Death is the way out of this

Lowell 

You should have killed her. 

My wolf scolds me. 

I couldn't. 

I loved her--I still love her. 

She betrayed you. 

She is my sister. 

Ashina. 

"I don't want anything. I just want this to all end." I answer the man even though I am shell-shocked right now. Ashine hides from my view but she already knows that I saw her. 

"This will all end when you die.'' 

"You know why I can't die?"