confusion of their feelings -1.

CHANG HENG.

I wasn’t been myself lately. I didn’t know that Satsuki got a lot of effect on me. That I’d begin to love her this much. Where did I go wrong? I looked at the clock and it was almost 1 pm. I should get some tea. Should I get used to this? That she wasn’t even around anymore? I decided to do my tea and I looked at that sachet and I’m unfamiliar with these things. Usually, Satsuki is the one who always prepares my tea whenever I ordered here even though it wasn’t part of her job but because she knew that her secret is at stake so she has to obey me. But right now, that wasn’t the case now. It’s different now.

Good thing Momo arrived and she covered her mouth and she laughed, “Sir, you should have asked me to do those things for you. Well, technically I was your secretary. And I was appointed by your father after all, plus you’re the heir of this company so I’m responsible for you.” She said seriously and she pushed me around for a while she was the one who prepared my honey-flavored tea and prepared for my biscuits as well. She put it on the tray and she smiled at me. I scratched my hair a bit and I couldn’t help but feel embarrassed. I couldn’t help but feel so shy here. I’m not used to these things if you ask me.

“Ah..thanks a lot, Momo,” I told her and after that, she decided to come with me to the accounting department. I’m used to being busy at work but for some reason, it feels like something is missing. This hasn’t happened to me before.

Is it Satsuki?

I went on my chair and I quickly grabbed my phone. It’s just a misunderstanding, I don’t even like Margaux. I don’t know what I should do now that she’s gone. I need her back. But how can I even do that? I tried finding her, I went to her apartment but the landlord told me that she went back to her home and it’s been months since she has paid for her apartment so I decided to pay for that for her sake. Where did she go? As much as I wanted to ask her siblings or her dad but I didn’t even know where they are. Is she eating well? What is she doing these days? Truthfully, there were a lot of questions that I wanted to ask her but suddenly she just disappear like that and I didn’t even know where to find her.

The work should be easy for me but I’m not used to being like this. That I wasn’t myself. How weird. When did I start feeling so empty? I don’t even understand why I’m like this. I felt like I was too stupid here. I should have to ask Momo since she was just beside me but somehow I couldn’t even ask for her help. It feels weird, did the office look this spacious? Was it because she’s not even here? I stared at Momo and I sighed deeply. I guess I should consult her then. About Satsuki. I wonder if she knew something? I wanted to hope for that. I sighed deeply and then I looked at her, “Do you have any news for Satsuki?”

“Sir?” She asked and she suddenly got surprised by it and she touches her chin for a while, “Actually I’ve been texting her and calling her on my phone but she isn’t answering. But I’m not losing hope in her. She’s my best friend after all. Sir, I know that I might be crossing my line to this question but can I ask you something?”

“Yes, go ahead,” I told her.

“Why did you guys fight? I know that I might not change anything but still, I wanted to help even if it’s a little.” Momo said and I smiled at her. She has a good heart. Even I don’t know why other people look so mad at her when she’s nice. Despite that she works for my dad and I was simply someone that she needs to take care of..she’s been understanding to me. Even though this isn’t even part of her job anymore.

I should trust her. She’s Satsuki’s best friend after all. Should I tell her that I’m Satsuki’s childhood friend then? I haven’t opened this to anyone other than Robert you know. Because the whole of my life I wanted to prove myself to my father. I don’t want to live as his tool. That I can live up to his expectations. I wanted to prove that to him. Yet, why does he still keep on controlling my life then? Everything has been a mess. I didn’t even know where Satsuki was. Even to her friends, they didn’t even know where she is.

I rubbed my hands together and I sighed, “It’s because my dad started all of this. If only he didn’t force me to get engaged with Margaux because of the sake of the business then Satsuki would probably be here. Margaux kissed me and Satsuki thought that I was still fooling around. Hell no! Why would I even ask her hand in marriage if I’m just going to fool around with other girls, huh?”

“Wait a sec! What do you mean, marriage!? Isn’t that too fast? Did you guys ever dated yet?” Momo asked seriously and her words were quite too sharp to even get me so affected by it. Now I can see why they’re best friends. Her words are too much too. I mean, is it even important if I court her or not, I know that we’ll end up in marriage anyways. And I’m not even used to courting someone. Damn it, this is too humiliating. As if I will say those words out loud. Well, whatever. I should have started courting, to begin with, if only Margaux didn’t mess up with everything. I guess if there’s anyone who can help me, it was Momo who can help me.

“No..not yet..but isn’t that important? I know to myself that I’m in love with her?” I asked innocently and I couldn’t help but blush in front of her. Damn, this thing is too hard. Why do I need to go through the hard way when I know that she’s already mine? Do I need to point on labels now even if I know we’re both in love then? I’m not good at this. Because this is the first time that I fall in love with a woman like her. I know that I fooled around with a lot of women before but this time I know that I’m serious now. Whatever Satsuki and I had now, we’re serious about it.

“Uh-huh..okay first of all I know that you’re not the type of guy who will hurt her like her ex so I think that you wouldn’t hurt my best friend like that easily. And I know that you’re in love with her. So if you wanted to be with her then run after her. You’ll be the one who will lose everything if you didn’t do anything now. So go, run after her. Clear your intentions to her.”Momo said and she smiled at me.

She and Aouli were just the same. I guess I should try my best to find Satsuki. I guess I should clear things out to her, but I am unsure to do. As soon as I went out to office, I noticed Oliver outside, so I quickly ran after him and I grabbed his arms, “Mr. Huang,” I called him.

“Oh, the heir? What do you need from me?” He asked me. If ever this is the sign, then I will do it. I need her back. I've been thinking about this lately. That I want her in my life not just as someone that dad has an appointment to look after me or as a personal assistant, but I want her in my life. That I need to protect her. I'm already making my move to find this possible hitman and find the truth behind it so that this will be over. But suddenly, she was gone. What am I going to do with that?

“If you knew where Satsuki were staying at, you better start talking now. I'll tell dad to double the amount that you were receiving in your paycheck.” I told him and his eyes shines and I smirked at him. Sorry about this, I know you might hate me for doing this, but I have no other choice. Oliver got closer to me, and he hugged me tight,“I love you sir~” He said seriously.

I gulped at him and I felt so uneasy. I felt sick when hearing those words from him. If only Satsuki was here, I know that she would definitely like what she's going to see now. Honestly, that fujioshi is giving me a headache! Damn, why do I have to think about her? Do I really missed her that much? I just had no other choice but to achieve this, to see her. And they were best friends after all, there's no harm in asking this, right?