Chapter 5

I needed someone there for me that could show enough sympathy to make me feel better so I went to see Rose. She tried to take my mind off things with some conversations about the weather and how the corrupted general manager of the supermarket was going to be fired and replaced but it didn't help. So we just ended up talking about it and it actually helped a little. She told me to meet her by this secret place in the woods she showed me a while back at twelve o'clock tonight and I said alright.

I snuck out around 11:30 since it took about thirty minutes to get there. When I arrived I couldn't find her anywhere so I went around looking for her and she yelled "Boo!" bursting out in laughter. "It isn't fucking funny. Why would you do that?" I said Rose said, "Cause it's funny. Why did you get so scared?" "Let's forget it,." I said. "Why did you want to meet me out here?" I said. "I just want to hang out with you since we haven't been hanging out with each other lately." She said. She took me upstairs next to this bed that was there because someone used to sleep here. It kinda smelled but it wasn't terrible actually. Part of the roof collapsed from an earthquake once upon a time and was never fixed. So we were looking at the stars talking about things that made us happy like, "What's your favorite ice cream?" I found it kind of funny because of how dry the conversation was.

Around thirty minutes in, she started to flirt a little, appearing to me that she was trying to put me into a mood. She eventually starts putting her hand on my stomach slowly moving it up through my shirt. Her hand was freezing cold so I moved away. "Why are you moving away from me Robbie?" She said. "Your hand is just really cold." I said. "It'll warm up." She said. She was starting to take my shirt off and undoing my jeans my mom bought me for my birthday about four months ago. I was a little big, not really fat but kind of muscular and tall. I wore a thirty-four by thirty-two on my jeans. Rose was kind of short and of mexican descent. She was one of the hottest girls in school and the personality was perfect for me so I felt almost blessed. I was still a virgin and wasn't ready yet but still let her make moves for some reason. Feeling almost helpless, I said, "I am not ready. Sorry." "What do you mean you aren't ready?! We are almost in tenth grade!" She started to get really mad at me for it. "You know I bet you aren't ready because you have a small dick. You don't want to be embarrassed." I started to get flustered and yelled, "IT ISN'T MY FUCKING SIZE I AM JUST NOT READY!" We got into an argument and eventually she got on top of me kissing me really hard putting me into a horny mood. She completely undone my pants and got at it with me. I was just thinking to myself, "Damn this actually feels amazing." Luckily, she brought a condom. I didn't bring one because I wasn't initially ready. Around 20 minutes later, "That was amazing. You definitely didn't have a small dick." She said. "Yeah you are right That felt amazing. Sorry for getting so angry with you." I said. "It's fine. I am sorry too I shouldn't have said that to you I should have respected you." She said. "Thanks." I said. After laying there for about ten minutes I realized it was about one thirty at night and yelled, "Oh shit! It is almost one thirty! We gotta get going, it is a school night." She said, "Oh shit you're right, I will see you tomorrow. Love you." "Love you, too. I said. Walking home I turned around and s,aw her being grabbed by the dudes that took Evan and possibly killed Michael. I ran yelling, "NOOOOOOOO!" But it was helpless. I ran faster than I've ever ran before. Moving swiftly through the cold night. Crying. But there was no hope. The car was already started and they drove off. I fell to the ground crying. Screaming, "WHY?!" I prayed for help from God but got no help. I decided to go home and luckily my mom wasn't in there waiting for me this time. I fell asleep astonishingly fast even though I was sobbing waterfalls down my face.