"For most of his life E.J tries to hide behind drawn curtains, to afraid that the world will find out about his abnormal situation. The one where he needs to please his stepfather sexually every night behind the same drawn curtains
When E.J meets Christopher he wishes that he could be whole for him and be in his arms as a pure boy again, be he know that is impossible. Add in E.J's stepfather becoming jealous of Christopher and E.J feeling he will never be good enough to be in a relationship and E.J needs to choose between killing his stepfather to be with Christopher or committing suicide to get out of this situation once and for all.
WARNING: This story may contain adult themes or sexual abuse. Do not read if this affects you in any way. This story however is based on things that do happen in real life. If you are being sexually abused, please talk about it and tell someone that can help you. 
This story has a rating of 18. If you are not 18 please refrain from reading since this story contains scenes of sexual nature as well as strong language."

Behind Drawn Curtains 1-2

　　When you have been through many things in life you get to the point where the biggest obstacles suddenly look really small to you. And then, just as you think that whatever happens it can’t make you react or feel any worse than you have ever felt, you are standing in front of a blue door, getting ready to knock and meet a person that will take all your strength not to murder.


　　“I don’t know if I can do this,” E.J. says looking at me like a little puppy that has been kicked. I know he wants me to tell him to turn around, but I have been thinking quite a lot. Maybe he needs this just as much as I need this trip. Maybe this is his version of the tenth sentence on my bucket list.


　　“Would you be able to go on with this trip if you turn around now?” I ask, and without planning it at all, I take his hand, snaking my fingers through his, wishing that I can in some way give him some of my strength and courage.


Chapter 40