ItoccurredtomethatmyfatherKwinhadtoldmebeforethathehadmovedtoFrancebecausehisreputationtherewassogreat.InowworkinthefrontandbackofficeofFrenchmovies.Butitdoesn'tmatter.WhatmattersisthatJuliansaidCecilandBlacklikedmesincetheywereyoung.
Ifyouhaveloveditsinceyouwereachild,whydoyoupretendtodie!
Iwasabouttoask,andJulianknewwhatIwasgoingtosay,sohecutin.
"YouhavetounderstandthatZenpeoplearenotasfierceastheyusedtobebecausetimeshavechanged,buttheystillhaveaninstinct.It'snotsurprisingthattheylikeyouandcan'texpressthemselves."
Ididn'tunderstandwhatJulianmeantuntilheexplained.
"Imean,CecilandBlakehavelikedyousincetheywerekids,buttheydidn'tshowwhattheyliked,sotheytooktheirplace."
ButI'mnothappy.
Iliketopretend?Althoughthisisthewaychildrenliketodoit,pretendingtoupsetme.Later,whenIfoundout,Iwasnothappy!