Chapter 157

  Look where it got me, alone and broken and losing the only man I was ever capable of trusting, ever capable of loving.

  He has a child on the way; maybe he will try again with Marissa now that I am no longer a thorn in his side, a constant distraction to ruin his day.

  He called us toxic. Hearing that hurt the worst. It struck me like a knife to the gut. I am toxic to him.

  What does that even mean? I slowly poisoned him in some way, until he couldn’t bear it anymore?

  I finally drag myself to my bedroom and pull on some pj’s. I haven’t worn anything like this in so long, I am amazed I even still own a pair. I climb on the bed, moving aside the huge bear Jake won for me at a street carnival on one of our trips. It causes a new slash of pain across my chest, and I sob into the bear’s stomach, slumping across it pitifully.