The Beginning of the End

When my "dad" was in the hospital the Dr. said he wasnt suppose to make it. They removed half of his brain and said they were unsure that he'd wake up. I remember going to the gift shop and picking out this bear that dad a bunny head band and bunny slippers, I often wonder if he still has it after all these years, I remember his face when he took it out of my hands.

I was a long time before my "dad" came home from the hospital. I don't remember anything during the type he wasn't home. I remember the day he came home. The air felt suffocating. Everyone walked on egg shells. They were afraid that any stress could cause more issues. The toughest part for me was not being able to jump on my "dad" and hug him like i use to when he'd get out of work.

We ended up moving not too long after he came home. It was a bigger home with a big backyard. My "mom" was the leader of my Girls Scout troop. We did a lot of "mother" and daughter activites back then. My "parents" we my best friends when i was little. I wasn't prepared for what was coming next.

After my fifth birthday my "parents" started arguing a lot more. They use to argue in the old house but it was always behind closed doors. This time it was on top of the stairs. My "dad" yelling and my "mom" saying she just wanted to leave. My sister and I were at the bottom of the stairs listening, like we usually did when they'd fight. This was the first time our "mom" threatened to leave.

I ran up the stairs tears in my eyes begging her not to go. I ran to my "dads" arms begging him to tell her not to leave. She said she needed to get some air. My "dad" sat on his chair with his Koosh ball, tears falling from his eyes he told us he was sorry. I didn't know what that meant. She said she was coming back so why was he still crying? (Five-year-olds are niave and believe everything that comes out of an adults mouth. Let that be a lesson to you readers)

When she finally came home she handed me two plastic boats and told me to play in the pool. It was raining. I didn't want to play in the pool I wanted my "mom". She said she was going to be here when i come back in. She promised. After I heard those words I did as she asked. So many promises were broken that day.