POV Rara: I’m Always Ready

"Who do you mean Aiden?" I kept urging Aiden to be honest about the person we were talking about. Who is that? But whoever it is, I'm pretty sure it's not a random person. How come?

Aiden is a very picky person when it comes to making friends, and that was more than enough to make me believe that the person Aiden was referring to was not a random person.

"Anything related to love never looks for the justification through the brain, but looks for the justification here, in your heart."

"I have tutoring in 30 minutes. Please assume that you are looking for the most correct justification for a figure that may be blessed by the universe for you. But one thing for sure is not Raka. My life is at stake."

The sentence that Aden said really made me believe that what he said was never a joke. 

"When I come home from tutoring, I will stay at Uncle Badai's house, I will also give permission to my father after this." There are no more conversations involving Aiden and after this, it seems I really have to ask Raka for help to take me to the bookstore.

Not without reason, I asked Aiden for help to help me. Apart from Aiden, who buys books very often, I also don't want to depend on Raka. But the universe doesn't seem to approve of what I want. I thought Aiden was just baiting me, but he wasn't.

Aiden didn't come back and all that's left here is me and a myriad of questions that are still running through my mind.

For the riddle that Aiden gave me it was a difficult thing for me to answer individually. Not to mention that the clues he gave were only looking for the answer in my heart? What kind of joking way is Aiden actually giving me? Currently in my heart there is only one name, and that name is definitely and very clearly the name of Raka Yudha Juliardo.

No matter how hard my brain spins to find answers to Aiden's riddles, it will still only find its way into a dead end. I then brought my eyes to the wall clock which is currently hanging in one corner of my house. In half an hour Raka will come to pick me up and look at how I look now, just like an ash rose. 

Alright, before Raka throws all the babble, it's better if I just take a shower. If Raka has been nagging then I can be sure my ears are not okay. 20 minutes can be said is the fastest time for me to spend just taking a shower. 

Still 10 minutes less than the time I had agreed with Raka. I have to move fast because Raka is a creature that can suddenly appear anywhere and anytime. Just in case it's a good idea to hurry up and get dressed. The longest ritual for a grown up woman like me to do.

Ting Tong ….

My ears can hear very clearly when the bell from behind the main door has rung, I try to calm myself first, if the person behind the main door can be anyone, even though most of the time it is Raka.

I then ran wildly to approach my wardrobe, as fast as lightning now my body has been wrapped in a T-shirt and denim jeans. Last, not least, my favorite Converse shoes. One question that still lingers in my mind and is very difficult for me to find the answer to is, I've always had trouble tying my shoelaces, but I've always wanted to wear them.

TRING!

I then opened the door to my room because in my absence in the living room, Raka would definitely bring himself to my room. But on the other hand I brought myself back to try to tie my own shoelaces.

"Not done yet, Ra?" I couldn't hide the surprised look inside me when I heard what the figure who was currently standing in front of my bedroom door said, crossing his arms.

"Can you please don't remind me?" I asked Raka, because of what he did I wanted to eat him alive. Oh God, but I can't do it because after dad and Aiden the next reason for me to be happy is Raka.

"No!" he answered spontaneously, without wanting to think about it first. Hearing what Raka said, I couldn't help but roll my eyes lazily.

That's Raka, he always has his own way to make my mood go up and down drastically. 

"Good luck honey." But what I said was only stuck in my heart, I didn't have the courage to implement it through words.

"Here I tie!" he said to me in a tone that sounded very soft in my ears. And those words always succeed in making me fall in love with the same person over and over again.

"Sorry!" My great-grandson said in a sad tone. For a moment I really hoped to get help from Raka, but for some reason when he helped I felt like I was the most burdensome burden for Raka.

"No need to say sorry, it's your job to trouble me right?" I don't know if it's a question that I must answer or just a subtle satire given by Raka to me.

But if it's satire, I'm pretty sure that it's not the hallmark of the Raka Yudha Jualiardo people.

