Changing my plan

Chào (Ciao)! Today I have something that I want to announce to my readers. Well, I am thinking about stopping listening to the wings subliminal but the height growing subliminals. Let me explain the reason: The thing is I have had height dysphoria for years, even before knowing I am nonbinary. But it is not as bad as breast and gender dysphoria. And I have planned to have top surgery for while. Unfortunately, as time passed, my gender dysphoria has got worse which made me notice my curves more often. And also, weeks ago, I did tell mom know about my intention for having top surgery, and she made out a condition, told me if I could reach 160cm tall, she would let me have top surgery. Yeah, sounds ridiculous, right? Besides, I do think that maybe increasing my height can help my dysphoria get better and make my body look less curve.

Now, fact's time! In myth theory, many have said if we stopped listening to the wings' growth subliminal, our body would stop growing wings. But~ good news that this myth is totally wrong. To the wings growers us who have been in progress for a while, we have already known. But I still want to say out loud in case my readers are the newbie to grow wings or the people who want to study about us. The true fact is: listening to the subliminal is just a method of all the methods we use. Wings growing process is a process that will never end once your body reaches phantom development unless you use the cleaning subliminal even if you stop listening to the subliminal or visualizing. If you stop doing these, your body may temporarily stop developing for a while or fall into passive development which could be freaking slow and you barely can feel the change. It only stops developing when you listen to the cleaning affirmation subliminals and stop thinking about the wings. This part could be not really easy with many people, especially the passive development because this will ask us to have to be really, really patient and not to be so obsessed with the results. I have read many journals online and there are many people who decided to give up due to having some problem about being an adult, or knowing what they might have to give up and sacrifice for growing wings, being nonhuman beings.

So, after knowing this fact, I decided to do it and listen to the increasing height subliminal until reaching my desired height. Well, you know, increasing height after puberty is hard. Some people could stop growing taller once they passed puberty. And I noticed that my body is kind of about to reach the limit of growing taller. So, I want to do it as long as it's possible before I'm no longer to be taller anymore, and I will let my body into the passive wings development since the moment I knew this fact when I read somewhere online. And also, after considering carefully about the future how things could turn out once my wings started having visible symptoms and no longer be hideable, I think maybe slowing down the progress could be a good choice. Because I realized that I need to have a financial condition for myself when I no longer going to have a job and have to work from home, and also for making my mom see that I'm an independent man, I can take care of myself without needing her.

And lastly but not least, as I said upon that I want to temporarily stop listening to wings growing subliminal and change to listen to the increasing height subliminals. To here, you may wonder how old I am that I decided to do it. I am currently in the age of 20s, which means I have passed puberty. And I can recognize that my body is slowly reaching the limit of height. So I want to use the best chance I have in order to make it before it is so late. Ah almost forget it. Actually, there is also another reason that I want to increase my height is that my mom has set a challenge, it is: If I reached 160cm tall, she would give me a prize or let me have top surgery. This is kind of making me mad, but I have no choice other than to do things to show her that I am serious about having top surgery.

In final words, I will let my body have the passive wings develop and focus on what I need to do first. I am not going to give up growing wings because having wings is the dream that I have had wished for entire my life. And I don't want to let myself regret not being able to be my true self. So I will never change my wish. As soon as I reach my desired height, I will restart my wings growth all over again though I know this could take me longer than I expected. Besides, I will keep writing this journal, as well as share with you the tips which I find out.

P/S: At the moment, I am listening to the height subliminal and of course, I am also visualizing my wings as well. So right now I kind of can feel slight pain and weird feeling on the shoulder blades where the wings should grow. Moreover, my phantom wings are still there, never go away since I stopped listening to the wings' subliminal.

Bye. Love you all.

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