Chapter 119

  Jake has slowly unraveled me, and he has no clue. He has no idea the depths to which he has affected me, changed me. That damn Carrero and his effects on me can’t be reversed.

  I keep people at arm’s length, even Sarah. She’s my best friend, yet I’ve never told her anything that would justify that title. I don’t blame her for drifting away, because I’ve never given her a reason not to. I know everything about her, yet she knows very little about me, only what she’s witnessed from being around me. I was always a closed book.

  We drifted apart, and I was glad. She had been my focus, my person to protect and care for, in place of the mother I was leaving behind. She had given me a purpose, someone to take care of, and when she no longer needed me, I pulled away. I didn’t want her looking at me and remembering who I had been.