Eighteen

Chapter 18

Loving someone and keeping it's a secret is though.

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I was pacing up and down in the room thinking about what just happened between me and Mr Charlie, my crush. I felt suffocated in the room but couldn't go out. I don't want to have any encounter with Mr Charlie, not after what transpired between us. I know I shouldn't have given in, I don't know what to think again because I feel like Mrs Vivian is going to find out about what we did in this room. I wished I could just leave because I betrayed the trust Mrs Vivian had for me. I just wished I could take the hand of clock backward then I wouldn't have Charlie had his way with

I went into the toilet and bath. Maybe I will feel a little bit at ease but no I felt nothing like that. Rather the scene just keeps replaying in my memory as if it's just happened now. That means I have ruined everything between me and Kelvin because I cheated on him even before I gave him the chance he requested. I don't know how to inform Sam or Mia about it because they'll definitely be mad at me for letting him have his way with me as easy as that, not knowing I couldn't keep my emotions at bay. I'm losing already even before it gets started, I know I fumbled big time but I can't continue keeping my emotion at bay. I just hope Mrs Vivian won't find out and Kelvin will understand me and not take me as a bad person. I know I don't love him but I don't want things to be misunderstood between us, since it's the least I could do. I needed someone to confide in who that would be. I wanted to call Kelvin and explain to him I couldn't since I don't even have his number and even if I call him I don't know what to say so I decided it's better I sleep with the way my body is aching me. I lay down of the bed and slept of without wasting much time

Never thought having sex for the first time will cause me so much pain because every part of my body aches especially my Virginia I feels as if chili have been poured down there. I had to get up and get a hot bath because we're going to see the doctor today since we're asked to come back a week later. I tried to massage my body to reduce the body pains and my walking step. I dressed up and walked out to wait for Mrs Vivian like always but to my surprise I saw her sitting down already dressed "good morning" I greeted trying my possible best to be normal

"Morning Lilly. I can see you have a lot of fun yesterday since you didn't wake up on time today"

"Yes I did"

"Alright then let's go" we arrived at the hospital and was taken to the doctor office directly

"Good morning Dr"

"Morning Ms Lilly and Mrs Charlie"

"Thank you Dr"

"So let's get to work" with that I lay down which doctor repeated the same procedure just like the first one. When she's through she asked me to lie down for a while which I complied

"I hope everything will be fine this time around?" Mrs Vivian couldn't help but asked

"Don't worry. I promised everything will be fine this time around" the doctor said reassuringly which we left after she asked us to with prescription of things I needed when I arrived at home about to walked back to my room when Mrs Vivian called me back

"Lilly, can I have a word with you?" Mrs Vivian asked

"Sure" I said, going back to sit down.

"I just want to tell you to feel free to tell me anything whenever something is disturbing you because I'm here for you and I'm the reason you will start seeing some changes in your body, so tell me anything you need or want"

"Thank you" I said not knowing what to say after what I did behind her back

"And that reminds me I will be giving you part of the payment today so you can use it for thing you might need" she said which I smile at least I will get to pay off some debt and spend some on Mia and Sam since they have been the ones paying for all our night outings and some other thing

It's been a long time since the incident between me and Mr Charlie happened but I didn't tell anyone, not even Mia nor Sam knows about it, which I think it's better than seeing no one notice and Mr Charlie has travelled out. I do make sure I don't get late to any of my work despite the fact that I'm almost done paying off the debt because of the money Mrs Vivian gave me. We will be going to see the doctor today since we were told to come for check ups to know how I'm feeling. I wore one of the dresses I bought when we went shopping with Mrs Vivian. I quickly applied some lip balm on my lips before going to meet Mrs Vivian. "Good morning" I greeted smiling at her which she returns

"Morning Lilly, you look good in that" she compliment which I blushed

"Thank you" I said shyly not used to this part of her

"Let's go, we don't wanna be late" and we both ambled out of the house to the car in which the driver drove us to the hospital. We were lucky people weren't much so we get to see the doctor on time which she did some scanning "well I can see you're faring well and the pregnancy is fine too" the doctor said which Mrs Vivian smiled and grab my hand in hers squeezing it a little bit which I know she's happy and trying to show her appreciation

"Thank you doctor"

"You're welcome, but you need enough time to rest and sleep and please don't over-stress yourself. Your body needs a lot of bed rest" advices the doctor, which we thanked her before leaving.

