Can't Enjoy Anything

Seriously, day one of my vacation and I have no idea what to do. I wanted to paint but I got no supplies. It has been too long since I have painted so all my paint and brushes are not good. I guess I can go to the store and get some supplies and why not stop by a bookstore while I'm at it. It's been awhile since I've read as well.

I took a shower and decided to actually dress properly since I usually wear sweats and baggy sweaters and with summer around the corner it's too hot for that type of clothing. As I look in the mirror I think about that Vincent guy and of how he saw me with the baggiest sweater and sweats ever. What a great first impression. I do feel a little embarrassed thinking about it. But good thing I'll probably never see or talk to him again.

Seriously as I look at my closet I realized I have no color in there everything is black or gray. Maybe I should do some shopping. I mean why not I have been saving my money anyways. I have some money to spend for the heck of it. I am going to need help looking for clothes. Maybe I should ask Lisa for advice. She has a really good eye for style…She's probably busy tending to her garden. I probably shouldn't bug her. I'll just message Holly.

Holly and I have been friends since high school she was one of a few people who know the truth behind every stupid misunderstanding that I have been involved in. She always stood by my side and defended me when no one else did.

I get on my phone and then notice I really don't have that many friends, but it's alright I'm fine with just a few of them. So I messaged Holly if she was busy and immediately got a response. She was at work. I didn't even know when she got a job. I knew she was looking for a job but she never told me she got it. So I told her to choose a color for me and instantly she chose lavender, so I'm just going to assume purple. I really don't want to dig and look for that specific color.

I decided to wear my long hair down with a light gray long sleeve over the shoulder top with some dark high rise navy jeans and my black and white converse nothing over the top. I look in the mirror and realize I should probably go work out. I'm not in the best shape. I'm a little chubby, not enough to be round but enough to notice the muffin top if I wore low cut jeans. The only thing I know I have is that I have big boobs but regardless that's still nothing I want to show off. I have an hourglass figure but I always hide it since I feel like I don't look good since I'm chubby. But I wouldn't call myself ugly I'm more like a face you see everyday, nothing great to look at and easy to ignore, which is fine by me.

As I finish getting ready I go and grab my keys and wallet and head out. The moment I stepped out I forgot its morning and the sun was out . Usually I'm never out in the daylight. I'm usually at work so it hurts my eyes. I squint as my eyes adjust to the light and I can see my surroundings. My front porch is so tiny I don't have much space just enough for some potted plants that have sprouted and look very green and beautiful.

"Luna, hey how are you? This is a rare occurrence." I turned and saw my neighbor Julie. She and I are so similar not only in age but in hobbies. We became good friends the moment I moved here which has been at least seven years. I remember when I first moved here I was twenty years old and I was afraid of meeting my neighbors thinking I might have more drama if they didn't like me but when I introduced myself one morning she heard the music playing in my car and that sparked everything. The beginning of our friendship. We like the same type of music, the same hobbies, even the same authors. I'm so glad to know her.

"I'm going shopping. It's been a while since I've bought new clothes." I say with a smile on my face and as I'm unlocking the car door.

"You should buy more colorful clothes. It's starting to get really hot here. You know how California gets very bipolar weather."

"How'd you know that's what I was going to do today. Holly told me to get lavender color tops but I'm just gonna get purple and see where I go from there." I say while laughing and thinking how we think alike too.

"Really? Where's the invite? How come you didn't invite me to go with you?" She says with her hands on her hips.

"I didn't invite you because I know you're busy with Rose. I would rather you spend your spare time resting than going shopping with me." I say while looking at her house. Rose is so cute but very demanding, then again what baby isn't.

"But-" As soon as she opened her mouth we both heard Rose crying and I just smiled and told Julie.

"Go Rose needs her mother next time we'll both go out and you can choose any outfit for me." I tell her as she walks to her house.

"Really you can't take that back!" She turns and says excitedly while looking me in the eyes.

"Yes I swear." And with that she signaled me okay with her hand and went inside as Rose cry got louder.

I got in my car and luckily since it was nine in the morning there was no traffic so I got to the mall pretty quickly. I get out and put on my headphones and think of what genre of music I want to listen to while shopping. Alternative rock, Pop, Spanish, K-pop or classical? I seriously have no idea so I let the music that was already playing in my car play in the headphones.

So Wake Me When It's Over by Vorsa started playing and it didn't really go with how bright and sunny the day was but nonetheless I like this song a lot so I decided to let it play and put it on repeat since it's been a while since I've heard it.

The smell of coffee was so welcoming that my mouth got watery. Maybe I'll get some at the end when I go home one small cup. I make my way in the mall on one side entrance. Great, I see I wasn't the only one who wanted to go out in the far distance. I see Mark looking like a lost puppy behind Sally and the rest of the group with one new guy next to Mark in the back.

Vincent right he is really good looking. I didn't notice because I'm actually pretty tall myself but he looks even taller next to all of them. He is wearing all black looks like I'm not the only one who only wears black. I smiled at the idea and then I felt eyes on me and realized Sally saw me. So I smiled at her and turned to walk the opposite way.

Really hate how small the world can be but then again we all came here back when we were all friends. Whatever, I see a new store and the clothes look really cute so I go in there and look around. After a while I come out with nothing. This happened with a couple other stores. I really don't like shopping. I'd rather shop for someone else.

I go to one last shop and I see a couple shirts and thin sweaters that I can potentially wear this summer. I was lucky to find one lavender top and other colored clothes that aren't too bright but pastel.

After I finished I then walked back to my car, put the clothes there then went to Barnes and Noble. Thank goodness it's in the mall. I've been trying to get 1Q84 by Haruki Murakami so I was extremely happy to finally get it and while there I got coffee in the small cafe. So I can read a lil before driving home.

"Do you mind if I sit here for a while? I lost my friends." I looked up to see a good looking face for a second. I was at a loss of words, then I looked around and realized there were no other empty seats. Great, I didn't want to socialize with him at all but I guess I'll be nice.

"Sure, go ahead." I sigh, taking off my headphones and moving my cup closer to my side so he can have some space.

"Oh that's a good book you got there, it's going to keep you curious and questioning throughout the story." He said with a glint in his eyes.

"Do you know of Haruki Murakami?" I was super curious since not many people like his work since they are very bizarre stories.

"Yes it's interesting, to think he comes up with all those plots and characters." He said, sounding very excited.

I was about to say more when I saw Mark and the rest of his group. "Umm listen I think it's cool i finally found someone else to talk about my favorite author but your friends are here so why don't you go to them." I tell him since they seem to be looking around as if looking for someone. I stare at him so he can take a hint.

"Who cares they are so boring anyways, I didn't even want to come to the mall." He said, and I remember how he was in the back when I saw him earlier today.

"I'd rather hangout with you, the moment I saw you I knew you were going to come here. Mark mentioned how you're a bookworm and I'd rather hangout with you than with them." He says while looking me straight in the eyes. I'm not used to being stared at so I shy away and look down hoping that he didn't notice my ears going red. Then it hits me what he said.

"Wait. They talk about me?" I said, sounding irritated.

"Vincent! There you are, we were looking everywhere for you." Mark said, sounding so happy but I could feel the temperature drop the moment he saw the person next to his Vincent. "What are you doing here?"