Chapter196

ItoccurredtomethatmyfatherKwinhadtoldmebeforethathehadmovedtoFrancebecausehisreputationtherewassogreat.InowworkinthefrontandbackofficeofFrenchmovies.Butitdoesn'tmatter.WhatmattersisthatJuliansaidCecilandBlacklikedmesincetheywereyoung.

Ifyouhaveloveditsinceyouwereachild,whydoyoupretendtodie!

Iwasabouttoask,andJulianknewwhatIwasgoingtosay,sohecutin.

"YouhavetounderstandthatZenpeoplearenotasfierceastheyusedtobebecausetimeshavechanged,buttheystillhaveaninstinct.It'snotsurprisingthattheylikeyouandcan'texpressthemselves."

Ididn'tunderstandwhatJulianmeantuntilheexplained.

"Imean,CecilandBlakehavelikedyousincetheywerekids,buttheydidn'tshowwhattheyliked,sotheytooktheirplace."

ButI'mnothappy.

Iliketopretend?Althoughthisisthewaychildrenliketodoit,pretendingtoupsetme.Later,whenIfoundout,Iwasnothappy!