Dwelling on her fault

Aleena watched the two men standing before the car drives away she couldn't stop the car not because she don't want to, but because she do not have the energy to, she raised her head a bit to stop the tears struggling to be on her chin, seems like she is not felicitous at love, just how can things like this be happening to her, am not a bad person but always bad at the man i love the most, just why will i be this bad stupid fool she murmurs after taping at her forehead, Aleena was the kind of person that always dwells on her own culpability and loathe herself whenever she is infuriated.

"Hey! What's wrong is it about the man that pushed you? A man standing before her pressing his phone asked with care after she murmured.

She raised her eyes a little bit trying to not to show her disgust, " it is nothing, that was already a bygone am sorry for distracting you" she said trying to keep her usual calm. The man shrugged and do not add anything rather concentrate his attention more on the phone he is pressing.

"Baba are you going back to new site ?" a young man of not less than 20 years asked the driver of the car Aleena is in from outside after the car parked while some people are getting up, "No gentle man" the driver reply shortly

Aleena leaps up from the car chair she sat on balance her feet well on the floor as she stand and scurries to the university gate, as she walk she is trying to maintain her calm but her mind and entire body wasn't in normal state she's so weak, if not because she keep encouraging herself to be strong she might fall due to the fact that the energy in her is exhausted, she is in panic not in her rightfull mental state, the only reason stop her from going back home now is because of Dr Nawas's horrible behavior towards her he might fail her if she did not appear before him today.

The sense of being followed and a voice bawling wanting to stop someone made her look back, she set her eyes on the man she fall on few minutes back in the car, the man that gave her his seat, the smile on his face at her let her with no reason than to stay, he seems to be walking towards her, the man rushed and appears before Aleena, he stand smiling rubbing his hair.

Am sorry for what happened last minutes in the car i don't mean to fail on you on purpose she implore before he could say anything, he waved his two hand signing it's nothing, that's bygone don't worry" he said grinning.

"Ok thank you" she said and turned to leave.

"But i do not say the reason i stop you" he said in little high pitch voice, Alena turned and gaze at the man with curious eyes trying to extract some ideas of why he stopped her, he smiled at her, wipes his face with his palm " please your name and if possible your phone number" he begged.

She look at him with mild face and benign but the truth is she hate men toasting a woman while she is in the road this is not her style answering or replying to man like him but at least she owes him some favor, "my name is Aleena and I do not see any reason for me to tell you phone number" she said stopping a young man passing by and start asking him for the direction of where she head to ," i think you are at the exact place that's the office i think" the man she stopped said stretching his hand pointing at the office opposite to them.

" Thank you" she said and the man continue walking while she turn to speak to the man standing before her.

"Since am at my destination i think this is our final point of meet thank you and am sorry once again" she said and walk to the office, letting the man with no chance of reply, he watched her while she knock the office door.

"Yes come in" a voice from the office said, she pull the door and matches forward in to the office saying "Assalamu alaikum" (Peace be open you) her voice tremble of fear as she speak, there are two men in the office the man she don't know on the office chair and Dr Nawas her project supervisor was on carpet papers scattered before him, looking at the phone on his hand.

"Good afternoon" she greeted both of them with respect, she only heard the voice of the man she think of as the owner of the office, but not that of her supervisor his attention wasn't with her may be he did not notice me coming in she thought after knowing that he already See's her.

Standing for minutes without getting any word from Dr Nawas annoyed her this man was the kind of hardest people she ever met in her life, she raise her eyes to gaze at him he has a blank face it unfortunate for her to glance at his eyes he glared at her and says nothing; Aleena therefore get in the first word trying as much as possible to not show her disgust.

"oh sir am here about the project" she confidently said

"But you are late i am afraid that i can't do any good it will mean simply you will have to be at my office tommorow if you so wish" Dr Nawas carelessly said peering at his phone.

It is now she get it this man do not only hate her but want to prick her to dwells at him he is trying so hard to find a reason to fail and disgrace her more, why did you hate me, vwhat did i do to deserve this treat that's what she wanted to said desperately but she will never give him any reason to disrelish her more, she sway herself before altering anything.

" But sir i don't think am late i called you 10 minutes back which means am still at new campus when it is 1 o clock, you know the distance between there and here if not because am lucky to get the car already full i might be still at new campus by now".

He hissed! Quite a bit before raising his eyes from his phone to looks at her "Please Aleena stopped lying to me i already saw you with your boyfriend chattering may be you are at this campus when you call, do you think i have nothing to do that i will just wait for you till you are done with your nonsense?"

But sir..... "You go out!" he dwells furiously.

She sighted and then said sorry and thank you sir and walk out of the office like a sleep walker.

Dr Bashir look at Dr Nawas after Aleena left, "what did you just do why will you send her away you know very well that she is not late i don't want to support her in ger present to feel maltreated by her teacher but what you did isn't fair at all"

Dr Nawas lick his leaps and then raised his eyebrows as he shrugged "she might not be late as you believe but the thing is since she put a man before her studies I think it would be good if i let her go and meet him i know he nust be waiting outside"

Dr Bashir smiled " you seems like a man in love and jealous".

Frowning his face bringing his eyebrows together making a wrinkles forehead he raised and stand on his feet "who me in love with that little Baby girl are you mad?" He asked looking away from Dr Bashir's face he don't want to laughed.

Dr Bashir burst into laughing he laughed boisterously enough to make some tesrs to his chin " i do not say you love her i know you have your woman so don't mind my words"

Picking up his car key from under the table "You have a problem i have to go" Dr Nawas said

Aleena sat on the chair made specifically for students under the tree after she goes out what happened today wasn't something new to her all she cares for is how that lover of hers will felt of her, her fear and everything is what if he hate her.

"What happens? Did something happen at the office, a voice brought her back from the unreasonable Thought the voice seems familiar, as she thought it was the man from before.

"It is nothing am just waiting for my driver to arrive" she replied looking away.

"Ok should i keep you company?" He asked looking at the space besides her.

She smirked " No actually" she springs up balance her feet on the ground take her bag and walk, the man followed her, please i need your number" he said raising his voice for her to hear.

I have to do something or else this mad man will keep following me she thought, "as i said earlier i see no reason why you need my number?", she said peering with blank face.

"I just want to be one of the most important person in your life" he said smiling.

Looking at him with blank gaze "well i don't know what role you actually want to play but the thing is the men in my life are well enough for me to be happy, i have a brother, i have a father, i have my Friends and also the man i wanted to marry, the man i love so much" she said and trudge away, the car that suddenly stopped before her startled her and stop her from walking forward, it Dr Nawas's car he slides the car glass " come in let me drop you" he said.

She shakes her head "No sir thank you my driver is almost here" she replied back

Dr Nawas hummed and looked back is it because of him he pointed with his lips at the man she just speaks to before trudging away.

She look back and then look at Dr " he is not my boyfriend" she said and swiftly walk away few minutes back she is angry at herself but now is her supervisor and that nameless man. Dr Nawas gape at her as she move she didn't even gave him s chance to reply. He bites at his lips and drove his car away. The other man standing have no choice too than to leave.

Aleena wait for several minutes before arrival of her driver.

Coming back home Aleena do not hay the energy to do anything not even her regular and permanent bath, she just slum on her bed with no energy thinking of how to pursue that man to forgive her tommorow, she isn't hungry but her stomach keep making some unreasonable noise with that she prepare a plane horny tea Because with her situation she can't eat anything she's already miserable thinking of what she did the last day at library and today in the car to the man she is dreaming of spending her entire life with...