Chapter 38

Things are starting to change.

Emotions,

People.

I guess nothing is really permanent in this world,

regardless of familiarity.

Recently, I felt like my feelings fluctuate, like I became more sensitive, and that my mentality wavers. And now, I am looking for comfort from someone,

Anyone.

"Hello Lil sis, Is something bothering you?" Dylan asked upon answering my call.

"Oppa (it's how you address an older brother if you're a girl), are you busy? Sorry, I forgot to message you first to ask if you actually have time to talk" I answered as I acted on impulse this time.

"Oh it's okay, We're currently resting here in the training room"

"Training room? You mean you're currently with Pri5m members right now?" I quietly asked. Though I and Dylan have already patched things up, I haven't explained it to the other members yet, or no one has told them anything yet and I felt awkward knowing they might hear our conversation. Maybe in their eyes, I'm still the sister of the person who betrayed them. I'm not as close to them as I am with Dylan but I did spend some memories with them as well. "Yup. Wanna hear them?" he asked and I stuttered in my response.

"Oh no no no, please, I still don't know what to say to them okay." I hurriedly said.

"You know what, it's fine. They never hated you. If I know, they actually miss you as well. You are aware that most of us are either only child or only have a brother right? You are the only little sister we had so there is somewhat attachment to you. I know they felt comfortable around you as well and treat you as their own sibling"

"says someone who cut me off" I teasingly shot back.

"Oh come on, don't bring that up Addie, aren't we clear already?" he said defeated and I laughed at him.

There is some noise I can hear on his side, the other members are currently asking whom Dylan was talking to. It was, quite loud so I can slightly hear them say 'wait that's Addie? You're talking to her, you selfish man! Give us the phone too'

I unknowingly smiled upon hearing them, I was too afraid and shy to approach them but it turns out they never hated me.

"You hear that?" Dylan asked while smiling. "By the way, why did you call? Is it about..?" He started and I cut him off immediately.

"Ah I, shouldn't have called you. I'll just wait for Aiden to arrive there so I can call him instead," I said when I sensed that he'll start teasing me now about his friend again.

"Okay okay fine, I'll stop teasing you. Wait, I'll just go somewhere else so we can talk freely, these guys are too noisy and are bugging me nonstop. You better meet them soon or else I can't find peace." he answered.

I laughed, vividly imagining what they look like right now, and I silently agreed, not knowing when will I be able to travel there, or if I would be given a chance to. Maybe in a few years after I have stabilized my position at the company.

It was silent for a few seconds and I can only hear the faint sound of footsteps and then after a while, I can hear him talking again "So, what is it about?"

"Well, I feel drained right now and wanted someone to talk to. And seems like you're the only one available" I honestly said and realized afterward that it actually sounded a bit offensive on his part.

"You!" he said angrily and I laughed at him. "It's true though haha It's my first day at work and I'm already exhausted" I ranted at him like a little kid.

"Don't stress yourself, Addie. It's not like you have to finish everything on your first day. Well, to be honest, I don't know anything about your work but knowing you, I can say that you are already doing a good job." he comforted.

"I know but,

If I don't prove myself as early as now, I don't think the employees will even trust me. So how can I run this company in the future if the people working for me won't have faith in me? I feel rushed." I answered sadly. Some people don't really care about the process, and all they wanted to see are the results, which I need to show them as soon as possible, or else it would be hard for me to work here.

"Don't rush it. Not everything can be done in an instant okay? So what if they don't trust you now? That's normal for someone new. They would eventually see how capable and amazing you are as time passes."

I stayed quiet. I got no words to say now cause what he said does make sense. Why am I rushing? It's not like the race will end tomorrow. There's still a long way to go, and by that time, I should be able to achieve it. I was too focused on finishing things fast here so I can soon stand on my own, but I realized that what I need right now is more patience. There is time for everything.

Maybe this is why you need someone to point out the obvious. Sometimes, you lose focus and rationality so others will be there to help you wake up and keep you on track.

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"So how about we talk about other things as well? Is there anything else that's bothering you?" he teasingly asked again, trying to redirect the topic to something that is more fun for him. I know he's trying to get me to talk about his friend but I don't really want to talk about him. I don't know what to say anyway. I am still quite unsure about my feelings and I do not want to act impulsively again. I need to rationalize it more so I won't regret it after.

"Stop right there okay" I angrily answered.

"Okay okay, I won't push it. But Addie,

I know him best, so if you need someone to evaluate him for you, I'll be willing to. You are my dear sister after all.

I know you are currently confused, but I think he might be serious about you.

Look, I'm not telling you this because he's my friend. Promise, you're more important to me than him" We both laughed at his remark then he continued, "It's just that I haven't seen him act like that towards other girls besides you. I can't even remember him talking to any girl, I think...

.

Have you talked to him already?"

"Dylan you're such a gossip" I sulkily replied. "We did talk last night okay and...."

"And?"

"I don't know" I answered, and I heard him sigh on the other side.

"Then take your time, if he does something awful just tell me. I'll take revenge for you." he lightheartedly says and I appreciate it.

I am glad I called him, even happier that I can freely interact with him again and consult him with anything like we used to.