This was a nightmare.

"Ahhn." The wails of a girl and the grunts of a man reverberated around the corridors.

Now I wasn't that much of a kid to not know what it was. Brothels were common in my town and the same sound would play on repeat whenever I went past them. Honestly, I wouldn't have cared about it if they weren't doing it at the crack of dawn in the church. There was a limit to debauchery.

Did I mention the church?!

'Some people were just irredeemable.'

You know what, I shouldn't concern myself with this. As I remembered what I was here for, the smile returned to my face.

I was about to meet Luno. I ignored the sound of thumps and started walking again in the other direction. There was no way that she was there. It was probably a nun and a priest getting it on. People get frustrated-

"Grab me! Ugh, there!"

"!!" I halted immediately.

Voice. I knew that voice. No, I thought I did.

My heart was already beating quickly because I was- But it started to beat even quicker. Hell, I could almost hear it beat out of my chest. My ears were pulsating with every beat. I couldn't think straight.

I didn't want to believe-? No, I wanted to confirm my suspicions?

NO! I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING!

Leaving my initial goal aside, my body instinctively followed some foreign moans through the corridor behind me. A familiar voice that made sounds I had never heard it make before. The tips of my temples were bulging? I was short of breath, but not quite suffocating.

'There was no way right? Surely!'

"Uhhhm~"

My steps picked up pace as I went further and further towards the inner sections of the church. The light didn't quite reach inside all that well, or maybe it was because all the doors were closed. With every step, the sound only got louder. Again and again and again and again.

"Come on, don't stop now!~" The voice was only a second away. And I was close enough to know. My quivering feet came to a halt. There was light in front of a section of the corridor. Just one open door in the entire area.

Just one open door through which I saw two bodies entwined and lips connected. A face I knew all too well, and the other I couldn't even begin to recognise. A sight I couldn't understand.

Under the clothes- hugging? Who was I lying to? Who was I trying to protect?

There was no covering this-

Against the nightstand, my childhood friend, first lov- only love, my fiancee, my life's wish, the one that woke me with a smile everyday- was with a man that wasn't me. Her face contorted in ecstasy or degeneracy.

I stopped breathing, I wanted to throw up- there were stones in my stomach, my legs went limp, the tip of my ears were burning, my eyebrows furrowed in a cringe, and my eyes burnt as if someone threw salt in them.

I wanted to run away. If you ignore the problem it solves itself, right? Nonetheless, I couldn't do anything.

I wanted to confront her as a man would. But I could do nothing.

'Surely she had a reason?'

NO! FUCK! THERE WAS NOTHING THAT COULD JUSTIFY THIS!

DOING SOMETHING LIKE THAT WITH MY RING ON HER FINGER? SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO LOVE ME. WE WERE SUPPOSED TO ONLY BELONG TO EACH OTHER! IT WAS AN OATH! DID THAT MEAN NOTHING? DID NOTHING MEAN ANYTHING?

FUCKKKK!

This was a betrayal. My heart was burning, I was seething with rage. And in the midst of it all, the food I carried here for her- the food Mom made for her, fell from my hands.

'Tell Luno I sent love.' My ass.

I was almost sure that I threw it out of spite. With how tightly I was gripping it there was no way it slipped.

But my mind was so engrossed in the breach in front of my eyes that I felt nothing.

The sound of metal on the marble below, the food spilt over my shoes. I didn't feel it burn.

"Who's there?!" The man shouted as he turned around. There was no hiding. I did nothing to hide anyway. She was MY fiancee.

If I could see them, they could see me too… All they had to do was turn around.

Luno slipped her garment on and fixed her dress immediately. The robe of a saint. She was defiled, dirty, disgusting. Her eyes met mine.

Just like the blood had left my face, it left hers' as well. Her mouth opened but not a word came out. Her eyes started to shiver.

"El-Elyan… What are you d-doing here?" Luno reached her hand out.

I tried to step forward but my legs were locked in place.

"How could you?" I breathed for the first time after witnessing the scene.

"No, this I-I can explain." She waved her hands to cover whatever she wanted to. But the only thing she had to cover was that naked man's ass. She was already used to covering herself up at a moment's notice, wasn't she?

"I saw everything…" There was no point in hiding. No matter how quick she was, the scene was enough to be stuck in my memory. "I saw how you- how you did tha- all that after what we went through together."

"NO, I DIDN'T!" She shouted but couldn't follow up. "I didn't. Just listen to me! Please!" Luno couldn't speak again.

Long golden locks, that didn't get cut like a nun's. Still the enchanting face. But everything about her looked so ugly.

"I don't want to listen to you-" I sniffled. My brows quaked. "I mean. Fuck! How even could you?" My nails started to dig into my skin.

"We can talk this out… Yes. Just be calm." She gently waved her hands as if she was talking to a dog.

"HOW CAN YOU… How can you expect me to be calm, after showing that to me?!!" I didn't want to hear it. Her excuses. Every word that left her mouth was a lie. There was no trust between us. The relationship we had built since we were kids, was gone at a moment's notice.

"Ahhhh… Is he that village boy fiance you talked about? The doormat who worked at that farm." The guy finally spoke up after putting his pants back on. She talked to him about me? In that manner? And still, did it? The fact she even talked about me makes my stomach turn. How vile. My nose was hurting from frustration.

AND A GUY LIKE HIM?!

He was built like a twig and was barely tall enough to reach my chin. For a second I wanted to snap him. He lit a pipe and put it in his mouth.

"With a guy like him?" I muttered loud enough for everyone to hear.

He was the epitome of what every man shouldn't be. And yet he was the one I was betrayed for. I felt pathetic even comparing ourselves. I mean what right did she have to make me feel inferior? It wasn't this man, in particular, it was any man she could have done it with. The person at fault here was Luno.

I had felt anger before. When people mistreated Mom, or when the kids bullied my Sister. I felt anger when Luno was deserted by the town after her father burnt our town's church burnt down.

But I never felt anger on my account. I never got angry for my own sake.

Every memory that I had of her. Every moment I could look back on with a smile turned into something that would haunt me.

This was a nightmare.