John Anderson

Catie lied to us that the dead body there wasn't father even though we could clearly see that it was him. Maybe she did that lie for Fred who was confused and crying because he was supposed to be sleeping. I was 11years at that time, but I knew it was my father. I didn't know if I was supposed to cry or we were playing dead like father usuallyplayed a lot with us.

When I barely learnt to walk, I was always about being with my father. I wanted to hold his hand, sit on his leg, and sit on his stomach. Mother used totell me when I grew older that I behaved just like my father. She would smile at me rubbing my hair backwards.

"Why?" I would ask playing with the hem of her dress, when I grew older I wanted to be with my mother. I wanted to hold her and play with her, because she was warm and beautiful. Or maybe I felt this way because father was not here anymore.

"You still imitate him even if he is not here. I guess you don't remember that."