How Difficult it is to say goodbye

"Here's your food." Jap keeps the food on the table. " It's not as warm as you love your food, hope you'll. manage it?"

"It's alright." I smile at him. Right now I have something else in my mind to be stuck thinking of how semi cold the meal he brought is.

A semi cold meal is far more better than the goodbye am going to say very soon. It's something I need to fully prepare myself for. I just can't say those words just like that, it's something that should be thought of Before speaking.

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"I once mentioned something about a friend I grew up at the orphanage with, right?" I turn to Jap who's busy writting an assignment like the good student he is.

"Yeah. You did something of that sort." He nods before continuing on with his assignment, probably not thinking much on the words I spoke.

"He's back. He was the one who helped me."

"That's good." Jap nods. "I guess you both had a good reunion?" He asks without looking up. His entire focus being on the assignment his writting.

He might be serious writting on his book, but it won't be for long.

"He asked me to pack in with him." I say at last. After all the long beating about an overgrown bush, I finally said those words.

"What?" Finally, he forgets all about his assignment, and faced me. His expression one of real confusion. "Why will he ask you to pack in with him? Is it because you pay half the food bills? Don't go anywhere, you can forget all about your share of contribution, I'll do it all.

Just don't leave." He says in a pleasing voice. His eyes showing the fears in them.

Had it not being for the fact the person Happens to be mate, I wouldn't have left. Not after seeing the expression in his face.

"That's not the reason why I said am leaving. Like I said, a childhood Best friend whom I thought dead have returned to fulfil his promises to me."

"You're already living with me, why will you need to leave? Is it about the house? You don't like the building? I'll change our home if that's what you want, just don't go with him.

Am quite capable of taking care of you. "

" I wish it's like that. I wish it's just simple. " That way, I won't get to see the expression on his face." Mate won't allow allow me stay here for a day more. Returning here took me long to convince him. He wouldn't have allowed me return. He's really stubborn when you come to most aspects. "'

Should I not do as he requested, Mate might burn this. house down if it means getting to me.

"But he don't have the right to do that. How can he ask you to Leave, and you do so? Is he trying to say insinuate you don't have a life? Is that what you're trying to tell me?" Jap angrily stands from the floor.

" That's not true. He's just trying to fulfil the promise he made to me three year ago. He promised to be back for me, and he is. "

Seriously, I never did expect to see my mate at all. I thought I'll never see him in this world.

" A promise? " Jap scoffs. " You're willing to follow a complete stranger all because of a promise? What if he's not the same as the one you grew up with?"

"Mate isn't a stranger. He won't hurt me, am really confident about that.

The Mate I once knew is the one that returned. "

He might be acting a bit cold, by he's still my mate nonetheless. There's nothing to be argued with when it comes to that aspect.

"You're really confident about him." Jap turns towards the window. His jaws ticking in anger.

"Mate have always being my saviour. He've saved me from countless of bullies, and he did so today. Mate will never hurt me." At least not physically.

" What of me then? You're willing to forget the Almost two years we both spent? Is that what you're telling me?" Jap angrily asks. His hand tugging his hair in anger.

" Am not going to forget anything Jap. You don't have to worry about that. I'll forever remember you. I'll visit whenever you're around, you don't have to worry about that.

I can never bite the hands that fed me. I'll never forget you."

Jap is one of the people in this entire world whom I'll be willing to die for.

Without him, I really don't know where I would have being. Who knows, I would have probably died.

"That's it, you're willing to leave me? You're not even considering staying here with me? You've totally made up your mind to do so right?"

" Am sorry Jap."

" Had you not met him, would you have one day left?" He asks in a small voice. A tone I'll never associate with him. It's just so unlike the Jap I know.

" I don't know about the future, but I won't leave you. I've never even planned that." I've being so comfortable with Jap, I never for once thought of my future. My entire focus have being on working and helping Jap out with house provision.

"I see. He's the reason why you're leaving me. Tell me," Jap turns to me, " was he your boyfriend when you two were still living in the orphanage?"

His words make my heart skip beats. My eyes widening a bit..

" No. We were best of friends." I answer with an indifferent tone compared to how am feeling.

"Not even a spark?"

"Nothing.... Nothing of that sort." I say as fast as I can.

"I see." He nods.

"Jap..."

"It's okay. You can retire to your room. I need to be alone." He turn towards the window.

" Jap..."

"Are you unwilling to fulfil my wishes?" He says in an angry tone.

" Sorry." I sigh. " Good night."