Chapter 2

Frustration

"Ma!" I called at my mom. I was shocked to see them fighting. Bakit sila nag-aaway? Ano ba talaga ang nakaraan nila? "Hey mom, uncle! What's going on? Why you're fighting?" I asked confused.

"I'm sorry hija. We just have something-" Sir Isaac didn't finish what he was going to say when Mama suddenly grabbed the chair. Mahigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa upuan sa dibdib niya... Hinihingal din siya. I immediately took water and medicine for her and quickly approached her and give the medicine.

"Mom" Nag-aalalang tawag ko sa kaniya ng matapos niyang uminom ng gamot. She deeply close her eyes. She's in pain now. Physically and emotionally, I know it. I know her heart is aching again. And Sir Isaac triggered something to her. Maybe her memories?

"Bellatrix ..." Sir Isaac called worriedly. Mama looked up and pointed at Sir Isaac. "Don't come near me!" Mama shouted.

"Get out of here and go back to your family! Go back to hell! Aren't you still happy with what you see? I'm already struggling, got what you want first. Aren't you satisfied yet? Or do you want me to die and completely gone?"

"Bella, please listen to me. I didn't like what happened to us before. I was hurt but I didn't want your life to be like this. I tried to find you but it's hard for you to find. I'll almost search your whole mansion but you are not there. "Sir Isaac explained in a low tone of voice. He is calm not unlike my Mama. I frowned at them. What mansion? What the hell is really happening?

I looked at them confused. I looked around at the two of them.

"Yes, I planned to take revenge for my sister's death but hell-" mom shouted at him.

"Liar! You planned this well and pleased in what you see now. You must be satisfied now Isagani. Go away Isagani, you have no child with me because he is already dead. You killed your own son. Remember? You killed your own son because of your monster inside your fucking ass!"

Yes, I have a brother. That's what Mom told me. Yun lang ang alam ko. But I did not know that my brother's father was Sir Isaac. So, he is my step father then. I did not feel angry to Sir Isaac. Maybe they had a misunderstanding that time so those things happened then.

I'm open minded and I don't immediately judge the person in a situation until I don't have enough background knowledge or history.

I sighed and tried to calm Mama down. If she can't calm her self, I'm afraid that her pain might get worse.

"Mom, calm down first please. Please ma, kumalma ka. Mag-usap po kayo ng maayos ni Tito. You know you can be with-" I couldn't continue as Mama shouted.

"Isabella, kinakampihan mo pa ang animal na yan! Hindi mo alam at hindi mo siya kilala anak. That demon took me to hell and my death will be earlier if he hasn't left here, " Mama said firmly. I could see the anger in her eyes. Sir Isaac, on the other hand, mixed the emotion I could see in his eyes. He is apology for what happened. I can see that.

"Bella, please. Listen to me first. It's up to you if you still think badly of me the important thing is that you are clear on what happened. I'm not the villain here. I'm once being a villain before but not in your life. Ginawa ko ang lahat para iligtas ka noon. Kahit kapalit pa ay buhay ko. "Sir Isaac calmly said to her. Umiling lang si mama.

Napabuntong hininga si tito Isaac. Kinuha niya na ang maliit na bag nito. Bumaling siya sa qin.

"Ahm hija. I'm sorry for what happened today. I just didn't expect that we would meet again here" he told me.

"It's okay Tito. The thing is you can't talk to her right now, Mama's situation is very dangerous." I said.

"Oo na aalis na. Para ka pa ding nirereglang dalaga Bella, "nakuha pang asarin ni tito si mama. Pero sa loob-loob nito ay nasasaktan siya sa sagutan nila lalo na't ngayon lang sila muling nagkita.

"Please Isabella. Get that bastard out of my house!" Mama said angrily. I did nothing but obey. Sir Isaac just smiled, bitterly.

"Back off Isagani. Whatever you do, I'll never forgive and forget what you've done to me! "mom shouted at him.

I'm about to talk about when Mama's heart attack. I panicked at what happened.

"Ma!" I screamed.

"I-isabella" Utal na tawag njya sa akin bago siya nawalan ng malay.

Kaagad naman siyang dinaluhan ni Sir. Isaac. He quickly picked up Mama and took her to his car. I took Mama's important papers and followed them. Kahit wala kaming pera wala akong magagawa ngayon kundi dalhin siya sa hospital.

He put Mama in back sit of his car and I entered the back sit so I can handle and assist Mama. He immediately starts the engine of his car and drives away. He was running fast but it was just that we couldn't collide. In just a few minutes, we reached the hospital owned by the Governor of Surigao Del Sur.

Astaire Memorial Hospital.

We rushed him to Astaire Hospital immediately. When we arrived at the hospital, Mama was immediately taken care of and taken to the emergency room. Sir Isaac frowned as he watched the nurses enter the emergency room. When he looked at me, his mouth opened wide as if he wanted to say something to me.

"It's okay Tito, hindi po ako galit sa iyo o sa nangyari. Mama is not just in a good mood and arguing with someone and seeing someone will trigger her po. Huwag po kayong mag-alala matapang si mama. Kaya pa niya kayong batuhin ng upuan pag-gising niya. " I told her and sat down on the bench. Pilit ko ding pinapagaan ang usapan.

"Ikaw talaga hija, "mahinang tawa niya. "Mabuti na lanh hindi mo namana ang malatigre niyang ugali. "

"But I'm really really sorry hija. I didn't mean to stress her. I just want to talk to her and apologize. That's all I have, but it looks like her wound is deep and she can't forgive anymore "he said me.

