CHAPTER 3: The Real Him?!

In the deepest soul of Izanami, there are changes. Memories that don't belong to him start to unlock and those memories enter in his brain very fast. It is within a single second.

Memories from the Paths that were told by his mom, memories of Izanami and the new memories from somewhere else combined and a new ' Izanami ' reborn from the ashes. Memories define the person and without the memories, we are completely a new shell or person. Names are also important but the memories are the most important thing after all.

" ... " Izanami slowly opened his eyes and he is lying on the ship. It looks like he is in the middle of the water. While the boat is going to the place where the titans are not there. He could see the back gate Wall Maria is destroyed and titans are letting out from there.

" Hahaha..... " Izanami suddenly laughs from the fact that he is reincarnated into this world. He was dead from the painless death and when he opens his eyes, he could see the titans and Wall Maria is down. As a fan of anime, he watched AOT multiple times so he could tell every part of the story. He was just a normal person with a normal life and even with a normal death.

"...." Suddenly, the tears leak from his eyes and his face immediately changes into despair, he looks like a crazy person. His eyes have no will to live. But he does not stand out from the crowd because others are also the state in the state as him. Weeping the tears for their loved ones.

" Aaaaa... " Izanami cries out as the tears leak from his eyes and he could feel very powerful pain in his whole body. His body falls to the ground and his hands wrap around his body. It looks like someone ripped off his heart and the pain was too much for him.

" It fucking hurts... " He swears as he does not know anymore who he is. Is he a boy who lost his family? or a person who reincarnated into this world? Both of them are correct and both of them are wrong at the same time. He is having an identity crisis.

" ha....What the fuck. " He suppressed his feelings as he muttered. He was an adult in his past life and he was over 30 years old when he was dead so he already seem enough about life. Maybe, the mature part of him takes control over his body and he controls his strong feelings. Or these feelings are just imagery.

" Haaa....haaaa" He sights and he leans on the wooden wall. He is already exhausted. His body is too tired both physically and mentally. His breathing is quite heavy like he is running the marathon.

" Mom, give me the strength to live in this miserable world. " He muttered and he didn't know which mom, he recalled when he said ' Mother '. Probably both. He is a boy who named ' Izanami Guardsman ' and at the same time, he is ' Heoy Qzodnu ' who was dead.

His feeling settles down but the pain and suffering don't go away. He looks up at the sky and the sky is still the beautiful sky that he knows. The people are grieving for the dead ones and the air is very suffocating.

Tears leak from his eyes when he looks at the sky. The sun looks like so hot too him and the air is so suffocating that he has trouble in breathing. His body's situation is worse like a thousand of bees are biting his body.

" I can not live like this. " Izanami grits his teeth as he stood up, his eyes moving on the Wall Maria. His eyes have a hate for the titans and a calm feeling at the same time. When the pain is too much, it will kick you to get into some sense.

" Hell? " He muttered and his mind is breaking down. He is trying his best not to become crazy. These overwhelming feelings of despair are killing him from the inside. The feeling is quite painful because he knows the fact that this world was fiction but for him, it is hell.

" Mom, don't worry. I will live in this world as you said. But let me make my own history in this miserable world. " Izanami looked at the sky as he muttered. His words are clean and his eyes look very calm.

As a person who knows about the future, he knows that he can not stay like this. He needs to make his own future with his hands.

" Watch me from the sky, mothers. " He said with a smile as he controls his feelings. If someone sees very carefully, his eyes only have a will to move on.

He didn't move on with his life in his previous life when his mother from the previous life dead. He became a depressing person and his life was trash. He will not make the second mistake. He will pave his way in this life.

The boat move to the Southern part of Wall Rose and the refugees gather here. The atmosphere is quite depressing and some are still crying and weeping out.

Garrison Unit comes here and helps the refugees to allocate the place. There are even Scout regiments here and there, watching from the Wall.

" Uniforms really look cool. " Izanami muttered and appreciated the uniform. Scouts Regiment wears ODM gears and Garrison units have standard rifles. There are a lot of refugees and even though a lot of people are dead. They also need to move people from the other sides of Wall Maria because they are surrounded by Titans and beside the Southern part is down so it is very hard to live themselves. Mostly, they use ships to move the people.

" Please follow us. Make a line. " Their captains from the teams said and people forms a line. After that, we are guided to the temporary shelters which no one use. There are only large fields and some people don't get roofs.

" ha... " Izanami sighed and he sat down on the muddy ground. He is carrying two potatoes and a blanket. Potatoes are dinner.

" It is very tiring. " He muttered as he lies on the muddy ground. He uses his blanket to cover his body and he wrapped around his potatoes very tightly because others might steal them. But everyone is too tired and some of them have no will to live. This world is depressing but everyone is used to it.

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