Don't You Dare Touch Me

"I love you, I love you Carl James Mason" I declared shamelessly

"You don't love me Melanie, believe me you don't, so stop saying rubbish"

"I know when I'm in love, and I love you Carl, can't you see it? Can't you?"

"Melanie I don't do love, I am not capable of loving anyone, I can't love you back, so stop loving me, stop please"

"I can't stop, I have no control of how I feel towards you, I have no control, if I do I would have stopped loving you a long time ago, I would have stopped loving you when I was on my internship.

I would have stopped loving you when I saw you making out with Amy, I wouldn't have loved you again when I crashed into your car, but I can't, I can't stop loving you Carl, I just can't"

"What internship? Who is Amy? What are you talking about Melanie?"

"You don't remember?" I asked amused

"Remember what?"

"Don't you remember when we met?"

"I do, you were running after the man who snatched your bag, my driver almost knocked you down as you were crossing the road without looking at the road for upcoming vehicles, you diverted, crashed the side mirror, I gave you my card, you came in the next day for a job interview, that's how we met."

"You do have a short memory Carl" I said shaking my head

"I came into Mason Realty that Monday morning about six years ago, I came for internship but I didn't know which office to go into, there was no one at the reception that morning, then you came in smiling, I don't know why you don't smile any longer, you were nice to me, you welcomed me and showed me to the office I was assigned to.

I didn't know you were the CEO then, I later found out, you didn't seem to pay so much attention to me after that day, but we met sometimes when I was going or returning from my lunch break.

I didn't get to see you after my internship, but one day my friend and I went to an event, you were there, I told her about you, she said she was going to help me get your contact and even get me to talk to you that evening,

On my way to the ladies, I found you and her making out. I left the event and never saw you again until the day of the car incident.

But I was always following you on social media, you aren't much of social media person was I was always checking you out on real estates communities online

I applied to be your secretary on purpose, I allowed you kiss me that day and even allowed you make love to me because I loved you and I was willing to give you my body.

I didn't care if you saw me as a slut that first night we were together, I was sure you were going to come to realize that I loved you, I still do love you, I've loved you every day for over six years"

"I remember now, I wasn't making out with that girl, I didn't even know her name, that day I discovered that my girlfriend was sleeping with one of my clients, I was furious and I got drunk, I was on my way to the rest room when that girl pulled me and started kissing me, I never had anything to do with her, I pushed her away and left the event,

And I've also been trying to figure out where I met you from, you were so familiar when I saw you that day at the car

I'm sorry you saw me making out with your friend"

"That's not important now, I have you now and I don't want to lose you again, I don't want you to get married to Floral. Please Carl don't marry her"

"I'm sorry Melanie, but this is more complicated than you can imagine, I can't cancel that wedding"

"But you don't love her" I argued

"I don't love you either."

It broke my heart as he said this

"Then why did you come here? Why are you in San Antonio in my bed when you should be with your lovely wife-to-be planning your grand wedding? "

Now I was hurt and angry.

"You want the truth?"

"Yes tell me the truth, I need to know"

"I'm addicted to you, I want your body every time I look at you or hear your voice, I want to make love to you over and over again non stop, so I came down here because I missed your body, and because I wanted this to be a good bye of whatever pleasure we both share, I don't think forgetting about your body against mine is possible, but that does not mean I love you"

"Carl, you know you love me, I'm sure you've never felt this way for another person before, I feel this way too, stop trying to deny how you feel."

"Melanie, because I've done stupid things to have you to myself doesn't mean I love you, you need to get that.

I don't know why I kept on misleading you that you broke the car mirror so I could keep you, I don't know why after having a background check on you I found out that you owed rent for your place and asked that your things be taken out so I could take you to my bed, I know those were stupid and desperate moves which I would never have considered with anyone, but that does not mean I love you"

I sank into the bed.

"Wait you did what? You had me thrown out of my apartment?"

"You were not supposed to find out, I had you thrown out because I couldn't think of any other means to get you to go home with me, so when I looked up your address on your application, and discovered I knew who owned the property, he owed me a favor, so I asked him to have your things taken out, he didn't want to do it, but I assured him I was going to take care of you."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

Carl caused me pain because he wanted me in his bed, he threw my things out, kept me in the rain because he wanted to get in my panty,

I was hurt, too broken to speak, I sat on the bed thinking of what to do, this man doesn't deserve me, why was I begging him to not get married?

He deserved to be in hell, he was ruthless.

"I'm sorry Melanie, you see why I'm unlovable" he was saying and was trying to wrap his arm around me.

"Don't you dare touch me! I need air, and by the time I get back, I don't want to see you in this room"

I got up, picked my purse, and left the room.

It was already getting dark when I stepped out.

I didn't want to walk on an unknown street at this time of the night, but I need to give Carl space to get himself and his things out of the room before I get back.

I walked down the street, away from the hotel, after walking for a while, I felt the need to get something to eat, I walked around looking for an eatery I could walk into and grab a bite.

I found one by the corner and walked in, I was about to sit when I saw Andrew waving at me, he was alone at his table. I went to join him taking the indication that he wanted me to join him.

"Hey Andrew, is your hotel around here?" I asked as I sat

"Yes, just by the corner. What are you doing here, far from your hotel?"

"It's not really far, I needed air, so I walked a little"

I ordered my own meal, and waited for it to arrive

"Spoke to my fiancée shortly after you left, she called me"

"Oh, how is she?" I said wondering why he was telling me this

"She lost the baby"

I could see an hint of pain in his eyes.

"I'm so sorry Andrew, is she fine?"

"She is, she had a miscarriage, she said she slipped in the bathroom and fell on her stomach, it's a miracle she is alive"

"I'm glad she is fine"

"We have agreed to talk about our relationship when I get back, it's obvious she is still feeling guilty about cheating on me, she said it was once, and she was drunk, I told her I have forgiven her, and I'm ready to take her back. I love her Melanie and I'm so sad she is going through so much, I wish I can take the pain from her"

Before me was a man who loved a woman and he was not ashamed to say it, he was willing to take her back despite her mistake. But me, I'm in love with a man who is scared and ashamed to say it, a man that causes me pain, treats me like trash, despite the fact that I love him so much.

Good thing I have realized that he is not worth crying over, I'm well over him, and he is not going to have control over me or my body any longer.

And when I'm done here at San Antonio, I will take the next flight and attend that wedding, lift my head high and wish him congratulations so he will get it clearly into his skull that:

I am over him.