We went straight home without branching anywhere which I think Mrs Vivian has no appointments today. Upon our arrival I sat at the seating room first because I was tired and exhausted which is unlike me "Lilly" Mrs Vivian called my name seating close to me

"Humm" I responded because I'm too tired to talk she pick my hands up from my lap holding the two of them in hers

"I know you're trying alot for me by moving here and so on. But about what the doctor says, I think it's better you take a bed rest. I know that's not part of our contract but for your own good and health, I think it's best for you to take a leave from your working place. I'm not telling you to quit all in all, not just a leave for a few months before you resume. What do you think?"

"Well, I know I need the rest but I can't. Leaving here alone feels like a burden on me. I'm not used to this kind of life and everything here seems so unreal to me so telling me to take a leave is just like telling me to die. The house is so quiet all the time"

"I know,but you're not quitting, just a leave then you can continue later on and you can hang around everywhere you want within the house, feel free to reach any places you want"

"I will think about it but for now I can't say anything"

"Thank you dear"

"Alright, I need to go and rest"

"You need that"

Sam and Mia will be coming to visit and spend some time with me while Mrs Charlie is not around, she has traveled for one of her shoots for more than a week now leaving me and the maids all alone in the house. The knock on the door is what makes me to stand up from my bed to open the door since I'm expecting Sam and Mia any moment from now" Morning Ma'am, you have visitors" the maid said

"Let them in" I said which leaves to bring them in but I couldn't wait for her to bring them so I followed her to see them myself. Immediately I saw Sam and Mia. I rush to hug them to say I'm happy is just a statement because I'm beyond happy to see them being the first time they visited since I packed here ''Oh! You're such a baby"Mia said teasingly

"Yes I'm" I replied smiling because I'm so excited to see them that I couldn't hide it

"But be careful, you know you're not alone" Sam warned

"I know, I'm just too happy to see you guys"

"We too," Sam said, giving me a hug before we walked inside. They look around before we crash into my room " Best these house is beautiful" Mia said

"Yeah it is"

"So,where are they? I mean Mr and Mrs Charlie"

"Oh, she's not around. She travel out for her shoot"

"And Mr Charlie"

"We'll have not been seeing him lately, so I don't know"

"Oh, okay" we gist played and laughed all together, they spent a while before leaving saying they will visit another time since it's getting late and dark already. Which they complain it's not my house for them to spend the night over

Sitting in my room bored not knowing what to do I decided to rearrange my clothes since I have nothing to do and my wardrobe needs some adjustments. While folding my clothes I heard a knock which I dropped the clothes in my hand on the floor to open the door thinking maybe the maids are here to tell me dinner is ready. I opened the door but got surprised seeing it's not any of the maids rather the last person I'm expecting to see which is none other than me Charlie. I turned back to lock the door when he put his leg in between the door and the wall which I don't have the strength to struggle with now I let him be "Please can I come in? I want to have a word with you" he said which I look at him from head to toe before responding

"I don't think i have anything to say to you and even if i do, then these is not the proper place for me to talk to you So please excuse me"

"I won't take much of your time. I promised it's gonna be brief and I will leave"

"No, I don't want to listen to you. Leave right now before I cause a scene here. Which I don't think you will like that because there are many people watching which definitely they will inform your wife about it Mr Man''

"Just let me in, that all I ask for"

"No" with that I bang the door and lock it, because when we were talking he removed his leg in-between the door without him knowing which I took notice of. I don't really know what this man wants from me. He should please leave me alone. The house is suffocating already and I don't want him to suffocate me anymore. I sigh and go straight to the toilet to bath

I almost got late for work this morning but thank God I made it on time, before Itm late. We have a lot of work in the shop, since we are about to release a new design which some of the celebrities brought in the designs they want for their dresses for the upcoming show, so things were hectic with more work loads. During the break time I went out to get something to eat because I'm really farmish. I open the door and saw Sam about to open the the door

"Why didn't you enter?" I inquired

"Was about to when you open the door"

"Oh! Sorry"

"Here I brought you something to eat, I know you will be hungry"

"So thoughtful of you. Was about to go and get something to eat because I'm actually hungry"

"Perfect timing it is then"

"Yeah. Let's sit over there" we walk to the chair and table set for eating. Sam waited for me patiently to finish eating before he left. Which I was grateful for that