Solitude

As I watched the sun going down behind the trees in the distance I saw her getting showered with affection I just couldn't help but think...why not me too. But in that fleeting moment I laughed at myself and reminded myself that everything I went through is because of my choices and no one ever forced me to go down this path. I should have known it would be a lonely road or at least a cold one but I never thought I would miss my old self, she was so beautiful. Her love for everyone made her shine like the moon at night guiding everyone in the darkness. But everyone she loved ended up killing her and now there is no return for her as she grew tired and realized she needed to love herself even if that would cause everyone to hate her and she didn't mind she was used to being in the dark anyways.

"Luna...Luna! " I took off my headphones and turned and looked at Mark, the sun was setting and everything had a gold tint making it seem like I was in a dream. Golden hour can really make everything look so beautiful. Mark's brown eyes were more vibrant than usual so when I turned I immediately locked eyes with him. I smirk and glare at him before saying.

"You can see me? And here I thought I was invisible since you always ignore me." I answer sarcastically so he can take a hint and leave me alone.

"Why are you here? Why don't you leave already? No one likes you and wants to be around you." He said while coming close so no one can hear. Funny it looks like we're having a nice chat but in reality he's cursing me out.

"Why am I here? I'm having coffee at the café. Is it not obvious? And you said no one likes to be around me? Do you see anyone around me I was enjoying myself before you came and started talking to me. So why don't you leave me alone." I say as I roll my eyes at him and put my headphones back on.

"Stay away from Sally, I know you made her cry yesterday so either stay away from her or I'll deal with you myself." He said in a more serious tone and a little louder as he's barely able to control his anger.

I sigh...everyone just likes to assume and I'm so tired of them always jumping to me for when things go bad. I know I can be rude but it's never for no reason. I guess I should go talk with Sally and make her cry so these claims could be true.

"Oh no she cried when, where? Oh wait but according to you I should know all this but please tell me the details as I'm sure you know them better than myself." I say to him with a huge smile on my face. At this point I feel like I have a knack for being annoying and rude since everyone wants to portray me as that. Why not go along with it?

"Shut up and just stay away from her." He said looking down on his phone before turning around and walking away.

Ugh that's so annoying. I really don't understand why people keep thinking I hate Sally or that I bully her but whatever that's on them. I turn back to look at the trees where the sun was setting and notice it's dark so I get up and head home.

When I turned the corner I bumped into a tall man a head taller than me so not that tall but tall to me. We both fell to the ground and we both took a second to realize what just happened.

"I'm so sorry, are you okay!?" We both speak at the same time. So we both looked at each other before saying "Yeah I'm fine." At the same time again. The man got up to his feet quicker than me so he stretched his hand to help me get up. But I'm so used to not receiving help that I was too busy to notice as I was looking for my headphones so when I was getting up I saw him retreating his hand away.

"I'm so sorry I didn't see your hand. I was looking for my headphones." I immediately apologized and looked down feeling guilty. But then I spotted my headphones and his phone so immediately I grabbed them and handed him his phone." Here your phone?" It took him a second to realize it was his phone.

"Thank you I wouldn't have realized my phone fell out of my pocket." He said while checking if it was damaged and then putting it in his pocket.

"Vincent, don't talk to her, she probably hit you on purpose." Mark yelled as he came around the corner and behind him was Sam, Patricia and Sally. Oh great I bump into everyone I didn't want to see.

"Yes Mark, I totally bumped into him on purpose. I put this building in each other's way just to bump into him." I say while looking at him as if I was caught doing something. "Well now if we're done establishing that I did this on purpose I'm leaving." I then turned to the guy and looked him in the eye and said. " Again I'm sorry for bumping into you." Then I walked away.

As I was walking I noticed my hand was burning and I saw a red line as if I scratched myself and I thought about his leather jacket that had a pocket with a belt so it probably scratched my hand and left a small red line. Whatever it'll go away in a couple minutes.

Walking away I can hear Mark bad mouthing me but I don't care I just want to go home. When I finally got to my house I immediately dropped on the couch. Work was bad and then dealing with them was annoying.

Crazy to think that we were all best friends in the past. As I took off my hoodie a small piece of paper fell out of the pocket so I reached down and grabbed it. It was a business card and just had a name Vincent and I assume his phone number. Who's Vincent? Whatever, I can care less whose number this is.

I then think of the guy I bumped into and think could it have been his? No it couldn't have been him too much happened at that short time he couldn't possibly have the time to do that. He is new to the group so I don't know him, but I'm sure the guys have told him nasty things about me so why would he give me this.

It doesn't matter so I rip the piece of paper and throw it away. I don't need distractions right now so I head into my room and change into my pajamas and think about how my month-long vacation will finally start tomorrow. I will have all the time I want to paint again finally.