Chapter179

Bothweremad,madallnight...Atdawn,I'mstillcaressingR'sbody.It'snotthathe'ssexyorsomething.Ican'twait.Butbecausethishellpillwillnevergoaway!

Sincelastnight,Irealisedthatsomethingseemedtobewrongwithmysymptoms,andwhileIwasreleased,Ishouldhavebeenrelieved,butnot.Iwasreleased,andIneededitmorethanever.Needalot,justlikeaglassofwaterisnotfull,swallowingRallnight,andbeforedawn,consciousnessbeginstoslipaway.

WhatshouldIsay,like...Ibegantodoanythingwithoutknowingit,anddespitehowmanytimesRhadsaidit,Ikeptbeggingandbeggingandthreateningtokill,butitdidn'tstopme.Iwasterrifiedthathewoulddieonmyhands,forhelookedsowearythathebegananewbeginning,andbeganmybondage,undermycarelesstouch,justafterIhadtouchedhim.GoandaskJuliannextdoorforhelp.Fortunately,whenherannakedtoJulian'sroom,alltheotherstudentswentout.SoonlyJuliansawhiscousin'sugliness.