White And Black: Chapter 6

My heart has ached a thousand times whereas my mind creates the dreams which will come never come true for her smile is engraved to my core, why the world seemed to have been painted by gray, white and black colour in my eyes? My world was incomplete without the colours of love that gives happiness and content to the world, riches that never steal my glance not even the most beautiful women compares to her even if there was someone beautiful than her she would still own my grieving heart to her lifeless corpse when she died on my arms, money or even anything could not save her pitiful life from the hands of death.

Being alone in this garden where the flowers of many kind blooms, their fragrance, their beauty I can't even appreciate them unlike before when the time she still did not enter my life, her weaving the story with me ended to the time when her last breath has been made, my heart can't take it anymore. I know it may be silly to the eyes of others but that's how I feel about her, can you take the blow of suffering when loved one dies? Can you endure a repeating pain needles being struck to your small heart? So delicate, so weak, so emotional and only thing that controls the heart is the mind.

The light from the glass that covers this garden were not pale but to me they were it was as if my brightness slowly fades to the shadows that follows the light. Then my heart revived suddenly the light that was darker to my eyes get brighter is it my imagination? Or am I hallucinating? A hand of a woman slowly touches my face, it was a mother's touch but it wasn't my mother, a woman in dark veil with her beautiful dress and dark jewels of ornaments were stunning. Although my fear seems to be against the beauty of this woman , she's dangerous but a feeling of comfort was in my heart.

"Do not be afraid"

"Who are you?" I asked in wonder, curiosity and the feeling comfort it's like I want to be in her arms.

The veil was darker around her nose to her eyes, so I couldn't picture the image of her face quite well, although her lips turned into a grin, sweat seems to run down my chin, my body unable to move, I could not muster to move nor even utter a word.

"I am but a stray spirit who hears the heart of a man, the wind carries the sound unto me for thy homosexuality is at an awakened state"

Huh? W-wait homosexuality?! I was flabbergasted to her words even my fear of her vanished in an instant it's not like I'm gay or anything but I do respect those people who has a quite unique orientation. I mean where's the harm? Unless…

"You seem surprised?"

"O- of course I am…plus why is a spirit like you appearing in front of me anyways?"

Her grin showed up again, was it entertaining for her? I don't know her point or objective by appearing out of nowhere so I'll be cautious…

"Well how about a good night dream? Sounds fun right?"

"Huh?"

She sang a lullaby, her song was beautiful, my eyes was getting dizzy and dizzier by the moment until I close my eyes till my body was feeling the depths of water to my body till a smoke of pink enveloped me and transferred me to elsewhere. The breeze of the fresh wind, the fragrance white lilies that flung to the wind. Until the world I was in shatters in pieces and woke up being in the garden.

I recalled what happened before I was at the garden, it was a black smoke that appeared I don't know what and what is happening now, even the woman earlier, this is all confusing me hard. Cluelessness struck at me, there was something odd about that black smoke at the bathroom that I was in before in this garden and her presence, it was ancient like and supreme. Then this grieving heart also stopped, the pain was gone in an instant. I felt relieved but also sad that no one will mourn for her, but her memories are still there. A blur appeared in my mind, again it was a boy I don't know who it was but it was definitely a boy.

"What just happened? Why is he in my mind? Is my heart no longer contains that of love for the woman I…"

Again that blur image of his face appeared I mind, Is something stopping me?

My body became hotter by the second, I couldn't take it I walked out the garden going inside the mansion towards to my room, I locked the door as I let myself fall on the bed, I stared at the ceiling seeing this blur image of a boy. He appeared near to the side of my bed his face was hidden from a dark veil, he slowly came to me and sat on my crotch who seems to be having trouble, it hurts down there actually, his delicate hands touched my face as I continuously watched him of his movements. Fuck this I'm in trouble my middle isn't going to take it lightly. My body was excited for some reason yet still it was lump so I can't move but tis middle of mine isn't as lump as my entire my body except it was an overjoyed kiddo.

This boy who wears nothing bare naked turned me on, he legs slowly widens, my eyes laid on his petite body, his skin was smooth and white, a porcelain colour, I looked down and boy my kiddo was more than excited at the sight it was a fellow kiddo although it was cute and tinier than mine but I just have this feeling of dominance for it. Then at his nipples it was peach, I wonder can I bite it? Ah that colour and it looks appetizing. I want to say he was ravaging to my sight, a god of feminine wiles.

"Let go of your past, I am your present and your future you are bound to me and only I will put your heart at ease fear not for I will make your heart mine, do not waver for the spirits are your guide, I am your forever bride of fate"

My hands moved and reached out to him, I hugged him gently in my hands, it warm like before, I can't let go at all, my heart was fluttering, I don't know what to think anymore.

"Do not think of her, think of me, I am not a replacement for mending this heart of thee because you are my groom for it is the seal of the goddess" He hugged me too and I was happy than I ever could be, the past of me and Elen was pushed away for this moment, again I don't know what to answer it was the will of my heart.

"Promise me that you'll never leave me. promise me that when our journey begins you'll never leave me Kail" And then he vanished in thin air, that touch was gone from my hands but I will never forget what he said. It's like he's saying to search for him but where could I begin when there is no clue at all.