Apologizes

LISA POV

I was and still am really sad about the fact that Selena disrespected me in such away. I went over to the others for they were in one big room together and explained the situation vaguely, I went outside for some air to just relax and clear my mind. I just kept walking until I stumbled upon a really big tree that literally begged me to climb it, I went up in the tree and sat on the strongest branch.

I want to understand what Selena words mean I don't just want to jump to conclusions because I'm hurt deep down I kind of know she means well, but a part of me just thinks she is being selfish, I definitely have not forgotten anything that she has done for me, how could I forget any of those things? I just want to meet new people and have a normal werewolf life where I don't have to run for my life and steal food, clothing, money etc. I want to live in a world that things are fair and not feared, no one wants a dangerous rogue out there that can destroy packs and families, yes that might have been one of the reasons that I started to follow her around because I knew that I would have been protected. Now I just want to be free of her where I can do things without getting her permission and without her holding me back, because I am not that young, dumb, naive and helpless werewolf anymore I am strong and smart and my own person it's just because I know better than to piss her off, last time I did that not even an Alpha command could stop her wrath which led to her killing people just so she did not kill me. She is just this sick person that enjoys the sorrow of other people, but she is also the person that protected me, fed me and raise me, even though we kind of grew up together Selena being the mature one still I know such little about her she tells you what you need to know not what you want to know and the worst thing about her is once her mind is made up there is no way you can change it. I concluded maybe that is why she is the most powerful rogue at just seventeen-years-old, because she is strong minded and once someone is strong minded no matter how powerful you are they always find a way to break you. So, my question is which strong minded person will break Selena?

SELENA POV

After the so-called argument with Lisa and I, I must say that I am quite fine it felt good to get all those things off my mind and my chest.

I was browsing on the internet when I heard a knock the scent was familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time. "Who is it?" I asked, the voice on the other side of the door made me physically tired. "It is me Rose along with others; look Selena we just want to talk. So could you please let us in?" Rose practically yelled on the other side of the door. She said they only wanted to talk no crap what else would they come to do eat Ice-cream and cake. I walked over to the door and opened it to let them in. "Okay you guys may have a seat. So, what do you want to talk about?" "Look Selena Lisa kind of told us part of the story and we just want to kind of clear up all the misunderstanding. We would never steal your best friend away from you we know that she has been spending quite some time with us, but we really do enjoy her company. If that was the reason why you felt a certain way towards her or even towards us, we really do apologize and we are also sorry for getting off on a bad start with you." Rose I think her name was said, "If that is all you may leave now. I don't really understand the whole good girl act, but sorry to say it does not suit you girly. The first-time you people saw Lisa and I you called us filthy creatures, and now all of a sudden you people are best friends with the only person I have ever known and cared for. So, keep your apologizes I don't want them from you the person that is supposed to say sorry to me is Lisa because she knows what she has down. Now could you please just leave me be." I basically ranted.

They looked confused and kind of astonished, but I think I respect them in a way. After what had happened between them and me, I have not really considered their kindness Lisa did say they kept her sane when I was in the hospital room place. They left and again I was alone, I wonder when Dylan will come and say his apologizes or even try to lecture me.

After the argument with me and him the other night I couldn't stop thinking what that meeting was all about, deep down I knew it must have been something more important than telling the pack that his mate is a rogue if only I didn't walk away. Normally Alphas like Dylan are power hunger and want to wipe out the rogue community, he did state that it was quite shameful to have a rogue as a mate... What was the Moon Goddess thinking? To pair the both of us I swore to my mother to never have a mate and I am pretty sure Dylan does not want to have a rogue as his Luna to rule his pack with him. Frankly I don't believe in destiny because she is just messed up, if I don't have control over my own life and soul, I don't like the people or in other word beings who do have control over it. Maybe that is why it took me so long to believe in the Moon Goddess, why would the Goddess herself join hands with destiny to ruin her own children lives.

I believe that if the Moon Goddess loved her so-called children's rogues would not have existed so much and Alphas would not be so cruel to pack members.

Why did I have to be her? Why leave me with so much unanswered questions mother? Why did you and father do it? You guys could have still been alive if only I was not born. Why leave me to fend for myself with no guidance, not even a blueprint? Why curse me, Destiny???