First Heart Break

As I played in the cold pool with the two plastic boats I could hear the thunder in the distance. I was crying but you couldn't tell due to the pouring rain. It felt like I had been in that pool for hours. I didn't understand why I was so upset. Maybe because i was forced to stay in a pool in the pouring rain or it might have been because deep in my heart I knew my "mom" was leaving.

Finally, after what felt like hours, my "dad" cam running out of the house with a towel. It was soaked by the time he got to me, it"s the thought that counts right? He scooped me up with his one good arm and he whispered "I'm so sorry". I didn't know why he was sorry. Until we got inside and I ran to her office. It was empty. That's when I knew she lied.

I ran all over the house screaming for my "mom" all that I had heard in return was silence and the occasional sounds of my sister and my "dads" words "She's not here". I couldn't believe them. She PROMISED she wasnt going to leave. She had to come back. She was my "mom", right? She couldn't just leave for good. She had me and my sister she couldn't just leave us behind. I didn't understand what was happening. She left me. She left us. I didn't know it then but that would be the last time I would ever see her.

Due to my "dads" brain anerysm he couldnt work. He took all the money out of our piggy banks and what he had in his account but came up short on the house payment. I don't remember how we came to the next move or how he found this woman. All I knew is that she was NOT my "mom" and I didn't like her.

She had blonde shoulder length hair and blue eyes. She looked like she could've been my mother, but Sadie was the only mom I knew and wanted. This woman was the devil and her children were the spawns of Satan. The home spelled like piss and stale Camels. She spoke to me in a high pitch voice like I was a fucking baby. Pissed me off. I knew she was as fake as her hair but I had to go with the flow because I wanted my "dad" to be happy.

Inside I was miserable. On the inside I was screaming for Sadie to come save me. On the inside I was alone. I just wanted my "mom".