MinAera

It had never crossed her mind, that Mandy Gilbert, would live in her imaginary life when the boy she had a crush on since primary school, Justin Bedington, chose her to be his wife. Mandy knew Justin for as long as she remembered. She was only able to look at him through an untouchable wall known as ‘reality’.
         Justin is crazy rich, the son of a CEO in a multi-billion company in the U.S. Being surrounded by countless pretty girls, selected as head of the Student Council, brilliant, a social butterfly, and a highly dedicated person he was, didn’t make Justin got easily overwhelmed by that. Though he lived in a world full of loving gaze in any where he went, he gave zero care in it—even when almost half of the girls on this planet were head over heels in him. But who knew, his final choice was Mandy.
          Since their dramatic and ridiculous meeting, Justin thought that girl is amusing, funny, and known as a trouble maker girl who often gets over-dramatic at school. Justin first encountered her at a party, and from then on, he knew that this girl is one of a kind, so he chose her to be his wife.
           But who thought Mandy would live her new life in peace? The Drama Queen faced countless dilemmas revolving around Justin; from his sexy assistant, a gorgeous widow next to their house, and also, an obsessed teenager. Mandy couldn’t stand all the girls’ hysteria every time they were around him. Adding to that, the trust that was given by Justin, made Mandy feel as if she was ignored and invisible.
            In Mandy’s little mind, marrying someone of her dream would lead her to a life full of happiness—as seen in fairy tales. However, marriage life wasn’t as good as she thought. Problems after problems appeared unexpectedly. Starting from Justin’s anger toward Mandy who ruined the most important event in his life, being shunned by her best friend due to misunderstanding, to the revenge carried out by her school friends that put Mandy in danger. Mandy only had her journal—the only thing she could write her feelings, lies, and all the secrets.
           So, how did the drama queen overcome the problems she faced and admitted all the biggest secrets that separated Mandy from her loved ones?

Confessions of a Drama Queen

            We no longer greet each other. In fact, I turn my face every time I meet Justin, pretending not to recognize him. Let him know what it's like to be ignored and considered non-existent! Wait, why would I do that? After all, he won't care about my existence.


            I walked quickly towards the school parking lot towards Candice who was waiting for me in her car. Inadvertently, I turned in a direction, right where Justin was standing with his friends and he was looking at me from where he was. I looked away, refusing to meet his gaze, then walked faster, as fast as I could out of the school grounds. The devil on my shoulder makes me sick of Justin, but the angel just told me to forgive him because I still have many hopes and feelings for him. Liking someone who calls you weird isn't easy. My heart hurts.


            The books in my arms fell, bringing me out of my thoughts. I picked up the scattered books below, gathered them together before I pulled them into my arms, and stood up. Before I could catch my breath, a scream rang out behind me, as someone pushed me away from the place, making me roll on the side of the road and get pain in parts of my body.


            "You stupid! Have a look while driving!"


            I looked up to see Justin standing cursing in one direction as a car sped out of the yard. That's Rebekah's car. Damn, this blonde chick is trying to kill me! I could have reported her to the police and arrested her, but the angel on my shoulder shook her head, telling me to forgive her.


            Forgive her? How can I forgive her when her behavior is so impudent and dangerous?!


            I clapped my dust-covered hands repeatedly, wincing in pain at the sight of my bruised wrist. Enduring the pain, I bit my lip, grimacing softly. Justin bowed in front of me without saying a word. He helped me collect my books again, handed them to me and I accepted roughly. If he feels guilty, he should apologize for insulting me!


            "I'm sorry about that time."


            Oh, he's sorry. So, what should I do now? The devil on my shoulder whispered so as not to melt in his hands so quickly. She said I shouldn't be too soft like most of his fangirls. He has insulted me, I will not easily forgive him. Even though his handsome face always teases my faith and tells me to forgive him. Damn it, why does he always do that to me? I couldn't bear to ignore it.


            "Hello, Mandy, he ignored you throughout your existence," the devil on my shoulder snorted softly, tapping her wand against my head.


            Right. He ignores my existence, why should I care about him? Let this be a lesson for him.


            "Oh," I finally retorted with one word. Oh. Only 'Oh' I gave him.


            "I know you're angry." Justin's frustrated sigh sounded so regretful. "I just… you know, I'm one of the top students here, and they're gossiping me because I asked you to go…"


            "Then next time don't ever ask me out, talk to me, even know me," I panted sarcastically, then immediately got up and patted my jeans. There was a tear in my jeans, revealing the skin on my knee which luckily wasn't injured.


            I walked away leaving Justin frozen in place. Why would he ask me out if he's embarrassed? I'd rather never show the bridge of my nose in front of him, let him know me, and end up like this. Admiring him from a distance even though he doesn't know my existence is much more pleasant than him knowing my existence but it hurts my feelings. This is what I fear. And my fear finally came true.


He's Sorry