"But I always trouble you, Ka!" I said in a slightly trembling tone that I couldn't help it because Raka lifted his head to look at me.

Now our two eyes are locked with each other. The only sound of the clock ticking was the silence between us. Until in the end, "I like being bothered with you, Ra," he answered with a thin smile on his luscious lips.

His thin smile alone made me cringe let alone his lascivious smile. I don't know what I looked like after seeing it.

"As long as it is?" asked me. Not without reason I said that to Raka. It's just that I have a feeling that what Raka said has not yet reached the finale, there is still a continuation.

"As long as what?" Raka asked me with a hint of question that was clearly painted in every curve of his face.

"You want me to bother as long as what?" I'm trying to explain more clearly the meaning of Raka's words. Yes, as far as I know Raka, he is the most sincere person in my circle of life. 

"There are no conditions, Ra. You know why?" My brain is too weak to think about Raka let alone Aiden, the absorption power that I have can't be matched by the two men. I just gave a shake of what Raka asked just now.

"After mom and dad, you are the priority in my life, Ra." Surprised? Of course that's the feeling that dominates the deepest recesses of my heart right now.

Especially when you see Raka's two beaded eyes, what emanates from them is only honesty without any lies, even if it's only a little.

"You have to realize, Ka. We are different, we are not the same." I realized that the difference I had with Raka was the most real barrier in this relationship.

No matter how strong our love is, we can't be together. Even before this relationship started, there was already the strongest reason to separate me and Raka.

"As long as it's just a matter of time, keep standing beside me. Be the best support system for each other." Hearing what Raka's two luscious lips said, I didn't seem to have the choice to say no to what he wanted. 

"Are you ready?" My cheeks suddenly warmed when Raka's hands cupped them very warmly.

"Whatever it is as long as it's with you, I'm always ready, Ka." His smile that Raka gave me always managed to become the greatest addiction for me.

"Already!" said Raka after finishing his assignment tonight to tie my shoelaces. A very strong question arises in my heart right now, if indeed between me and Raka there is no matchmaking line at all, will the man who will become my soul mate treat me as well as Raka has done so far? Who knows.

I'm too scared to guess. Because many times my expectations are cruelly killed by the actual reality.

"Pull!" I ordered while extending my hand to Raka to be pulled. Raka seemed to roll his eyes lazily when he heard what I wanted. But no matter how ill Raka is at this time, he is still Raka Yudha Juliardo who always puts me on the third throne in his life priorities. 

"What do you want to ride? Motorcycle or car?" I did not immediately answer what Raka's question was. It took me a split second to make my choice. Until in the end my choice fell on the motorbike, of course with classic reasons, especially if not, so that it arrived quickly.

"As your choice, baby." The words said by Raka really managed to make me blush, I'm sure by now my cheeks have turned red like a crab being drained.

We then walked hand in hand to approach the main door of the house, I could see very clearly at this time that someone was trying to question something, but he was trying his best to hold it in.

"Daddy is still in the office and Aiden is at Uncle Badai's house." I tried to give an explanation in a tone that sounded fine in front of Raka.

Although that is impossible because Raka is a person who has a very high level of sensitivity towards me.

"You can speak up, Ra. After all, you are a child who also has rights over your parents." Hearing what Raka said I then shook my head as a symbol of rejection of what Raka said. 

"Dad already wants to meet my needs, that's more than enough, Ka. Trust me, Ka. What I already have, is still a dream for some people out there." There was no more conversation involving me or Raka, we just walked side by side to get to Raka's house which was right in front of my house.

CIT!

A green ninja motorbike stopped right in front of my house and when I saw it with a very sharp gaze I could recognize who was riding the motorbike.

My eyes seemed to want to jump out at this very moment when the person I knew very well took off the full face helmet that covered his face.

"Irza?" I muttered in my heart. I couldn't get my voice out.

To Be Continued ….