POV Irza: Me and My Feelings

Irza Adisankara Rianto, is a beautiful name that my father and mother pinned for me. Being born as the eldest son of Dirga Rianto and Zaskia Azzahra Khumairah is probably one of the things I should be grateful for in my life.

How could I not, my parents were not people to be underestimated. My mother is the heir who gets the most important asset in my family, especially if not Angkasa Corp. Then my father?

My father may not be as rich as your mother, but thanks to his strong will, he has now proven to the public that he has brought Angkasa Corp. to soar far, even more so when it is held by grandmother and mother. My father did not want to occupy the highest throne of the number one company engaged in the advertising sector, but unfortunately my mother decided to step down from her throne and like it or not, Angkasa Corp needed someone like my father who had high integrity. But unfortunately there is one misfortune in my life.

Especially if it's not about love. Aurora Bilqis Paramitha, within the Maha Putra family or the family line from Grandpa, I am still a cousin to the woman who is called Rara every day. Is my love reciprocated? Unfortunately, for this matter, Dewi Fortuna was reluctant to come to bless our relationship. Is the universe being mean to me? Maybe not, because basically the universe is not evil, we are just forced to be strong.

Instead of expressing my feelings for Rara, I prefer to keep it like this. Isn't this way I can love Rara as much as I want? It's not without the real reason why I don't want to express the feelings I have for Rara, but there are two things that underlie my reluctance.

First I was one of the core frontman of the Oscar Gang. Motorcycle gangs that for some people have a bad image, but aren't there bad sides and good sides are two things that can't be separated? If you all want to see this from a different angle maybe you are the one who will let go of that bad image.

The chairman of the Oscar Gang is none other than Raka Yudha Juliardo, he is the man who currently occupies the highest throne in Rara's heart. I can compete with people who also love Rara, but to fight with the man Rara loves, I choose to just keep my love under wraps.

Because if I and Raka are juxtaposed then the one who will become the demi-grain is me, only me. Yes, Rara and Raka are two people who love each other, they are close, but do not hug. But to fight for their love, is the thing that both of them are trying the most for now. 

Why is that? How difficult is it for Rara and Raka to unite? Yes, it is very difficult because their universe is not the same. They are very different.

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CIT!

My favorite iron horse is now parked neatly in the carport, the rows of vehicles belonging to the core family members are lined up very neatly, but only one motorbike has more or less distracted my attention, and the motorbike belongs to my cousin who is none other than Aiden Pramasatya Dimitri.

Only with the last name pinned behind his name you will already understand who Aiden is. Yes, he is the second son of Uncle Surya, or in short he is the twin sister of the woman who currently reigns in my heart, Aurora Bilqis Paramitha.

"Aiden's motorbike?" My brow furrowed as my brain felt stuck, unable to find an answer to what was the reason for Aiden's arrival here.

I can't keep arguing, looking for the most appropriate answer to what wind has brought the only son of the highest leadership of Gemilang Group at this time.

"Irza, have you come?" That's Diza, my youngest sister. Mr. Dirga's descendants and also Mrs. Zaskia who might actually be adopted children.

There is no resemblance to father and mother, a noisy and agitated soul is really non-negotiable.

"How did you see it yourself, Za?" I asked Diza while rolling my eyes lazily.

Hearing what I said Diza then pursed her lips and that was always the most adorable part for me. Diza Gayatri Rianto is the most beautiful woman in my life, after my mother of course.

"Za, in the carport, I saw Aiden's motorbike, you know." What I said was then answered by a very enthusiastic nod of the head from Diza, there was not the slightest doubt that followed.

"Aiden here?" My heart's intention was to clarify what Diza said, it was the 15 year old girl who silenced me.

"Is the answer I gave was not clear enough for you to understand, Irza?" That's Diza, she always has her own way of silencing someone she's talking to.

Seeing Diza's behavior like this, it seems that she deserves to be the only child of Uncle Rafa.

Rafa Afif Alzani, the current number one civil specialist lawyer, who is none other than my mother's sister.

"Where is it now?" I asked without wanting to extend my conversation with Diza. 

"In your room playing PS with Dirka." Dirka Abhimanyu Rianto, Diza's twin.

When I heard what Dza said, I took my steps straight to my room. Not just anyone can go in there. Only my mother, and father have free access to it.

Aiden or Dirka? I don't know who to choose. With a steady breath, I continued to lengthen my steps to get to my room, the area that became the VVIP point for Irza Adisankara Rianto.

BRAK!

My forehead then lifted to the side when I saw the condition of my room which looked empty with no occupants in it, there was no Aiden let alone Dirka. Is Diza lying? But Diza is not that kind of child.

My father always taught the three of us to be honest no matter how bitter it was. I faintly heard a loud noise from the room which was only two doors away from my room and it was Dirka's room. Are they there? Who knows. But in order to kill the curiosity that was growing inside me, I decided to take my steps back to the source of the voice that was tickling my curiosity.

"Dirka? Aiden?" call me to my brother and cousin. But no one wants to distract him just to look at me. Is the game they're playing more important than me? Since I didn't get an answer from either of them, I decided to just go in. And find my most comfortable position before questioning Aiden further about his coming here.

20 minutes ago they finally finished their game. Both Aiden and Dirka were surprised by my appearance here, even though I've been here for a long time.

"You're not good at playing like this, just accept your fate to be a nerd." Without thinking I then attacked Aiden with words that were able to freeze his whole body.

Hearing what I said, Aidenn couldn't help but roll his eyes in disgust, but after that he brought his attention to look at Dirka who was still in our midst.

Surprisingly, with just a look in his eyes Dirka walked away, leaving Aiden and me alone. 

"Since when do you have telepathic abilities like that?" I asked without wanting to wait any longer.

"I'm not really good at playing games, but to harbor a feeling you deserve to be crowned the master." I was originally in a prone position then changed my position to sit down and stared at Aiden very sharply, like I didn't want to let go even if it was only for a second.

"What do you mean?" I asked not to understand the mindset that Aiden currently has. Aiden is too gray for my colorful life.

"Rara? You're in love with her, right?"

DEG!

Hearing what Aiden said, my heart seemed to be in a bad state, even my eyes seemed to want to jump out right now. 

"You--"

"I know, Za . Your study table, the nightstand next to your bed, all of them have Rara's photos." My body temperature really became hot and cold when I heard what Aiden said. Is that? Is he showing me the way to become an intruder? Of all the expectations after expectations in my mind, that's the only one that is most accurate for me to understand. 

"How do you know?" finally passed for me to implement through words. Hearing what I just asked, Aiden could only smile his evil smile. Oh God, is Aiden's presence now something that I should be grateful for or will it backfire attack me.

"Answer my question first, do you like Rara or not?" This person in front of me is the most stubborn person I have ever met.

To Be Continued ….