PrincesAuntum

My encounter with him was a blessing because he showed me another side of this world that I have not seen before. Our acquaintance was a joyful one because he transformed me into a flawless girl despite having a number of imperfections myself. I was, by no means, a quintessential girl. I was an eyesore to everyone. Even so, had I been able to turn back the hands of time, I would prevent our existence from being known to each other. There were so many things that I have lost because of him. He was a boy that would always be in my memory. I would never bury my hatchet.

UNFORGIVEN BOY (ENG)

"Nilam... did he die too, Ar? So... so in that one time, all of Nilam's family died?" I asked getting concerned. Arya just looked down. He didn't answer my question. Silence, I interpret with the word 'yes'.

Retrieve the pieces of my memory. Trying to dig deeper into what I don't know. I want to know Ricky, whatever it is. The good—bad, his past, even all the memories in his brain. I want to know all! So that I'm not stupid anymore to take a stand. So that I don't hurt him anymore. What's more, so that I can face him to be able to apologize. I need a reason for that. I need support to strengthen me. It's Ricky, which scares me to approach him.

It's not the kind of fear I'm used to with him. My fear is the fear of guilt. For hurting him, again... and again.

"Then... then what did Alex say back then?" I asked again. Remembering when Arya's school friend had also said that Ricky was a murderer?

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