I nodded and sighed.

"Whatever you had before. I know Mama can forgive you. Mapapatawad ka po niya. Mabuting tao si mama marahin nasaktan lang siya noon kaya ganiyan po. I know Mama, maybe she's just protecting herself from being hurt again so that's how she acted" I explained. He sat down next to me.

I could see the frustration on his face. He wiped his face. "If only I could fight for her then... I hope we don't get to this point" there was reproach in his words.

I haven't spoken yet. I silently waited for the doctor to come out. I'm so worried to my mama. I can't bear to see her struggling.

Now, I have decided on what course to take in college. It doesn't matter if I can't get the dream to be a good architect, the important thing is Mama's health. For Mom, I will be a doctor. By the time I become a full -fledged doctor I will never have to worry about Mama's health anymore.

I closed my eyes and I silently prayed. God, please. Take it all the things from me, not just Mama. She is the only one left for me.

We waited a few more minutes. I turned to him. "Hija, you haven't eaten dinner yet. Bumili ka muna ng makakain mo at ng kumain ka na, " He said and take some money from his wallet. Umiling ako. Nakita kong nag-aalala siya pero nakakahiya naman na galing pa sa ibang tao ang kakainin ko.

"It's okay, I'll eat when the doctor comes out and know Mama's situation " I told her.

"Gusto ko po muna ng kapanatagan ng loob bago kumain, "

It shook vigorously. "Don't be stubborn. All right, go to the cafeteria first and buy something to eat. I'll take care of your Mama" he said and handed over the money.

"B-but Tito. Nakakahiya naman po kasi e" I told him.

"Huwag ka ng mahiya, para na kitang anak. "

"Ah I'll just buy you what to eat. Hindi ka pwedeng tumangi, kailangan mong kumain. " he said and stood up.

"Don't worry, everything will be fine" he added bago siya umalis. Ilang sandali ay nakaramdam ako ng may kung sinong nagmamasid sa akin. Nagpalinga-linga ako pero wala naman akong nakita.

Ganiyan din ang naramdaman ko kanina sa school pero isinambahala ko na lang.

I put my feet on the chair and bent down. I soon looked up. I stood up and walked around the front door of the Emergency Room. Eventually the doctor came out. Palakad-lakad ako hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto.

The doctor came out with the three nurses. "Doc, kumusta po si Mama? Is she okay? W-what happened?" I asked the doctor one after another.

He sighed and adjusted his mirror before speaking. "For the mean time, Mrs. Ast- I mean Mrs. Lumia's condition is fine. Avoid making her a mistress and get tired because her heart can't handle it anymore. Your mother's heart is already fragile and weak so it's double let's be careful. "he said. I couldn't help but tremble and shiver with terror.

"You know her condition right?"

I nodded and silently and earnestly waited for what he would say.

"I don't want to lose your hope hija but I insisted to tell the truth, sad to say actually it's just twice as bad as the usual disease she has. This disease is called Cardiac Sarcoma. Where in nag It starts in the veins and blood vessels of her heart that have spread to her whole heart. Her cardiac sarcoma is a primary tumor that starts from the heart. She is in stage 3 heart cancer. And we need to be alert before it gets worse . "

I was engulfed in excitement. "In that case doc, how will Mama recover? Even if it's just to reduce her pain. Is there still a way?" I asked. He nodded.

"We can still give Mrs Lumia chemotherapy for about 3-5 sessions until she recovers. But if it doesn't take long, I'm just telling you to get ready and find a heart donor."

"Please, do everything for Mama. I'm ready to pay even more. Gagawin ko po lahat, pagtatrabahuhan ko ang pambayad basta po iligtas niyo po siya. " I begged. Even though I knew I didn't have the money needed to treat Mama.

"You can hope hija. Don't worry, we will do everything to heal your mama" he said, I bowed my head as a sign of respect and thanksgiving.

"Osige, mauna na ako. Just call me if you need anything. Later the nurse will come to prescribe the medicines that Mrs Lumia deserves" he said. Karamihan sa ibang medic ay hindi masyadong pinapansin ang mga dukha pero sa sitwasyon namin kanina ay weird dahil aligaga sila ng makitang si mama ang nasa emergency. Maybe their duty, I guess.

"Okay doc, thank you very much." I promised. When he left, I was about to enter the public room when Sir Isaac arrived with a bag of food.

"How's your mom? Did the doctors say anything?" He asked and handed the food to me. Tinanggap ko naman iyon.

I nodded and smiled bitterly. "Thank you very much for this uncle, utang na loob ko po sa iyo ito at ang pagtulong sa amin. " I said

"Mama is fine. Don't worry. She just needs to take the medicine prescribed for her and get chemo," I replied to her. Para naman siyang nabunutan ng tinik sa sinabi ko. Nawala ang pag-alala niya.

He nooded. "I see" was his only says.

"Oh, I'm leaving. I'm not going in baka mas lalong maistress ang mommy mo sa akin. Baka hindi lang upuan ang ibato niya" he said sadly. I chuckled.

"Have faith tito, mapapatawad ka din po niya. Ako na pong bahala kay mama. "

"All right. Goodbye, be careful on the trip. And thank you very much po for your help" I said. he hugged me.

"Thank you very much hija. I had time to be with you. Isa itong swerte" he said and said goodbye to me. I stared at Sir Isaac's receding bulk. He is sad and at the same is worried about Mama.

I wanted to let him inside to E. R. first but he was right, his presence would be bad for Mama's health.

Bukas na bukas aasikasuhin ko na ang pagluwas ko.