Chapter 7/ Part Three

Lines of Love; Chapter 7/ Part 3

Cassie/

The picnic was only a few weeks ago but the conversation stayed with me. I even got time with Gina and Cait which helped open my eyes a little more. Being shy was the furthest thing from my mind that day so I asked questions I could never ask. Gina had told me that for her and Astra it wasn't about being perfect for each other in that sense. For them, it was always about honesty even in faults because they always wanted that security. Gina gave me a lot of advice on her own experience with relationships and how she tackled them. It honestly made me feel braver with Joy, we even discussed some wedding stuff recently too.

When I spoke with Cait she told me how painful it was to feel like she was losing Astra. The pain in her voice was enough to shatter my heart but it gave her the courage to leap. She was informative with experiences on Joy which made me jealous, unfortunately. Cait was quick to reassure me though and gave me advice on handling her which will help I'm sure. Joy and I started setting dates more often and hanging out with our circle of friends. Everything has been steadily soaring for us, even smiling has become easier. Today Joy had a surprise date she planned which made me so excited I was bouncing around impatiently. After she gathered everything we would need I found myself blindfolded in the passenger seat. Joy has no idea that I have my own surprise planned for tonight since she knows what blindfolds do to me.

When we arrived she took my hand guiding me by the hand and I couldn't resist giggling. My heartbeat was racing like it was on a track of its own, slowly she stripped me down. At first, I was panicking a little but I trusted her so I didn't resist as she redressed me in a clingy suit, it almost felt like a bikini or bathing suit. I couldn't help pestering and begging her to let me see but she just silenced me with " Patience". My feet touched cold tiles which caused me to shriek a little louder than planned but my excitement was only enhanced by it. When the blindfold came off I was standing in a large pool room with blankets laid out and music playing. This song she played for me every night I had a nightmare during my medical issues. It's a good memory but I also wanna forget it in some ways because it's painful. But the moment she says those words out in tune with the melody my heart is already hooked again.

I couldn't help smiling wide as I stare at her bikini, it was breathtaking in many ways. I couldn't resist going to her taking a hug and kiss from her, showering her with all my affection. This is amazing how romantic a pool could be and only Joy could be so creative that my heart leaps for her every time.

" I love everything, Joy... This is beautiful."

" I don't want you to forget that I'm trying, for you and us. I'm always trying to prevent future problems that don't exist but I don't wanna lose sight of my present. You are so beautiful Cassie, I do love you."

" How about we do the date, then get emotional. Because I can't handle much more sweet talk right now before I start crying."

After one more kiss, we took a few laps in the pool before we started to play around. I think this was one of our best dates where we can just be us and in love. The food she brought was just snacks apparently but she made plans to take me out for bar food after this. I can't help but feel like anyone else in my position would just walk away from her. I have seen the sides of her I love but if I had to think of the sides I don't love, well I haven't found them. Her downside is her attachment to a single person who came long before me but Joy has gone above and beyond for me. It's hard to hate her for that when she's the reason I'm here and know what being loved is like. I witnessed her jealous side and she has seen mine which only means we don't have anything to hide.

It took some time to clean up and get ready to leave. Just like the start of this date she prepared another set of clothes for me. The wedding talks come much more freely between us and it makes me feel unbelievably happy. Love is confusing and nothing is ever a straight line with it but it's mine and it's real. When we arrived she got us a table at the back while she ordered us some burgers and two beers. I'm not a good drinker I don't think but it's nice to relax like this. We spent so much time in our conversation we didn't notice the waiter, till she called her name.

" Omg Joy?... I wasn't expecting to see you ever again."

The way her eyes drifted to me I felt a venom filling my body up. Like at any moment I was gonna lash out, Is it the beers I had or my jealousy again.

" Still playing around I see-"

" Thanks for the food, waitress... But I don't appreciate your rudeness to my future wife. Excuse yourself while we enjoy our meal."

Joy was sober but the declaration was like a shock to my heart. I can't begin to explain these butterfly-like feelings but she was visibly angry. Joy doesn't get angry like this no matter how calm she sounds her words were sharp and her eyes are like razors. Who is she was my only thought as I slowly panicked.